I'm starting a journal and writing about my field reports because it makes a lot of sense that it will lead to better game.

My approach and open feels pretty good, I never do canned and if I do I probably won't notice it myself. In addition to that, since I started consciously gaming, I approach way more women than I used to so that's great. Hence my journey from afc to mpua has begun.

Most of my approaches are leading to great conversations rapport (lot's of kino) I haven't been slowed down on my kino once but I have to work on escalation to a close, number and especially kiss...I know it's me wussing out right now, they don't stop my kino yet I still get that resistance inside before a close move, I'll get rid of that.

There used to be "that girl I should've approached" but not anymore. This weekend I went out in San Francisco and approached every girl I wanted to and that's good for me. Still my numbers need to be a lot better, with the amount of girls I approached and talked to, I only got one number close. It is a cool one however. It was from a hot female dj at the club! Female dj's get hotter just by djing so after her set we hit it off, chemistry, dancing, I got a number close, with more game, that should've have been a k-close to f-close... so I'll keep working. But still good... now the phone txt fb game.

Special notes from field: Never tell a girl "you look tired" unless it's followed by "you should come back to my place for...." An HB didn't like me pointing out her tired look, I didn't think of that second line until today, in CF style I think it would work.

You seem smart. Also you already have some great conclusions; try and not to say hot babes they look boring either.

Welcome to the FR section and I hope to read more of your adventures soon.

P.D: Go and check out the Chief`s Guide to outer game in the PUA Lounge section, it`s valuable info.

Damn it. Today I'm posting cause I'm disappointed in myself and even though I'm slightly embarrassed I feel I should write this up to get it out of my system and move on. Last night I got my first real opportunity at end game since I started consciously gaming, and it went way too afc.

I'll begin with a special field note: In trying to get to go back to a girl's place, don't ask if you can spend the night cause you need a place to crash... or else that's all your going to get. I set the tone of just spending the night because I live far away... I noticed that this really reduces the sexual tension that has built up... it's like, oh now we know you're spending the night, it's less fun than trying to figure that out, and of course guards can and will come up too!

Well that was the first mistake and it set the tone for killing sexual tension, here I was, with a cute girl back at her apartment alone and it seemed like everything stayed in comfort zone, I couldn’t turn up the heat, it wasn't even awkward just not sexual (and it was sexual earlier in the night).

The girl and I have gone out before, we have sexual tension and we've made out, but here I was at her place and I couldn't muster up a closing move before bed, it didn't feel good for some reason. I was partially afraid of rejection and sensitive enough to know I/we had killed the sex.

So we went to bed, me in the living room her in the bedroom. I should have just left it all alone and end it here, but I didn't. This is a girl I've made-out with, spooned, and cuddled, and I thought I could do it again if I could get in the same bed as her, later in the early morning I woke up and went to try to snuggle and spoon with her, but she wasn't having it... and she made me feel guilty for trying, she said I was disrupting her sleep and she got upset. I'm not sure why I even tried this move but maybe I went needy and needed some female validation.

After her reaction I became self-conscious of that move, is it shady? Or weak? afc? It didn't work on her but it has years ago with other girls in different circumstances... the key is the sexual tension has to be high, and even then, there are better ways to go about it I'm sure.

Darn it, see?, rejected anyway, it's much better to escalate sexually consistently/confidently and get shutdown, than fear rejection and get rejected anyways! Maybe she was upset I didn't try something more alpha earlier and tried this weaker move later.

That was probably my last chance with this girl, and even if it wasn't, I have to move on emotionally and psychologically. I gotta get to work and study end game and get rid of any fears holding me back.

To end it on a positive note, I'll re-frame the beginning, this was my first opportunity at end game since I started consciously gaming! Hey that's good news, I started with problems opening, then getting numbers, then mid, and now I finally get to study end game. There's a bright side and there will be more