Tuesday

Nothing too significant happened today. I wasn't at the school for very long, but I made one approach that went nowhere.

Girl 1

I noticed this blonde chick sitting on a bench in a busy hallway with her laptop out. There was a space on the bench beside her so I sat down. She was pretty cute, but nothing really spectacular. I guess some classes were just getting out, because the hallway was extremely busy and very loud at the time, so I didn't say anything to her right away, just because of the noise and the amount of people moving by the benches trying to get to wherever they were going.

I've done a similar open like this one before, and I believe that some people call this part of the 'compliance ladder', where you ask a girl to do something for you. Well anyways, for me, it was a good way to break the ice after I had been sitting there beside her for a few minutes. There was bathroom nearby, so I looked over at her and asked her if she was still going to be sitting there for a minute or two. She was into whatever it was she was looking at, and I remember her taking her headphone out of her ear on the other side, as I didn't even see that she had one in, and she says "what?". She struck me as sort of rude or bitchy when she said that, but I just repeated myself by asking if she was going to be still sitting here for a minute or two. She said yes, so I said that I"ll be back in a minute, and if she could just watch my bag for me - she said yes.

And as I got up, I make a little joke by saying, well I dunno why anyone would want to steal my textbooks, but hey, you never know! And I said it with a bit of a smile, but this chick didn't even crack a smile or anything! I've said this same thing before in a light-hearted joking way, and almost always got a little chuckle and/or smile out of it. But not this chick, this bitch was stonefaced, she seemed like she'd be the bitchy type or just didn't want to be bothered, so that was cool, I just went to the washroom for a minute and came back. Now if she gave me eye contact or anything even remotely friendly as I got back to the bench, I would have made another comment - something like 'so anybody try to steal the bag while I was gone, or did you catch anyone scoping it out?, also in a joking way just to get another smile. I did that a few times last year with a few chicks and got some good responses out of it. I found that it was a nice light-hearted fun way to start off a conversation if you've been sitting beside someone for a few minutes and want to talk to them. But this chick was bug-eyed staring into her laptop so I didn't bother saying anything to her.

And that was about it for the day, somewhat disappointing, but oh well. Like I said yesterday, if I just got a bit more 'aggressive' with who/how I open, there's no excuse not to open a handful of chicks each day because there's chicks everywhere at this place. But at the same time, I also don't want to go to the other extreme and start to talk to every chick I see, because I'd hate to get a reputation as 'that guy' that runs around campus hitting on all the chicks. I have to remember, even though it's a big school, it's still at school and there's a good chance I'll be running into at least some of the people that I talk to again. I suppose, like many things in life, I'll have to try to find the happy medium.

Tomorrow should be an interesting day. I'll see if the chick from my first class sits near me again, I'll be seeing the one that calls me 'bad boy' and hang with her, and I'll also be seeing the one from the bus stop that I met last Wednesday. So tomorrow could be a good day, or it could also potentially be kind of disappointing! But until I get something solid on the go, I can't sit back and not approach just because I have a few possibilities that are still up in the air. Anyways, hoping for a better day tomorrow!

Wednesday

Well, I didn't make any new approaches today, but I talked to the girl I got the number from in my class, as well as the girl from last week on the bus.

Girl that I got the number from in my class - the conservative one who calls me 'bad boy'

Nothing of real significance to report here, we just hung out for around an hour or so before and a bit after class. She sticks by me pretty good, so it does sort of kill my chances at approaching other girls while I'm there. I can't really tell her I'll meet up with her in a bit because I want to work on my game! I'm going to have to decide what, if anything, I want to do with this one and move it forward. If I do decide to go for her, I can see it being a really slow process, which may prove to be somewhat difficult, and maybe not even practical. She's definitely into me, so it's pretty much there if I want it.

Girl from my first class that I briefly spoke to on Monday

This is the girl that came into lecture and sat two seats down from me, and I opened her as we were leaving class while we walked out of the room. Well I didn't even notice her, but today she also came and sat in my row, but this time she sat three seats down. Now this lecture hall has a bout 500 seats, so she couldn't have been too put off by me talking to her on Monday. But, as soon as she sat down, two other guys came in and filled in the two spots that separated us. I didn't get a chance to say anything as she came in, because I didn't even notice her until she was walking right past me as I was sitting in my seat. I'm not going to sit here and over analyse it, as I often do, but I would have thought that since I talked to her on Monday, that she might have sat beside me, or at least two seats down like she did on Monday if she was interested, but she sat one more seat further away. Oh well, I suppose I'll see what happens on Monday and Wednesday of next week.

