Haven't posted in a few, figured I would return w something good, an F Close in half an hour.

In Cocoa beach for the weekend w DREWB. Just got to place by the bay. Notice an HB7 when I walk in at the table with two black guys. Before I know it, she is next to me so I turn and open. The more I talk, the more she pushes her tits against me “accidentally”. I ran some confident small talk. Keeps pushing tits against me, so I put my arm around her “if you’re going to keep bumping up against me..” Small talk about her professional career working for NASA. She asks me what I do, I’m a TV manager. I joke she’s a nerd.
I could read her so kept up the escalation. I say “let’s take a look around this place” and pulled her to the couch near the back of the venue. Escalation was fast, lots of calibration and quick one step forward two steps back. Made out on couch. It starts getting touchy so I let her touch me. I go to reciprocate and on the slightest negative vibe I get, I withdraw my hand and make jokes about she needs to buy me drinks first and whether or not can she afford me. Fast escalation, three minutes in I’m playing w the cat on the couch. I put her hand on my cock, she tells me how big it is.
Fast escalation, but I need a bit more time to seal the deal for sure. Pull her to the dock up against railing pull dress up play w cat and donkey. She keeps asking if I’m a player “No girls are just good at getting my number.” She says it again, I ignore her. I tell her I just had new upholstery installed in my SUV, let’s go check it out. Some more play, then ask “Do you want to get out of here?” She asks what I want, I grab her hand and say “let’s go”.
FukDrewHasTehKeys.jpg “Wait here a min.” Come back shes w two black guys. OMFG I just blew it! No sir, cool down, whatev chill at bar order water and talk to a girl. NASA girl gives signal to come over turns out black guys are friends brofist me - they seem effeminate actually (didn’t see that coming). Now she wants to dance get freaky on the dancefloor. A girl walks by selling roses, I shake my head no with a smile. Tell her let's go to the SUV. Too many ppl around let's go for a drive say down a bit, we'll walk by the water. Park escalate fclose fast as ppl walk by. Can't figure out how to work AC or back seat down fucklogistics. Giving her head, shes making loud noises. Awkward fclose in backseat bc not enough room - she cums I fake it.
She starts feeling slutty, she says she never does it I say, I know I feel like I'm in high school again *pause* you're fun. Heading back to party but I want to bring her home to fuck. Shes still horny - finger her at SUV - guys walk don't notice by put lights out right after they pass. Said I have little stars on my ceiling to make her feel better about hooking up. Go back to party bcuz she didn't verbally commit to going back to my place - she was uneasy about leaving her friends since they couldn't get back to base w/out her.
Back to the bar, DREWB wants to leave. Tell her I'm gonna leave in 5mins she can come w. I get her a water she sucks it down try to get another one shes gone. Maybe thinks I left her. Drew's ready to go leave - see her coming in, u want to come?
As we pull up i tell her FYI drews sis is there but shes prob asleep makes her feel comfy. "Let's check out the room". Lots of oral and fcloses. Drew's chilling in the living room. She tells me she has a fantasy. Rest is history.
Stay in frame, lots of calibration, know how to read girls and escalate if there's no resistance, two steps forward one back, be confident funny and tease when the slightest awkward pause or moment of uncomfortability creeps in.

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Quickie update since last time. 2 x k closes and another girl f close.

tip of the day: being in state is priceless. if you're not there, stick to the numbers game + gaming.

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"Jaguar adults generally meet only to court and mate." -Wikipedia

Long time. May very well be my final update.

Tonight I ended a four night streak of four F-Closes, each with a different girl. 2 F-Closes were brand new. Also, turned down an F close from a crazy girl who has been jealous in the past, but a great bod.

Tonight, I went DT out of state and miserable, a female friend dragged me out - just a friend - and i used her strategically as a wing. My target had a BF, their pic was set to her homescreen phone pic. He looked like a beta. Pulled her around the club but friend always followed, grabbing her hand. It became clear overtime that friend wanted me to fuck her instead. Got cute girls snap and friends facebook (wasn't bad looking herself). will hit them up separately.

