About Me
Average/Above Average height
Slender build, but I get well-toned when working out
Pretty good-looking
Dress smartly (one level below hipster, which is where I prefer)

It's not uncommon for me to catch HB7s or HB8s eye-fucking me. In my current location, most people have zero clue on how to dress or style in general. I believe this to be a huge reason on why I get stares.

(Note that when I use numbers (i.e. HB#), I'm merely using it to give an idea of the physical attractiveness of a person. I don't particularly favor using numbers, because it seems to objectify people, but it does provide valuable context.)

History
- Never really "good" with girls
- Long-term relationship (ended)
- Started reading pick-up material
- SNLed an HB9.5 who had a fantastic personality
- Long-term relationship'd her (ended)
- ReStarted practicing pick-up

I'm Jim, and this is my journey.

This entry summarizes important info from my breakup with Q up until the next entry.

Over the last few months, my social circle has slowly been integrating with the Swedes. The Swedes are a tight-knit group of Swedish students at a local college. Quite a few of them (girls and guys) are attractive (a couple of the guys had previously done modeling). All the guys are chill. The girls are particularly different from American ones, because they're a lot more open (like other Europeans) when it comes to sexuality; and, they just have different views in general. Many future entries are sure to include some of these characters.

Q - my EX GF and now good lady friend. HB9.5, 10 personality. Bi-curious, but sexually awkward.

sHBname = Swedish HB
sName = Swedish guy

sMediator - the Swedish mediator. Tired of the Swedish melodrama, she's started integrating more with my social circle, becoming friends with us. She's acknowledged her attraction towards me, but I don't find her attractive. This is my backdoor of sorts, because I can call/text her at anytime and figure out where the Swedes are.

sHBclown - bi-sexual, decently tall, thin, tight body, OK face. Personality, sexuality, and body more than make up for her face. Wants to fuck Q.

sHBshort - sHBclown's roommate and close friend. Cuter than sHBclown, but less responsive and more closed.

A recurring theme is: we all go out to bars/clubs, our social circles intertwine, after-party/logistics take the night elsewhere.

Until Now
- 4 weeks ago: my close friend throws a house party. A lot of HBs from his class are there. Isolation in that house is near impossible, so I just DHV and have fun the whole time. Two HBs, HBcurvy and HBdiff give me IOIs, but there would have been too much drama to #close in front of all the other HBs. Eventually, everyone goes to the bars/clubs and we by happen-chance end up at the same place. As they're kicking us out of the place, HBcurvy puts her arm in mine (almost like claiming me). Poor logistics kept me from advancing the situation, and my inebriated mind doesn't think to #close. She finds me on facebook the next day and gives me her number. I've been slow-gaming her since.

- 3 weeks ago: sHBclown is hanging all over me, sHBred is giving me looks from a distance. Bars close and sMediator, sHBclown, and sHBred show dire interest to after-party. We get some alcohol then go and chill at the after-party. Pre-selection in full play, both sHBclown and sHBred sit on either side of me. I switch convos between the two, while each start giving blatant IOIs. Go to make a drink and sHBclown follows me into the kitchen and initiates a good makeout before being interrupted by AFCawkward. sHBclown "needs to smoke" so we go into the garage and a solid makeout session ensues. Goes on for a good 5 minutes with a lot of external rubbing. If it wasn't near freezing in the garage, I would have given it to her right there. (Logistics are something I REALLY need to work on.) Knowing sex is off the table, I end it. Eventually, sHBred isolates herself with me in the kitchen. I know what's on her mind (in hindsight, I should've said, "Make a move."), but my target is sHBclown. Q is getting jealous and pissy and tells me to take her home. (Hindsight: should've given them ALL rides home, ending with sHBclown.)

- 2 weeks ago: I was out of town for work. Apparently, Q, sMediator, sHBclown, sTall, and a few others end up at Q's. Lacking sleeping space, Q let's sHBclown sleep in the same bed as her. Q said she woke up to sHBclown spooning her. Q and sTall start getting involved with each other.

- 1 week ago: sMediator invites Q and me for bottle service. Me, Q, sMediator, sHBclown, sHBshort, 3 sGuys. Coming this close last week has left an irking desire to fuck sHBclown. My intentions are too obvious, though. She feels "I wanted this guy last time, why not this time?" Her hesitation is playing with my mind, as I'm thinking the same thing. She's blatantly targetting Q, hanging by her, kissing her a few times, grabbing her boob, and even suggesting a 3some among us 3. Everyone goes to the same after-party house from previous nights. sHBclown drinks well past her limits and the game ends.

