Dude, I love the passion in your journal. you are making the same mistake I did when I started all this PUA stuff.

1: You MUST anchor your personality into place. What do I mean by that? DO NOT base your identity on your successes or failures.

Find out your personality and know yourself (in the forums they call this inner game which I think sounds retarded tbh lol). But don't CHANGE your personality dude. Become more confident in the kind of person you are.

What do I mean by this: If you are a sarcastic person, then dont be afraid to be sarcastic rather than choose not to say it. If you are naturally a caring person, then be caring rather than replace your natural personality with a ''I don't give a shit what happens, I am the cocky alpha male who gets attention.''

If you look at alpha males, they aren't always cocky or obnoxious or try to always lead a group, true alpha males are those that aren't afraid to express their opinions/personality.

THIS WAY YOU BECOME AN ALPHA MALE and YOU DON'T LOSE YOURSELF IN PUA

ALOT of PUAs adopt this obnoxious universal personality where they are cocky and obnoxious. This is what I did at first and I lost my some of my closest freinds.

2: Try to go completely natural rather than canned game. Sure kiss gambits and number closes are fine. But when you are having a convo, just talk and express your personality.

3: ALWAYS THINK OF YOUR CONFIDENCE IN YOUR PERSONALITY (INNER GAME) and seriously, the outer game will come after it. Trust me.

Ill pop into this journal from time to time.

Thanks for the advise man! This is actually one of my goals "being comfortable in my own skin" . I'm generally speaking a clownish goofy guy with a VER weird personality! I 'm worried if this could come accross as unattractive? Please shed some light on how i can be comfortable being myself.

Thanks for reading!

It doesn't matter if you are goofy or clownish. If you use these aspects of your personality correctly, then girls will love you for it. I have a really direct, vulgar sense of humour and I tried to change it but I found that if something is funny in your head usually the girl will also find it funny (and if she doesn't then she isn't right for you in the first place). Or if it feels right to grab a girls hand and you do it then the girl will also just go with it because she will feel your confidence.

At the end of the day, as long as your leading the interaction, then the girl will follow.

It isn't due to features of your personality, its the strength of which your EXPRESS your personality

Strength expressing persoanlity , got it!

Day 17

I was loged out after i typed so DAMN MUCH ! i'll have to remeber to save onto notepad i guess. To summarise my post-
1.Had to warm up a lot , was rusty.
2. got a n-close from Blonde Swedish Hb 10 ( ~6ft'1).("perfect close")
3.Had to leave due to weather.
4.Noticed 2 PUAS , one smiled at me as i spoke to Swedish HB - he was tall , slim , tan with a shaped trim beard. Other was tall , bulky with greying hair , looked abouth 44. He was guessing the woman's job and basically had her under his spell. His body language was seriously of epic proportions. He had the charisma of a KING!He was probably in this game for a LONG time! I'd say maybe even GRANDMASTER!

Day 18

Today was a nightgame day! I sarged central london but to no avail . I had a MASSIVE shell that simply could not be broken today . I tried to warm up with directions and asking for the time but it just wasnt enough!! Through the encouragement of PUA Body language , i carried on . I missed out on a MAJOR approach today that im still kicking myself about-

HB 8.5 blessed behind

This HB was at the bus stop and had the most beautiful ass i've seen in a while (im talking BIG ONES like black girls , bear in mind she was blonde!!). I really was gonna approach but this black woman gave me this accusotaory "I know what your upto boy , shame on you!!!!" look so i hesitated and gave up . I have since masterbated furiously to overcome this fustration. And btw this culture of "let's give the brave guy who wants to pick up girls the evil eye in hopes he WONT approach the girl" is p****** me off!! To all those that stare at someone who wants to make progress f*** YOURSELF!!!Seriously. BUT literally 30 secs from my house i saw a HB 7 leaving her house and i thought F*** it , i was going home fustrated anyway and no one was watching anyway so i jogge upto her and tapped her from behind-

HB Screamer

Her- ARGGGGGHHHH ( genuinely got a fright as she did just leave her house.
Me-LOOOOOOL.
Her-Oh my god hahahah!
Me-I saw you leave your house and i just wanted to say you look really nice (puppy face).
Her-Awwww that's so nice!
Me-Haha , btw why were you shocked when i came haha, i mean i dont usually jog after people either.
Her-It was just i'm in a bubble when i left my house , sorry.
Me-You look lie your in a fashion btw.
Her-no , im in marketing.
Me- how do i look btw , i've been going for a rebel look but i've been told its a gay rebel look haha.(sttuttering through the sentence, also the conversation lost its vibe by now.)
Her- no , it looks very smart.
Me-Where you headed to?
Her-I'm going groceries , then a friends house.
Me-cool , im going to eat a kebab then go friend's house too!(total bs)
.....