In the last ~11 months I have changed my life completely. I have more women than I know what to do with and hope to start focusing on quality now, 8's and above only. I would like to find a gorgeous bisexual woman and marry her - hopefully she's cool w me banging girls on the side. I've learned a lot about compliance, so I feel this is within possibility.

Things I've learned:
-Social proof is huge. Friend zone a girl just for this purpose. Also, talking about girls subtly that you hang out with has a HUGE impact.
-Being is state is priceless - but listening to yourself is incredibly important - so many PUAs talk about 'having to go out no matter what', this ruins the fun in PUA for me. The day a close friend of Buddha died, he was sad - this is life. Embrace your feelings, do not seek to cover them. While I did NOT necessarily feel like going out tonight, I said 'I will go out BUT only do what I want - if I don't want to dance w a girl I wont', soon I was surrounded by beautiful women looking to dance.
-Get shady: by this I don't mean do anything unethical, but with your pickup say shady shit and try to find it amusing, you will soon feel comfortable with whatever happens.
-CREEP around. This will teach you calibration and you will develop body language that says you're interested but SHE has to display interest as well because you know what's up. With that said: dump the RSD hardcore mode tactics, I brought a PUA over that runs clubs get blown out by two girls I fuck with friends regularly, be friendly, don't overgame. Hardcore RSD is great for intro, but if you can't maintain it while being confident, then disregard it. Use what works. The RSD troupe in Orlando is a joke - all they do is imitate, whereas the real RSD guys incorporate personality and variance into their styles.
-Learn to be subtle: Orlando almost all girls you talk to have a 'is this guy gonna drug and rape me' look. Being subtle, but in a sexual way shows you know what's up and are experienced.
-If you are going too much with PUA: take a step back. For a long time I went too hard and lost all joy in PUA. I was pushing myself too hard and starting rejecting PUA subconsciously.
-If you do something creepy: be proud you tried it, but learn from it. I look back at some creepy moments, approaching sets in mall and staying past my welcome with a huge grin. I'm so proud of those moments.
-Don't be coercive: If a girl says no, agree and recalibrate. Even if you fuck her by coercing her you are a scumbag, NOT a PUA. PUAs can fuck girls without them feeling threatened. That said ALL GIRLS will throw LMR your way. Be friendly and tell her something about yourself so she will know you are cool and just don't want to fuck her and throw her away.
-Be genuine: girls respond to the truth. I let girls know ahead of time, or in subtle ways, that I have a lot going on and am not a relationship kind of guy, you do not need to spell it out, just don't hide it.
-Be friendly after you fuck her. Make conversation. Don't make her feel like a whore. Girls are wonderful, don't be an asshole after you've fucked her, it just shows that you are insecure and a scumbag.

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"Jaguar adults generally meet only to court and mate." -Wikipedia

Due to several bouts of getting sick while drinking for 3 months or so on and off (maybe more), I've decided to switch to sober game. Initially I didn't think the alcohol was causing the issues because i haven't been drinking more per se - than the last two years, but my body seems to be reacting differently. I'm sure some of this sickness can be attributed to the season, but either way I am NOT FUCKING OK with my health. Even though I am on fucking fire when I drink, I want to learn sober game.

While I have been out sober before - although rare - I did it as a challenge and just accepted that I would be out of state with a "there, I fucking did it" mentality. Being sober meant I was too apathetic to open, despite knowing attraction existed for me by a girl, coupled with 'wow I don't have the energy to open decent enough to build attraction mindset. Inevitably last night, this mindset struck again and I passed on two mediocre opportunities where girls were checking me out. Although I've gotten past the point in my game where I don't bang girls unless I find them attractive in a better-than-average way, I still pussed out from opening - dunno if pussed out is the right word because mentally I was like 'why? would not bang' + 'not in the mood for rejection'.