The turning point was last week. I was just winging it before then. Now, I've started absorbing pick-up material. I can already feel a difference. My viewpoint on life is changing (trying to better myself). And certainly, my pick-up abilities are advancing.

Tuesday
Friends and I are getting ready to leave a horrible "pub". A blonde, that he knows and seems way out of his league, approaches AFCawkward and says that she is so drunk and that they have to walk home. She talks to him for a good 3-5 minutes. Meanwhile, my friend and I are sitting 5 feet away and discussing the matter. AFCawkward is so socially inept though, that she'd literally have to say, "Can you give us a ride home and take my number while you're at it?" for anything to happen. We ask him why he didn't do anything and he actually gets mad and defensive, saying, "Oh, yeah, just, on the hunt on a Tuesday night." (The difference between someone who gets angry at their missed opportunities instead of learning from their mistakes.)

Wednesday
Before meeting our other friends, my close friend and I chill out for an hour, taking some shots. He's pretty good with music and it can really get me into state. Not many are people out (Spring Break), but I notice an HBquirky giving me the eye. I wuss out.

Thursday
Stay in, relax, and absorb pick-up material.

Friday
I see on facebook that some of my good friends are in town. I ping them saying we should meet up. They're watching the game, and will hit me up afterwards. sMediator invites me to sHBshort's place for drinks. A few sGuys are there too, but they're all talking in Swedish, so it's hard to stay integrated into the convo. My friends text me where they're at and where they're going. My phone dies. I exit, but not before purposely leaving my alcohol there. I start at the nearest venue and do a slow walk through the whole place, looking for my friends and letting people look. Clearing the next venue, I see HBquirky eying me again. My only goal is my friends though, but when I get halfway up the stairs, I look at her and send her a sly, sly smile. Eventually, I find my friends and the joy which we bring each other is sheer ecstasy. I see a 3-set of HBs and tell my friend (he's good-looking, but AFC) to ask them an opinion opener. When I tell him the line, I could almost see the gears in his head turning; like there was a light bulb in his head that clicked on, and he thought, "Holy shit, that's a legitimate reason to approach these girls." I hear one of them emphasize her answer, but I don't think he knew where to take it. I see another girl eying, HBeyes. We've interacted previously, but I was still exhibiting AFC behavior. She's hoping I eventually just man up.

Saturday (St. Patrick's)
I've had my outfit picked out for a few days. It's literally perfect, because it's peacocking when peacocking is expected (almost like Halloween, but better, because fewer people are in an outfit, which really sets me apart). My close friends are still in town, so we chill out at my place before going out. We smoke a bit then go out to the bars. I split off and tell them I'm meeting my other close friend for a bit. My friend, his brother, and I chill out for a bit, playing music and taking shots. My state is excellent; it's time to start the night.

I meetup with my friends again. An older woman nearby asks if she can have my (unique) hat. I tell her that it's not mine to give away, but if she wants to take pics with it, she can. Her husband thanks me three separate times, knowing full well her night has been made and he's getting laid. I can feel my friends may be a hindrance to my game and make a clean break from them. I start dancing like a fiend and this amplifies my state even more. (I'm not proud of using drugs to get into state, but until my confidence and game improves, I see drugs more as a help than a hindrance.)

I get some water can keep dancing some more. I notice an HBmystery eying me, and she looks familiar, but I cannot find her in my memory. sMediator texts me that all the Swedes are at the venue. I give a quick look, but can't see them, so I ignore it and continue dancing. I make eye contact with HBmystery at least 3 more times. I see the Swedes. (Remembering my fault from the previous week, my goal is to purposely ignore sHBclown. I'm just going full-blown DHV and pre-selection.) I walk up to an open spot near the bar and notice sHBclown in my periphery. She stares at me for 3 seconds, then tells her friend sHB7. They both stare at me for 10 seconds. (10 seconds may not seem long, but when it's a stare, it's long. Hindsight, I could have walked by them without looking at them and said, "Next time take a picture, it'll last longer." BUT, I didn't want to acknowledge her existence, so I don't consider it a mistake.)

I turn around and make eye contact with HBmystery again. I finally give her an indicator to approach me. She complies and tells me that she was at the party from a few weeks ago. She IS HBdiff. HBdiff is so much more interesting than she initially let on. She tells me her father is Dutch, her mother French, and she's Canadian. I'm naturally drawn to foreigners and hand her my phone, telling her, "Put it in." She tells me to add her on facebook. I feel sHBclown noticing my #close. sHBclown is flustered.