Girl that I met last Wednesday on the bus

Last Wednesday when I met her, she just had jeans and a sweatshirt on, but today she was all done up, complete with a low cut tank/shirt that showed some cleavage. I'd like to think she was looking that way for me, and it's probably true, as we had another long 40 minute talk today as well. We talked for 10 minutes or so before the bus came, and we sat beside each other and talked the entire way home too. This time there was no mention of the boyfriend. I actually like this girl, we have good conversations and seem to get along very well. She's physically my type for sure. Long, light brown/blonde hair, she's petite, slim, cute face, nice looking body, perky-looking b-cup for sure. Very Nice! And she's probably 19 but I didn't ask her, as I don't ever like to bring up age, but that's what she'd be based off of what year she's in etc and from what I've gathered by talking to her. I was going to get her number, but I didn't end up doing it. If we have another good conversation like we did today, I'll definitely do it when I see her next Wednesday. I probably should have today, but since she has a boyfriend, I don't think I've killed anything by waiting one more week until next time I see her.

And that's about it for the day. Once again, I didn't really have any other good opportunities today to approach any other girls. I did go up to the library twice, but it was so packed and I didn't see any open spaces at the tables, so I sat down on some bench-type things. It was too busy, but there was a group of two girls on my left, and a group of three girls on my right. In each group, there was one girl that caught my eye, and we looked at each other a few brief times. But like I've said before, when other people are so close, I just don't feel comfortable opening in a situation like that, so I just did my thing for awhile, then got up and walked around awhile before getting on the bus.

I should have a good few hours to myself there tomorrow, so hopefully I'll have a few things to write about.

Thursday

It's been a slow week for new approaches. I missed one opportunity today, and spoke a brief word to a girl at the bus stop, but it's hardly worth mentioning.

Girl 1 - missed opportunity

I was walking outside, when I noticed this nice looking girl sitting by herself on a concrete 'bench'. It is basically just a rectangular slab of concrete, so you can sit on any side of it. I couldn't tell what her background was, but she looked to be middle eastern/arabic and she was quite dressed up. I walked up to the bench, and we made eye contact and smiled at each other a little as I sat down. But I messed up, for whatever reason, perhaps because she was 'too dressed up', I hesitated just for a split second and positioned myself so that my back was pretty much turned to her as I sat down. That was a mistake, I have to act on these opportunities because it was one of those 'perfect' chances for me to speak to her. There was nobody else around, she was attractive, she already smiled at me, yet I sat with my back facing her! What was I thinking? Anyways, I was going to reposition myself a moment or two later, but she got a call on her phone, apparently she was waiting for a friend, so she got up and left. I can't let chances like that pass me by.

Well, that was it for the day, I was disappointed that I let that one go like that. Oh well, there is always another day!

University is not the best place to sarge In my opinion! Especially if your starting out, it's a closed system and you can't really fully push yourself without thinking about the consequences.

It might take a lot longer than if you were doing day game in a public area, but your journal is great lol Probably just need to go indirect mostly so you don't get that rep

I aslo completely agree with your views on getting better with game...I have found the exact same, you have to improve yourself first then focus on getting better picking up.

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Hey, thanks for following along!

Yeah, I know what you mean about University in that it is a closed system. That's why I sometimes struggle with trying to approach more, but at the same time, I don't want to get a reputation of hitting on all the girls either. I'm just pretty lucky that it's a big school.

And that's my advice to pretty much anyone who ever asks about being better with girls - self improvement. Reading all the PUA stuff is good for some motivation or for a few tips/ideas here and there, but being the best version of yourself that you can be, while constantly improving yourself in the areas where you're lacking is definitely the way to go. Not only will that help you with your confidence and success with pickup, but you'll end up a better, more successful person overall too. Can't lose on that one.

Friday

Not a bad day, talked to one girl in the library for a bit.