We just go our own ways at this point. Tips to improve my conversation guys? She was definately interested in the begining till i started to lose the vibe and it went interview style?This is night game btw.

I also realise i havent a CLUE how to insert a sexual vibe at all. I mean , we were right outside her house , if i played my cards right i could've even f-closed (though this is a distant reality which can't happen for the next few months haha).

I came in like a man until i gave the compliment. When i give the compliment , i just end it there and wait for a rejection or not , i dont even do it because it's genuine . How to change this guys(outcome dependancy)? My issues basically boil to this-

1.How to stop caring about what the crowd thinks?
2.How to not be outcome dependant.
3.How to add a sexual vibe . ( i am a virgin so this is a taboo for me )
4. How to HOLD the conversation and keep it FUN?
5. How to stop giving off a deserate vibe ( dont have abundance since im starting from scratch.

Things i've noticed about myself so far ( for future reference)

1. I AM funny ( almost every interaction includes them laughing somehow.)
2. I HAVE the potential to get HB 10's ( Both swedish girl's were 10's , however due to my "weak game" it didnt go further than a number close.
3.I DON'T regret rejections as much as pussying out ( though my desire doesn't seem strong enough to fight the pussying out , in most cases. (I'm seriously still picturing that PERFECT ass carved from that HB right now and am regretting SO much!
4. Girls ALWAYS take a compliment positively , what happens next is me failing due to crap conversation skills.
5.No fap rule DOESNT work on me , as it makes me smell of desperate (already come off as desperate as it is.
6.If i dont fight AA , it only gets worse the next day ( lucky i managed an approach today. )
7. I'm afraid of nightgame as i dont drink and everyone seems "adultish"?? (I dont feel like an adult so this could be the answer why.


That's it guys , thanks for reading and please prove your input!

Day 19 - meeting my inspiration and inner game change!!

So today was basically me , walking around for 2 hours summing up courage to be direct with daygame. I see Hollister is in heavy promotion season since its Christmas time and are bringing top male models to advertise their products at the front door. These guys ALL had six pack, were tall (ALL were around 6'1 to 6'4) and ALL had that model face. However i notice a girl chatting one of them up ( i'd say no more than HB5.5) and asking for a number and the model was so AFC!!! He had a crap body language , was stuttering and was VERY shy! Now before today i used to imagine guys with top looks had UNLIMITED confidence but boy was i wrong!

I walk around for 20 mins or so till i literally stop moving...i literally felt a man's charisma from 10 meters away or so...I check to see and it's...JON MATRIX FROM DAYGAME!!!!!
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I see him giving talking to a HB 9.5 (dude got SERIOUS game) whilst giving her a SMOULDERING stare , i look at her and she was totally...captivated. He put her into a "bubble" and she noticed NOTHING around herself except for this charismatic man infront of her. I could tell he build the sexual tension so damn much he could tell her to take off her clothes right then and she'd DO IT without hesitation. I walk straight into the conversation in total fanboy mode and it went like this-

Me-Hey man!!! I'm you biggest fan , watched ALL your videos!! ( nervous giggling , his charisma was seriously over-flooding). (shaking hands)
Matrix-thanks man , how long you been in daygame?
Me-two weeks? It's terrifying!
Matrix- Alright man , see you around!

I eject and i realise no picture!! I go back and take a pic and the HB offers to take the picture ( she was so taken back throughout this whole time!). I bend my knees a lot to keep in frame as my phone sucks and wont keep both our faces . I guess i gave him so much DHV , he could probably do ANYTHING with her that night! Hell i wouldn't be surprised if he bent her over and laid her on the spot right there and then!

After this interaction , i realise a REAL man doesn't have to have Hollister model-like looks. Hell i STRONGLY believe from what i've seen , Jon can WITHOUT doubt take the model's girl and CONSISTENTLY get more girls who are HOTTER than the Hollister model's HB's.

This was also the first time i witness a "bubble" and "sexual tension" ONLY through eye contact.

I realise CHARISMA and CONFIDENCE is what i need to become a man. I can EASILY imagine Jon having multiple orbits of women who LUST for him ( see day 1 ). I then become reckless and open 10HB's . I didn't realise 8 of them were walking with their BF's LOL ( lucky i didn't get into a fight haha ) and the last 2 genuinely seemed like they were going to their bf's ( in a hurry , sincere tone but thanks e regardless). None of that matters though , i feel VERY different today after meeting Jon. I'm definitely not the same guy from day 1.