I head over to a table and say hi to sHBred (from a few weeks ago). She wasn't vibing, but sHBshy is interested. I quickly eject and start talking to sGuys from bottle service night. sHBshort (sHBclown's roommate) starts hovering and I start playfully flirting with her. (My intentions with her are that I'm attracted to her, but I don't think it'll progress because of sHBclown.) sHBshort gives me a huge hair flip and a laugh. sHBclown sees this interaction and she's done. TKO'd.

From a guy she wanted to fuck, then he wanted to fuck her (which she hesitated).
- She's been completely ignored by me
- Stared at me with sHB7
- Witnessed me #closing HBdiff
- Witnessed her closest friend flirting with me

She ended up taking sHBshort's apartment keys and going to sHB7's place (leaving sHBshort locked out). No doubt this is because of her "ruined" night and partial revenge from our flirting.

I'm a firm believer in "Leave a girl better than when you met her." My actions may seem evil, but it's all to set up the long game. Soon, she'll come crawling back to me and I will give her awesome (and hopefully repeated) sex.

sMediator invited me out for drinks with some other Swedes: sMediator, sHBclown, sHBshort, sHBred, sHBshy, sHB8, sGuy. Mostly, a lot of cross-table banter. AFCawkward and AAFC were also there. AFCawkward was non-factor as usual. AAFC's only strength is one-liners, which usually come in sporadic spurts. (This seems to come across as try-hard because he's playing off of other people's energy rather than creating; not to mention he's almost like a one-trick pony.)

This night did well to increase their comfort around me. I have enough passive value where I can work in attraction through routines in the future (and then optimally, seduction).

Plus Points
- IOI (light punch) from sHBshy (I reciprocated light kino as they were leaving.)
- isolated banter with sHBclown (I can feel that she's just waiting for me to blossom, wanting and needing a reason to f*** me.)
- high-five reciprocated from sHB8
- small DHV with a story about a drinking game

Learned/Lows
Routines - There were times when I was quiet and I rarely piqued others' interest. I want to be the life of the situation. I'm going to work on routines all week.

Buying Temperature - Because of St Patrick's night, I was thinking sHBclown would be full-on. However, BT is something that fades with time and must be acted upon during the same night. St Patrick's did well to increase my social proof.

Oneitis - sHBclown may be causing a oneitis effect. I don't want her as a GF, but after coming this close to an FClose, only to have it be ripped away.. I've subconsciously placed this girl one level above others. I realize this is a bad situation, but at least I recognize what has happened. I've thought of a routine to head-fake a LJBF to her and then turn it into an attraction/seduction ploy.

Other Progress
I've been texting HBcurvy (from the party a month ago) and we have a Day 2 today.

I've read Sex God Method, a few other sex tidbits, and have started reading My Secret Garden. This seems like premature optimization, because I haven't gotten attraction down solid yet. However, my thinking is that if I do happen to FClose a sHB, and the sex is ridiculously good, well, she's going to do 1 of 2 things: A: tell the other sHBs and my value will skyrocket, allowing easier closes; or B: tell no one because she wants me all to herself (as a FB or FWB). Either is beneficial.

I'm pausing My Secret Garden and going to practice routines and pre-seduction all week.

Had a Day 2 with HBcurvy. Attraction and comfort stages are complete. We both threw in tidbits about sex, so seduction shouldn't be met with too much LMR. I moved her around to a few different shops (can't remember what the tactic is called) while guiding her a few times and using light kino. Finally, gave a false time constraint. The goodbye hug was awkward, because I think she was expecting a kiss, but I don't see her as GF (FB, yes) material, so no PDA for her.

Q was gone for work a few days and got back in town today. Me, Q, CloseFriend, sMediator, sHBclown, AFCawkward all met up to socialize. I played it cool by talking mainly with CloseFriend and occasionally Q (not chasing sHBclown). sHBclown definitely wants to fuck Q.

Other Progress
HBdiff is on my radar as well. She's got a small little body and definitely has that shy cuteness about her. Her mind is what I'm really interested in discovering. She piques my curiosity and these are the kind of girls that make me tick.

I've been watching Gambler's YouTube video on Night Game and this is EXACTLY what I'm going to start executing. In the club, I already have a ton of social proof, because the Swedes are always a group of 10+, plus they're all attractive.

Another thing I've been doing is using the Memos or Notes app on my phone to store mnemonic crutches for material.