After some choding around, I just started talking to random people. A set of 9's rolled in with boyfriends (FYI 9's are rare in this venue, in a city voted one of the ugliest cities in the US), being sober didn't help. Later I found the cutest alone, she sat next to me, so I opened - she was smoking a cigarette, I held one up to my lips and motioned for her to light it, she says something like 'what do you want a light?' I just motion again, almost annoyed. I open and run the set holding high value for about a minute and a half before I go into interview mode - I LITERALLY DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO SAY SOBER SPAM. Rather than keep the interview Q's flowing, I turn away in disinterest a few times to collect myself, eventually she dips. Very glad I opened this girl, lately I have decided to pursue 7's and above. Honestly can't say I would have opened this girl even in state drunk. So good for me. But WTF, being sober now is like starting all over again! Honestly, I'm ok with this to some extent, it will allow me to learn the architecture of game - as long as I don't get trapped in my head, this will be awesome.

By the end of the night I learn how to get into state sober. Eye fuck the shit out of a girl who is dancing with her boyfriend, but no opportunity to snatch her hand away. Go to bathroom - which is by the front door - now completely in state, heading back to dancefloor 7.5 tells me I look great, I am exuding a truly confident, fun, in state persona, grab around her back as she keeps talking. She starts asking if I'm gay - shit test, so lean in and she looks away so I can't kiss her lips, but kiss both her cheeks sensually. Keeps asking if I'm gay as shit test, she is surprised I grabbed her - wasn't ready for it and her friends are trying to pull her out, so don't bother going for a NC. Bouncer saw everything - which is important because this dude gets me in free, so want to keep the cool vibe w him.

Pass by a girl, stare her the fuck down with sexy eyes + cheshire cat grin. She says something to me and puts her hand out. Try to spin her but she almost falls as her two male friends pull her out.

Although it was clearly not a successful night of game, it was one of the most important for me. I learned a TON. Here's what I've decided for my battle plan next time going out (sober):

1. Talk to WHOEVER right when I get there. Get in state by talking. It will still take me at least an hour on a non-state night to build decent rapport mode. Let people look at me like a weirdo if I say some dumb shit - doesn't matter! I'm using them to meet my own ends anyway.
2. Have a stack ready. If I'm not in state, I need a stack. If I'm in state, I don't need a stack. Better to have both covered.
3. Drink a fucking redbull. Seriously, this makes it a ton easier to talk when you don't want to.
4. Do not get trapped in my head, post up. Opening posted up makes it harder to feel awkward esp when you blow a set.
5. Eye contact, smile + body language & escalation. Back to 60 Style for me it is. I can eye fuck a girl so good, even if I don't have shit to say, doesn't matter.

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Second night of sober game. Took a good hour or two to get in the right mood, but once I got started I had a blast.

-Went direct and told one girl she was 'gorgeous', horrible idea esp since I didn't have eye contact and had to repeat myself. Should have called her 'adorable'.
-Sat down & opened a set, ran routines. Girl shit tested me asked if I was gay, I couldn't think of a reply so when she asked me again, I moved over to her side of the booth and forced a kiss. It went over well and she pulled me and her friend to the dancefloor. They were both awkward and my girl admitted she doesn't get out much- asshole hipster vibe. Lost the set when I introduced her to my two younger wingmen (she was older than me and they were younger, so was socially awkward, but she had asked about my friends earlier and i didn't qualify myself & said they were 'around', wings were on the dancefloor so had to intro- didnt work whatev).
-Lots more opens, lots of awkward girls here. Discussed w my wing start going to other places (he's under 21 so limited to locations).

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"Jaguar adults generally meet only to court and mate." -Wikipedia

Sarging LA:

In LA for the week. I've been working crazy hours on a business trip, unfortunately the PUAs I've messaged from here haven't hmu in time </3 but I was able to get out and get a taste tonight.

1) Clubs / bars closing at 2 blows my mind! Just when the fun is getting started!! Explain that shit to me....
2) Women here are a 1xmillion more friendly than Orlando. Bitch shield in Orlando be 10x higher. Nigga wut. Surprised 1xmillion.
3) Blowouts felt soft. Didn't even phase me. Girls here don't compare to the bullshit a nigga gotta put up w in Orlando ferreal.