Girl 1

After my class, I went up to the library to do a bit of reading and see if I could find a table where a nice looking chick was sitting at. I looked around, and didn't see any tables with a girl and an empty spot, but I did see an empty table with nobody at it, so I went and sat down. I got out my books, started reading a bit, and about five minutes later a cute arabic/middle eastern chick comes up and asks if she could sit down. I said yes.

She was dressed up quite a bit, with dress pants, a nice shirt and her hair sort of pulled back. It's been a few days, and I can't remember what else she had on, but yeah, she was looking nice and wasn't dressed too casual. Well, as soon as she sat down, I made a comment about how it's hard to find a seat in this area of the library. She was quite friendly and talkative immediately, and we went back and forth with a bit of small talk for a minute or two. I was going to wait a bit and let her get into her work, but since she seemed so friendly I thought I'd re-engage her instead of waiting until we both settled into our work. The first thing that came to mind was her laptop, so I just asked a question about it. From there, we talked for another five or seven minutes about random things related to school, courses, career and a bit of basic personal information.

I let the conversation die out, because through talking with her I knew that she came to the library to do some work, so I didn't want to keep her too long, so we both just started doing our own thing. After about 10 or 15 minutes, I decided that even though she was quite nice and friendly, that there wasn't anything there, so I decided to take off and walk around a bit and see if I could find anything else. As I packed up my stuff, we made eye contact, she took out her headphones, I got her name, shook hands and said it was nice to meet her and then I left.

And that was pretty much it for the rest of the day. I walked around, had lunch, but there really wasn't any other good opportunities for me to approach. I just waited for the bus, then went to the gym.


General thoughts

I have a few prospects on the go, but in the end, I'm not banging any of them, so I can't really say that I've had any real success yet. I've got a few phone numbers, and a few hopefuls in the pipeline, but no concrete results yet.

I'm still struggling with the desire to approach more and be more 'aggressive' with my approaches, but at the same time I have to keep in mind that I'm at school, not a club or on the street. Even still, perhaps that's a bit of an excuse or cop out, because I'm not approaching direct, and if I do approach and make situational comments and the girl isn't interested, then to her I may come off as just a friendly guy and it might not look so bad.

The problem I find is that I see TONS of girls I'd love to talk to, but they're always walking somewhere on their way to class, or simply on the move, and as of yet, I've found it hard to push myself to stop a moving target. It's much rarer that I see the type of girls that I like sitting by themselves or alone in the library.

I still need to step things up a bit. I have to keep in mind that approaching like I'm doing is great, and getting a few numbers here and there is great, but I'm not doing this to be an approach artist, my end goal is getting laid, and I need to work towards that and put in a greater effort.

I would also like to try to be a bit more flirty or sexual with the girls that I do get the vibe that they're interested. Like I've said before, one flaw that I find with my conversations is that they are all typically pretty tame. I don't take that 'risk' of getting a bit flirty or sexual, or I don't push the limits nearly often enough, and as a result, I sometimes might lose girls because they want a more aggressive guy, or I may just come across as a dude that they'll be friends with. Once it comes time to actually go out and I make the first move to kiss them, then there is no problem with escalation, but I guess I need to work on my transitioning between the time I meet them and appear friendly, to when I start to let them know I'm interested in them for more than just a friendly chat. Because sometimes I might wait too long, and it could leave the girl wondering if I actually like her, or I'm just looking to make a friend at school.

Anyways, the year is still only starting, but this semester is almost a third over already! The school year goes by so quickly, and I have to make the most of it while I'm there. I'm still making some good progress with my day game, as this time last year I wouldn't be approaching or talking to a fraction of the girls that I am now, so I'm happy to say that. Well, next week is a new week, and hopefully I'll have a few good things to write about!

Monday

Had a few missed opportunities today, but they were not the types of opportunities that I usually go for. Nevertheless, I passed up a couple of chances.

Girl in my early class - the one that sat 2 and 3 seats away from me

Nothing much to report here, because she didn't show up today, or she sat in a different seat. I only mention this because I want to point out how difficult and sometimes frustrating a situation like this can be.

I only have this class twice a week, on Monday and Wednesday. So since I didn't see her today, I only have a chance to see her Wednesday, and if not, I have to wait another week. A whole lot of time can pass easily with no results or nothing to report.