Exploring the city today was beautiful though , i'm beginning to appreciate my surroundings alot.

Thanks for reading and please comment guys! Thanks again!

Day 20-Number close(non-flake!) and self-discovery!

I will make a full report tomorow sinc i have to get up early tomorrow. I closed a cute short HB 7.5 and i learn i'm a seduction type!

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Day 20

Since the n-close and self-discovery are linked i will journal chronologically! Today i was handing out my CV's/resumes in central , most shops said they were full up ( excellent way to handle rejections btw!) and then in one shop this short HB 9 was assisting me!! She was mix-raised, had the beautiful smile , seductive voice , GIGANTIC ass (literaly looks like pillows were stuffed into it!) and a nice rack! She told me where to hand the CV. I proceed to the escelator to hand go 1st floor to hand them in and SUDDENLY she appears! The interaction went like this-

Me-Aww , your actually helping to get to my location , thank you!
Her-No , actually i need to do something up here . You know where to go though right?(her voice was seductive as fuck!)
Me-Yeah ofcourse it's just there. (seriously couldn't stop staring at DAT ASS!!)
Her- Well if you need me , i'll be right here to help (she was totally being flirtatious!!! Maybe because i was being cheeky!!)

I'm pretty sure she spoke to me like this so i could get a hard-on and she could validation (for lack of height maybe? She was literally around 5 foot) but whatever she did i worked. I was hory as hell!! Hell if she wanted to , i would bend her over and pummel dat ass right there and then!!! . I wanted to win her MIND first , then her body and ONLY then would i have been satisfied!!! Seeing Jon Matrix basically hold a HB under his spell yesterday just pushed me even more!!! With this , i had to go home as i handed out my CV's.

I was determined , i wanted to SEDUCE a HB. A f-close couldn't even satisfy me!! So i spot a cute short HB on the two min walk to my house (dat mixed-raise HB got me into short girl DAMMIT! ) so as she was waking towards me-

Me- Hey as your walking past me , i noticed you look very cute (deep gaze and smile !)
Her-Thanks! (in a rush to go as usual , but i was't about to let that stop me this time! )
Me-Wait , before you go , what's your name? (holds out hand)
Her- I'm ****
Me- I'm **** , nice to meet you! (shakes hands and continue to hold hand )
Her-I have to go now ( attempting to walk away whilst holding hands )
Me- Where you going? ( gently tug her to me whilst giving her a deep gaze)
Her- I have work early tomorow.
Me- Since you have to go in huryy , why don't you give me your number and i'll call you sometime? (still deep gaze and holding her hand)
Her-Sure , why not!! ( shrugs shoulders , anti-slut mechanism )
Me- Great!

I take the umber and call it so she has mine. It rings so she says sweet and we go our seperate ways. I honestly was lead by my penis here. I could tell when i gently tugged her to me , i HAD HER. I broke all resistances and she felt a MAN wanted her so she caved in.

I think now that i know what works for me and what style is suited to me , i will work in this direction. I will be seductive and a lil cocky funny and throw my clownish jokes here and there. I guess i will be reading seduction materials like Sexaddict's , Jon Matrix and whatever seducer based material i can find now! This is a BREAKTHROUGH!:D

Day game...Scares me just thinking about it.

Hey man , I'm still a noob so i can't give much advise however don't worry! Take small steps and be comfortable asking direction/what the time is until that's normal for you! Them randomly compliment a girl and i GUARENTEE she'll just say aww thank you! Go to youtube and watch simple pickup! It's how i started!

This is actually pretty entertaining....pretty helpfull to...keep whit your updates man...i am not a complete novice but i still have some trouble approaching HB over 8....and seeing that u going at it having it worse then me gets me pumping and actually make me want to go out there and try some shit..so i might start my own little journey on approaching females...good luck still...and keep us updated.

It's a good thing you wanna sarge , i'm glad i'm of use . And dude , trust me start a journey , i was lurking on this site for MANY months till i made a decision to start a journal! .

Now's around ideal actually since it's the Christmas season= Hb's are in better mood=easier to close. Not to mention a lot of foreign beauties! .

If i may ask where are you located ? In london? and how much success do have so far?

Hope i can read you journal sometime!

Men i would have love to live in London....but sadly i live in a 3rd word country Jamaica..there isent to many beauties to start of in here..let alone that this place lack places for socializing....the majorities of hot girls in here are always in cars...the other part (the ones that walk) are mostly looking for that money benefit...so shit is tight in here...the only places u can really practice is in Collages or Universities....but to add to the sadness i am 20 years old working adult....and though my work pay pretty good...i beryl have time to pick up....as for success well i can say that i might get some pusssiess for Christmas....not to sure yet but the way is going i might just get to tap a fat ass girl.....no high hopes still....will see what happen

Wow man , that's very different to the Jamaica my friends tell me about !! I'm sure it's not that bad dude , there's ALWAYS girls to hit on! And believe me , most UK girls aren't sociable till you persist in opening them! I'm sure not ALL just want your money , if you SEDUCE them they'll want YOU (maybe your money too )

Day 22 (12/12/12 Special!)

