this isn't a field report, at least not yet. I normally don't go for these, dunno why i just don't. However recently after much work and fun, i have developed my game to a level i could be happy with. I still have a sticking point, but i don't feel as though its a problem anymore. I feel as though i am in control of it and could remove it at any time. Tonight i am going out. At some point this week i will chronicle the night out as a reply to this post. The crossroads i find myself at is this, i don't know if i want to keep pursuing perfect game or not. I feel as though i could do very with and game just about anyone. but part of me feels as though this isn't enough. Tonight i'm going out with a friend of mine who is just back from the military, i haven't seen him in months. i cant decide if it would be better to game, or better to just spend time with my friend. like i said, whatever happens i will post a reply to this, and for once i will actually tell you all what I've done. I realize this post seems to be a little all over the place, but that's just where my head is at right now.

thanks for reading

Carl

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"Man is not made for defeat. A man can be destroyed but not defeated." -Ernest Hemingway

i know its taken me ages to write this report so here it is.......

i went out with a couple friends (one of them female) as the night went on the male friend got bored of the night and kept complaining and the girl friend kept cock blocking me


sucked ass :/


but i have had a couple of amazing nights of game lately and i found my spark again

im loving playing the game again, im happy

sorry it took so long, and that ive written nothing. But i have been working 12 hour shifts lately -_-

peace

carl

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"Man is not made for defeat. A man can be destroyed but not defeated." -Ernest Hemingway