It's hard, because it's a huge lecture hall, and if she isn't there fairly early, all the seats fill up so quickly that even if she wanted to sit near me, she may have been forced to take a seat in a different area. And I'm not sitting there rubbernecking all around in every direction looking for her, so if she doesn't come early and to my area, then it's so easy to miss her completely. Oh well, I can't fixate on one chick, but there might be potential there. I want to get it going if that's the case, so days like today can be frustrating.

Girl 1 - missed opportunity

I saw this blonde girl sitting alone (or so I initially thought) outside on some steps having a smoke. As I walked around the corner to sit down, there was another guy sitting pretty close to her. So that basically killed my chances of opening, as I hate having to do something like that with anyone else sitting a few feet away and being able to hear every word. So I basically sat down for a few minutes, screwed around with my phone, then took off.

"Conservative Girl" - the one that calls me 'bad boy'

Well she stuck by me for quite awhile again today after class, so that affected my ability to make other approaches. Well this one is just about a wrap. We talked a lot more today, and I found out that she's Muslim, and that she's also a virgin, she's waiting for marriage and she's fairly religious. We actually talked quite a bit about sex and things like that today which was a little surprising. But the bizarre thing is that she likes me! Well, I'm not planning on getting married any time soon, so basically scratch that one off the list of hopefuls.

You know, if she was more my type looks wise and I really clicked with her, I may have even considered it. After all, as much as I never admit it, I am getting older, and if I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone, I may just have to settle down one day. And who knows how many more 20yr old virgins will be there for me to pick from. But anyways, she's not the one, and I'll just end up being friends with her for now.

Girl 2 - missed opportunity

I was sitting on one of the benches inside, when a dude I know from one of my classes passed by and he stopped to talk. I made the mistake of asking him a question about something in class, and the guy wouldn't shut up! lol Normally I'm not against conversation, but a few moments after he started talking, this chick I've seen around many times and have wanted to talk to sits down on the bench right next to me. I was hoping dude was going to finish up and be on his way so I could talk to her, but it wasn't in the cards today. She stayed for a few minutes, then got up and left. It's too bad, because I've seen her around many, many times, and we've made eye contact before, but that was the first time I've ever seen her alone in an approachable situation, and I wasn't able to act!

As the day wore on, I started to feel kind of beat, as I didn't get the greatest sleep last night. There might have been another opportunity or two, but by that point I felt pretty spent and my heart just wan't into it. I didn't end up going to the gym either, because I felt like shit on the bus ride home, so I just called it a day.

I'm not even sure if I'll be there tomorrow, as I have a few other things that I need to do, but I'll see how things go tomorrow morning and figure out how much time I"ll have and if it's worth taking the bus in or not.

Tuesday

Overall, today was an ok day, I had a few brief approaches and conversations.

Girl 1 - missed opportunity

Not long after I got there today, I saw a girl sitting on some concrete steps outside. She was pretty cute, she had on these grey 'stretch pants' sort of things, I'm not sure what you call them, but she looked nice. She also had part of her hair dyed red, not bright red, but a more subtle shade. Anyways, she looked pretty nice, and she was sitting by herself without anyone around.

I walked up to the area she was sitting in, and sat down. Unfortunately, she had her laptop out, and headphones in both ears and wasn't looking around at all. I really don't like situations like that, because I often feel that people with their headphones in don't want to be bothered. I know that's not always the case, but normally I don't like to talk to chicks with headphones in.

Anyways, this guy comes up and asks her something about a bus schedule and if she can check something for him on her computer. She looked for him, then he left, and I made eye contact with her briefly and we both gave a small smile. That was when I should have said something, because a moment or two after that, a friend of hers came over, they talked for a bit and then her friend left. As soon as her friend left, she packed up her shit and took off. This was one of those times where you snooze, you lose. Well, I snoozed. So I walked away with nothing. And damn, when she got up and walked away, she had the nicest ass and legs! Wow, she looked so tight and firm. I was kicking myself for that one, because I had a brief moment where I should have acted, but I didn't.

Girl 2

After walking away from the last missed opportunity, I was starting to feel kind of beat and stagnant. This was when my mood started to take a little dive south. I really wanted to approach a chick, any chick, just to say something and try to break out of my mood.