Firstly can i just say i think i'm developing a love for daygame as i couldn't sarge on day 21 (busy) and i missed it already! Let's not waste time and let's JOURNAL today!

So today was a success AND fail. What do i mean by that? Let me explain! (will be asking questions too as i need to learn and improve )

Success !

Today at college , i attempted stealth kino attraction and it worked!!!! I was talking to a female classmate and suddenly turned the conversation to sex. In the begining she said hadn't had sex for 2 years BUT wanted to wait "for the right one" but i kept pushing the interaction by kino , non-verbal sexual tension and push-pulling till i got her to confess she was sexually fustrated and would even have a one night stand in the bar!!! By the end of the conversation , she was dropping so many IOI'S! :

Question

I want to lay her but i dont wanna kiss her (dont like her mouth) any idea how to go about this?

Also there's a HB 8.5 who LOVES IT when i neg her?? (let's call her HB Negphilia) I started off with a VERY small neg (something about the way she walks) and she gave such a big reaction and was enjoying it?? Bear in mind this girl sleeps around ALOT and is VERY sexually active.

Question

How do i lay the typical "sleeps with everyone" girl?? I know it's not advisable to do so , but she's so damn hot!!

HB Eastern European

So this is the third college girl and probably most compatible with me. She finds me VERY funny. She is VERY flirtacious (even though she is a virgin and never had a BF?????) . She is i mean FULL on! Thing is though , she's like this with EVERYONE (girls+ boys + teachers). I seriously cannot figure out her intentions as she is too damn ambigious! To make matters worse , there's this boy that has game (slept with Negphilia already) is also targeting her. He may have possibly read some PUA material , he kinos ALOT , he builds sexual tension , is cocky/funny (it's not helping that he's popular AS FUCK! The thing is , people know i'm stronger than him and all , it's just he's VERY social (and i've just recently began stepping out of my shell) giving him MASSIVE DHV compared to me!

Question

How can i get this flirty virgin (to be my GF not even to lay around with , genuinely like her) and how can i beat this boy with game who is either a natural (doubt it) or has read material (more likely as a lot of the things he does can be found in material)

Overall today was a success because i was just comfortable being social and successfully testing stealth attraction!

Failure

This was after college (had so much fun at college today ). I asked a woman for direction and i was eye-fucking her whilst doing so , SHE turned the subject around and we spoke for like 10 mins. I can honestly say i had the potential to kiss close her , she was totally seduced by my eye-fucking and cocky /funny. I guess since it was the second approach of the day (first was plain directions) i wasn't really bothered.

I think due to several factors i went complete AFC mode today , i literally directly approached maybe 4 after this??

1.I ALWAYS have TOP standards at the beginning ( really i should be take what i get , she was not bad at all and personality wise we were compatible too) but as time goes on , i become desperate and willing to go for a very plain girl (how to fix this mentality???)

2.I ALWAYS think there will be hotter girls ( this may be true , i still shouldn't be so shallow and think i can score EVERY chance i get ( a REAL PUA knows this!) ).

3. I DIDN'T push the interaction as far i could earlier on!

4.The weather was so damn cold i had bad body language even after i manage to open directly HB's use time constraint to walk away ( bad body language= lack of confidence?). I forgot to wear my big jacket and wore my open zip one instead!

5.It was effort to even tap a HB on the shoulder (VERY crowded place , can't just block their way) as my hands were DAMN FROZEN. I seriously don't think i could've even typed a HB's number down if they gave it to me!

6. I STILL have fear of crowd! So far i worked my way around this by approaching HB's in out-of-earshot locations ( path between two bus stops) (how to overcome this?)

7. As i'm walking around i keep daydreaming of the perfect close on the perfect HB and my head isn't in the game. This consumed a lot of my time

Solutions

1.Prepare for the damn weather!!! ( appropriate clothes + gloves) .

2. Stop this "there will be hotter girls if you keep walking anyways" mentality (how can i do this?)

3. Stop this fear of crowd issue ( how to do this?)

4. STOP DREAMING AND KEEP YOUR HEAD IN DA DAMN GAME!!!

That's it for today guys , thank you reading , reply if you know any solutions and as always , stay tuned for the next post!!