Im finding myself dealing with AA a lot better, and really when that hurdle is passed, i get some really good results. However the passing of one hurdle seems to just get me to the next.

Last minute resistance is, i guess, a sign to me that i've made it much further than where i was before, but at the same time really destroys my confidence/frame. It doesn't always happen but when it does...ugh.

Every time its happened, its pretty much been me in bed with them, cuddling, huge boner, slowly making a move, then getting told "i don't feel like it", or "it just doesn't feel right"

Immediately, i say "hey thats fine, i'm not going to make you do something you don't want to do " and i'm sincere about that. Then i suffer haha.

Leading up to that point, i probably screwed up not putting in enough body contact making them feel more comfortable.

the other night i walked home at 2 am because i couldn't sleep next to this attractive half naked chick. I was so wired it was ridiculous. By wired i don't mean intoxicated or drugged up, i just mean the urge to have sex was so strong i couldn't sleep. that nights situation was the tipping point and it goes something like this.

I just signed up at a new gym here in Aus. It's really good, has spa, pool and gym and its right on the beach. You can leave the pool and run into the ocean next to the beach.

One day after a gym session i went downstairs to check out the spa. While relaxing, two cute girls walked in. I acted like i haven't seen them and engage in conversation with people around me while thinking of an approach. A minute later after the guys i was talking to left, i ask the girls when the pool normally closes. After that we talk for an hour or so trade names and i take my leave as i already had plans that night. It was more about the approach for me so # closes weren't on the mind...but they should be from now on no matter the situation.

Yesterday night after another gym session one of the girls , HBteach, walks into the spa without me noticing and is resting next to me not saying anything (come on, would it kill you to say hi). So i act shocked/happy and start talking to her all goes well, and we talk for almost an hour and decide to trade numbers and make plans to visit some other local areas together. While walking out of the gym together she points to where she lives, which is in a different direction to me. However she points to a bottle shop and suggests getting a bottle of wine and taking it back to her place...My interpretation is that there is a good possibility she wants to sleep with me. So i play along.

We get back to her place and start talking some more, listen to music, eat some dinner, drink some wine. At this point she is sitting on my lap, im stroking her legs and were talking about sex. How we are during sex, funny sex stories, she proclaims shes very promiscuous, and i say that its nice to meet some one who is comfortable with who they are and knows what they want. She then goes to the bathroom and i move to the bed where the laptop is playing music and pretend like i'm looking at her music. She gets on the bed too.

i turn over after putting on the band The roots, and am lying down. I talk a little more about sex get her to read a passage out of 50 shades of grey as sexily (is that a word?) as she can. This was hilarious. I then ask her how often she likes to have sex...she pauses and says "well thats a bit personal"...( we literally just talked about how she liked anal some times and this is personal? ) she says she would like to have sex every night if she could. I ask about tonight. She replies, i don't know and goes on to tell me she just broke up with her boyfriend last Saturday.

I think at this point i should have done the "freeze out" i think its called. Instead i say hey no worries it has to be mutual. At this point its 2 am and i ask if i can spend the night and she says if you want so i get undressed and get under the covers. When i roll over to turn off the lights she comments on me having a cute ass, i say thanks but you can't touch it jokingly (....i should have said go ahead and squeeze it or something, the "hands off the merchandise" idea should only be for early stages...imho). When the lights go off, i roll over and cuddle her, immediately feeling her soft butt in my crotch i get a boner. Can't control that haha. we talk a little more, im running my hands up and down her leg. I go over to kiss her and she says sorry it just doesn't feel right, you're attractive, and nice but i don't know.

Hearing that just messes with my head because at this point my animal instincts were in overdrive. so i again say no worries, she offers to drive me home and i say no its fine i'll just stay on this side of the bed. After about an hour of tossing and turning i can't take it and i make up all sorts of stupid excuses like "the bed is too soft im going to head back to my place" even say "i can't do this sorry this just reminds me of another situation like this and its messing with my head" and then i get up and leave. Really left things as awkward as possible haha. Sent a huge text basically saying " no dramas, but the real reason i left is i can't sleep next to a half naked chick without thinking about sex. talk soon"

Anyway a week goes by she sends random texts here and there, never really seeming to respond to my texts, but is opening conversations...

Yesterday i texted saying im going to go down to the gym to use the spa, she says shes going too and will meet me there.

SO, here we are in the spa. There is WAYYY more kino going on. Bodies are touching pretty much the entire time, shes touching me, i'm touching her way more frequently/playfully. I'm pretty much nursing a semi the whole time. We move to the corner of the spa and start talking about more personal stuff, and talk about the other night. While this is going on we are play fighting to see who gets the corner, i win and then she wants me to get out of the corner. I tell her she has to seduce me out of the corner with a playful smile. She giggles then tries some half assed attempts, and i say no you can do better.

Then she goes into over drive and straddles me (fuck was not ready for that). Puts her feet on my knees and starts slowly moving up and down saying please please please, scruntching her breasts (small but cute) making a bit of cleavage right in my face (i litteraly cant think straight and its showing haha) then she sits in my lap, and im trying to prevent my boner from going where it wants to...keep in mind were surrounded by at least 6 other people but no one is within a couple meters of us....not sure what it looked like from their point of view though haha.

If this ever happens again, im just going to pull her in so she feels it. Hiding arousal is stupid, i think it just shows how confident you are if you just let the other party know "yeah i have a boner so what?".

I joke about how unfair it is that when guys get turned on its like a lighthouse in the middle of a dark ocean. She reaches down and grabs my dick, twice. The second time, she says thats a weird button (board shorts). I can tell shes having fun, and follow up my statement about how guys have a hard time hiding arousal with how girls blush when they are horny, like she is now. She cracks a huge grin. I should have just undone the button...again...next time. Unfortunately she had a dinner party to host back at her place (maybe it was just an excuse, who knows) and has to leave.

almost 15 minutes later when i've calmed down and i can walk out of the spa without being able to hang a towel on my rod, i take my leave. This girl is cute, and fun to flirt with, but im wondering if thats all she does, flirt. I know that shes been out of a relationship recently so i'll give her time, and try not to get too pussy whipped. In the mean time im going to try and approach at least one girl a day and go for number close. Any advice/constructive comments is appreciated.

thanks