| I have ADD, and as a result, I find myself analyzing everything I do.
When I start to analyze, I never stop, and it is constantly nagging me in the back of my head. It's like therapy for me to get another viewpoint on my stance with the target I'm gaming.
A little background.
I have been talking to the target for a few months now, who I met through another female friend of mine, called Kate. Kate has a crush on me, but I'm not looking to get anything from her. Kate has also admitted to the target that she hates going to parties with target, because target always gets the hot guys and all the attention. Even after they, as friends, talked about how much Kate was crushing on me, target eventually started to show interest in me.
So last night, Kate celebrated her b-day, and target was to show up. Me and target had made arrangements so that the fact that target likes me and I like target, is to be kept secret. I arrive at the party, target is already there - Target gives me a hug as with all the other guys, but playfully hits me in the belly with a clenched fist when she walks past me and such. Fast forward until the alcohol is beginning to take effect, me and target takes a trip outside, and make out. She sees Kate in the window in the door, and reenters the house with me. Later, me and target goes down to the basement, where confidently navigates me to a room with a bed (as she knew all along where we could find a bed). We lie on the bed and fool around and I feel her breasts - But people upstairs are getting intoxicated, and are running around in a drunken stupor. She tells me that she is afraid that someone might come down, and says "This is too scary", and proceeds to run up the stairs, signaling me to come up a bit later. I hear that she meets her ex boyfriend, by the top of the stairs, and he says something along the lines of "long time no see" and i hear a kissing sound. The whole thing sounds like he was just drunk and wanted a kiss, but I don't believe nothing else happened.
Thing is, I'm unsure of her intentions, as she completely ignored me when we walked past eachother numerous times through the night. Maybe I'm just weird, but I just want to hug her every time lol. Okay, stay alpha now.
Later that night, upstairs again, I try to display to her that I am just having fun dancing with my guy friends. As I'm dancing, she comes over and starts grinding on me several times through the night. Later, I find her lying on the floor, just being drunk, with a guy sitting with her (There were also several of my friends present so they didn't fool around or anything), and she stretches her arms out, saying "Hug me!". I just said "No!" and went in the living room again. Later, she had to leave early, and we kissed goodbye, but not as intense as we did earlier that night. I am pondering weather I did anything wrong now.
Like, I've got to have some kind of attraction from this girl, when she does stuff like this behind her friend? And how do I avoid thinking so much about these things, while still being able to differentiate between DHV things and DLV things? I know you can't give me a answer just like that, but could you help me reflect? What's my next move? Thanks!
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