I was able to friend up quite easily. HB8 asian girl who was w a friend started flirting hard w me. I got a lil drunk and she called me out to my friend so I could hear. In return I sarged a 2 set and brought them back to the table as a FU to the asian. She got it. Asian set wasn't feasible, decided against it, but was hot doe. More interested in playing the bar.

Girls here be def afraid ur gonna pull some tricks.

Ended up bonding w a girl over old school horror films & vincent price. Make out & she brings be to another bar and buys me a drink, she says "you would get lucky if it was any other night" hb6.5 who has to work tmrw. Meh not a big deal bc hb6.5, her friend 7.5 was into me doe. Girls don't respect you unless you go after the hotter of the 2set first, I have come to realize this as a fact. She's staying w 6.5 friend, try to build sensual tension at end of night, but another dude friend there so breaks chances. Get FB close. Meh.

Being out tonight really made me question how much better I have gotten in the last year of my 2 years of pua. While I have definitely gotten more confident, do I constantly need to go out 3 / 4 nights a week to improve & maintain? This seems like a tall order for a hobby, but facts have no bearing on convenience. Thoughts?

tl;dr: definitely getting a more positive vibe from LA women than Orlando, no doubt! LA 2pm closing time is mega-whack, but makes me think that PUAs prove themselves here by tightening game on a solid clock.

definitely seeing much of 'good looking natural guy gets hot girl', which goes against the 'solid game pua scores' mentality. then again "the pua should be the exception to the rule".

Final thoughts: i have caught myself breaking habits i am supposed to follow, talking too much, laughing etc, boundaries i have set for myself as my identity: HUGE PROBLEM: I have a seemingly bipolar setting, one is very outgoing and overly talkative, the other is an ideal 60 years style (that sometimes does not open enough sets do to frame), not sure how to maintain!!!! freaking killing me. how do i be my own identity / the identity i feel most natural in during my times when I am most in state / feeling on top of my shit? audio recordings only go so far / inspirational books. this is the wave of state that effects everyone, but if I cannot harness it I will never be able to master myself, let alone my game. what is my great conflict i must solve to attain this peace of mind / or is such a state just a figment of my imagination that only others have been able to attain? i cannot begin to fathom the answer, and when I do i cannot apply... being the first night in weeks i have been able to go out, i have pre-ordained tonight as a 'just enjoy & begin to resume state' night, but i cannot help but judge my performance. If LA was open 2 more hours, I could have continued sets & pulled, but it is not - and others do pull, sharpen my game i must... i have come to realize in life you have to go all the way or none, you can commit to one passion that you will possibly be great at (no guarantees!) and somehow, committing all your time, energy & mindstate you should not grow bored, weary or overdose on this passion- how is that possible? at a philisophical crossroads w game and I do not feel there is any answer which i cannot find within myself, but whatever answer may come- internalizing it will be an altogether different task. I can run sets, i can make girls blush, i cannot consistently hit hook or build real comfort (just bullshit interview style comfort that doesn't ring authentic); put simply i am not making authentic connections to females. i never have in my entire life- even though i have had dozens of women (small # by pua standards i'm sure), have a small handful of casual female friends & can talk to a woman, keeping her attention. i just never have, my entire life, had an authentic female connection, my pua career has been my most authentic connections... i feel i can't stop judging myself based on my own past conditioning with female relations, my pulll #s are not good enough, my hooks are not consistent enough, my game does not result in consistency. This is a HUGE FUCKING PROBLEM. without consistency i cannot hope to get better. without a path, game plan, i cannot hope to accomplish. i feel like the only hope is for my identity to strengthen into my ideal self, which requires constant conscious upkeep. i must be completely conscious of my doings so i do not revert into the neurotic annoyance i have natural tendency towards. i can come off cool as fuck when i'm in state! 10s will check me out! but the neurosis that constantly encapsulates my being is terribly overbearing...

... i know i must do something to improve myself, i have tried many avenues from workouts to meditation, but nothing so far can save me. just myself can save me? oh this pseudo-philisophy again... usually helps for a week, then revert... what should i have expected...

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