Well I walked to a different set of buildings on campus that are affiliated with my school, but not a direct part of it. I saw a girl sitting by herself in the hallway, so I thought, what the hell, I'll just say something to her just to break out of my 'silence'. I just asked her a question about where to find an office in that wing of the building and made a comment, nothing special. I just got the vibe from her that she was just being nice, but didn't really seem like she cared much about what I said, so I just said thanks and kept walking. Nothing much there, but like I said, I just wanted to say something to a chick. I don't normally do things like that for 'practice', but I just felt that I should because I was a little pissed off at myself for letting the last girl slip away from me before I said anything.

Girl 3

Well, that little interaction helped a bit, but I was struggling to keep myself in a positive frame of mind after that. It seemed that I was dwelling on negative thoughts, and I was seeking out negative things around me to just make me shake my head and be negative. For example, I saw what I thought were a few good looking girls walking or holding hands with guys that made me think "what the fuck is that chick thinking being with that dude?" I saw a few things like that, and like I said, perhaps being in a bit of a negative mood, it seemed that I saw more of those types of things because that's what I was looking for at the time because I was just in a negative state. I guess today was just one of those days.

I was up in the library as well, but nothing there worth approaching.

It was time to go home, so I headed over to the bus loop area. I noticed this chick waiting in line for my bus, and I've seen her before, so I thought I'd just make a comment to her about how long the line up was today just to sort of break the ice. She seemed friendly and seemed that she would have been into talking, but a moment or two later two of her friends came up to her so she was talking with them. At that point I just stood in line and just waited for the bus. I didn't really care, because I'll see her again, and now that I've spoken to her it will make talking to her much easier next time that I see her, which should be fairly soon. That was just a good way to initiate a bit of talking so that I can say 'hey what's up' next time I see her and hopefully talk to her more.

Girl 4

For some reason, the bus was twice as packed as it normally is today. At a stop close to the school, this nice looking blonde chick gets on the bus, and she sits beside me. I spoke to her a few moments after by commenting how the driver told us before she got on that he had to take a detour today because of a road closure. She seemed nice and friendly, and we spoke a little bit off and on throughout the trip home. While talking to her, she mentioned something about her husband, so obviously that wasn't going anywhere. It's too bad, because I found out that she never takes that bus, and it was a one-time thing, so my plan was to try for her number as we were getting off the bus. But obviously hearing about her husband shit-canned that idea.

General thoughts about today as well as going forward

I've said it a few times, but I'll say it again anyways - I need to step shit up a notch. I think what I've been doing is that I haven't been pushing myself enough out of my comfort zone. I've been playing things much too 'safe'. I need to take a bit more risk, approach a little more, and try to be a little more ballsy and direct with the girls that seem to show interest.

It's so easy to sit back and play things safe, to only look for those 'golden opportunities' to approach. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but one of my 'flaws' with my game is that I play it sort of safe to protect myself from rejection too much. I know that I shouldn't, but I take rejection and things in general sometimes much too personally. And this does hold me back from making more progress and getting more chicks on the go. If I sit back and protect my ego too much, then my results will surely stagnate and suffer.

So anyways, I'm going to make an effort to push things a little harder with my game overall. I'm doing ok so far, as I'm talking to new people each day, and for me that is still good. But at the end of the day, I want more results and I want to push myself out of my comfort zone more and start to take things to the next level.

Well tomorrow is another Wednesday, so I might see that chick in my early class that sat a few seats away, as well as the chick that I've talked to the last two weeks on the bus ride home. We'll see what happens tomorrow!

Wednesday

Today turned out to be a good day. I had one brief interaction that's hardly worth mentioning, and I got the phone number from the girl that I see on the bus.

Girl from my early class that sits a few seats away from me

Well, the girl that sat a few seats away from me in my early class wasn't there again today, and we have next Monday off, so I'll only have a chance to see her once next week. So that's seeming like a long shot now. Oh well. It's like I was saying in one of my previous entries, a situation like this can easily drag on a month with little or nothing to report. It's looking less and less likely that anything will go on there, as I would have expected to see her this week if she was interested, but I haven't seen her on either day. I'll still sit in the same general area and see if I see her again, but I certainly won't hold my breath.

I was very tired today, as today was one of the rare days where I was at school on only a couple hours sleep. I woke up last night to take a piss, and couldn't get back to sleep for some fucked up reason.

Girl 1

This is barely worth mentioning, but I made a comment to a girl that I was sitting beside on a bench, and that was about it. I was going to talk to her a bit more, but I made eye contact with this other girl, and she sat down beside me on the other side. Anyways, both of them got up and left at about exactly the same time so nothing more happened.

Bus Girl

This is the girl that I've rode the bus with each of the past two Wednesdays. I'll call her "Bus Girl" from now on. Anyways, she was dressed up real sexy once again today, and we talked the whole ride home again. And like last time, there was no mention of the boyfriend at all. I walked with her to our cars after we got off the bus, and I got her number. We gave each other a nice hug before we left.

I'm not sure right now how I'll play this one. I know she has a boyfriend, but I'm sort of hesitant about trying to 'ask her out' on a typical date right away. I'll have to think a little about this one. I might just end up texting her sometime over the weekend, and just play things by ear. It's actually getting to be a busy time for the next week or two for most students, as midterms are right around the corner, so I know she'll be busy with that, and she also has a part-time job too.

But I was happy that I got her number and that we had another good conversation on the bus ride home. I can definitely tell that she's into me, so it's going to be a question of how much, if anything, she's willing to do with me considering the fact that she has a boyfriend. Like I said, I'll just have to think about it a bit and see how it unfolds.

Well hopefully I'll get a good night sleep tonight and can have a good day at the school tomorrow. I still want to remain committed to stepping my game up a bit and start to do things that will put me outside of my comfort zone. It's the only way that I'll grow and improve.

Thursday

Not a bad day today. Made a couple of approaches, but nothing too significant.

There's a girl that's in my class today that I'd like to talk to. I just have this class one day a week, but it's a smaller class so I should be able to talk to her without too much of a problem. We made some brief eye contact today, but she left the class 15 minutes early for some reason. So next week, I might try to talk to her as we're walking out of class.

Girl 1

This was first thing in the morning at the bus stop. I walked up to the stop and stood in line, and just as I walked up, a nice looking girl with brown hair comes up and lines up behind me. I notice that she has a school shirt on that says she's in the same major/program that I am, so this was an easy open. I just said "so you're in xxxx too". We talked for about 2-3 minutes about classes etc until the bus came. We stopped talking as the bus pulled up, and I just got on and took a seat. I didn't feel it was a big deal that we didn't continue to talk or take a seat together, as I just thought of that brief conversation as planting a seed so that next time I see her it'll be easy to continue to talk to her. Plus, I sometimes find it hard to be in the mood to pick up so early in the morning when I'm feeling half asleep. But, the conversation was good, no problems there, I'll just talk to her again next time I see her.

Girl 2

I was outside and saw this really nice looking girl with brown hair, a nose ring, and those black stretch pants sitting by herself on the concrete steps/benches. I walked up and sat maybe 6 or 7 feet away. Body wise, she was my perfect type - slim, tight-looking body. Her face wasn't perfect, but hey, she was looking good. I struggled for a minute or two with what I should say, and I ended up asking her if she was in a class of mine last year because she looked familiar. Well, like many people nowadays, she was glued to her phone, and it took her a bit of a delayed reaction to look up, but she smiled, said a very faint 'no' and I said a word or two more and that was it.

I was going to continue and ask her what her major was, but I really didn't get a great vibe at all from her. I'll admit, because I thought she was really hot, I sort of pussed out and left it at that, and perhaps I didn't open her with as much confidence as I normally might. If so, it was only very slight. Basically, it was some weak game on my part. I've done a similar open before, knowing very well that she wasn't in my class but I ask just for the sake of something to say, but in other cases I've 'plowed' through after she says no or whatever. But just her delayed reaction, and her barely audible 'no' just sort of told me that she didn't really give a fuck to talk to me. I know you can't always tell just based on that, but usually I can tell the vibe a chick is giving off. Nevertheless, I can't just open a girl and give her a question that she can just give me a one word answer for then just leave it. This isn't something I didn't already know, but today served as a good reminder why I shouldn't take that route in the future unless I'm completely committed to keep going with my next question or statement no matter what she says. As it was, I just said something like, 'oh, I thought you might have been in my xxxx class last semester, my bad', or something like that.

I basically just went back to my thing, and didn't look her way or anything else after that. If I want to analyse it a bit, I could say that once I got that small clue that she may not have been interested, I went immediately into 'ego-protection' mode and bailed out on the conversation and tried my best to make it seem like I legitimately thought that I knew her from last year. Like I said, I'm usually not affected too much by it, but I think the fact that I thought she was really hot took me off my game slightly, because I bet if I said the same thing to a chick that I hardly gave a shit about, I would have probably said, 'oh yea, cool, so what are you taking then', or something like that. But, in this case, I backed out of it right away.

What sort of made me feel better at the end, in an odd sort of way, is that she's a smoker, and as she got up to leave, she coughed a couple of times, and it sounded like she had about 10 pounds of thick chunky mucus in her lungs - it made a really gross sound. So that was a bit of a turn off. But, as 'gross' as that sound was, if she got up and turned around and gave me her number, I'd still be calling!

But anyways, that was pretty much it for the day. I'm still sort of struggling with trying to approach more and be a little more ballsy with my game. I'll admit for the last while I've been opening a lot of girls, but I've always done it in a safe way, never really putting my ego out there too much as I always start off in an indirect way.

And sometimes I find it difficult to think of something legit to say to open, so that's why I've used the 'hey were you in my class', or 'hey, do you know where xxxx office is" a few times. Maybe I should just walk up, sit down, and say 'hey, what's up', as I did that once or twice last year. I'm trying to just be natural nowadays, as opposed to using canned stuff, but sometimes I can't always think of something situational that's applicable to say. I guess in the end, opening with something canned is better than not opening at all, so I can't beat myself up too much over today, because at least I opened my mouth and gave it a shot.

Oh well, tomorrow is a new day!

Friday

Nothing much to report for today. I wasn't at the school for very long.

I went to my class, and I had some stuff I needed to do, so I was going to leave right away. I ended up staying for a bit, and I went up to the library to read for a little bit and to see if there were any prospects up there. Friday's are kind of slow at the school, so i just grabbed a table and did some reading, then took off and caught the bus home.

General thoughts

You can pretty much go back and read what I wrote for last Friday, so I'll avoid sounding like a broken record and repeating the same thing. The bottom line is that I just need to push myself a little bit more.

Well, so far this year I've made many approaches and I've got 3 phone numbers, but no lays. The first girl (the blonde) that I got the number from fizzled out pretty hard when I met up with her the second time. "Conservative girl" turned out to be a virgin that's waiting for marriage, and I have "Bus girl" which looks to be promising, but she has a boyfriend which may complicate things a bit. But, I've been with girls before that have had boyfriends, so I'm certainly not blind to the fact that many girls will cheat. I also have a few more potentials that are up in the air. There's a girl or two that takes my bus, as well as a couple in my class that could turn into something, but I'll have to wait and see.

We have a holiday here on Monday, so unfortunately next week will be a short week at school.

Tuesday

Unfortunately not much to report for today. I said a brief hi to a girl on the bus this morning, but that's about it.

Well, after a much needed deload from the gym last week, it feels great to be back. I was going really hard for a couple of months, and my shoulder has been bugging me, so last week was good week to rest and recover.

I said a quick hi and good morning to a girl on the bus. It's the same one that I opened about her wearing a school shirt last week. I was sitting in my seat, and I saw her get on, so I just said that while she was taking her seat. She gave me a nice smile and hi, and asked me how I was as she sat down. No big deal, but she seems like a nice girl. I'll definitely be talking to her again.

For some reason I just felt a little off today. I felt kind of tired and beat, and it took me awhile to fully wake up. I was at the school for a couple of hours, and I went up to the library for a bit, and cruised around a bit looking for some opportunities on the benches, but I didn't really see anything that I call my 'perfect opportunity' for approaching. Well, hopefully I'll have more to report on tomorrow.

Wednesday

Well I made one approach today, but it didn't go anywhere. I also talked to "Bus Girl', and that didn't go so well either!

Girl 1

I was sitting on one of the benches after class, and this girl came and sat down beside me. Now for the guys that like 'thick' girls with big asses, well you'd probably like her. But even still, her legs and ass were probably even too big for some of them. So safe to say, she really wasn't my type, to say the least. Sitting down on the bench beside me, her legs dwarfed mine! lol. Anyways, on to the 'approach'.

She sat down and was starting to get out some stuff out of her bag, so I looked over at her, and made a comment about a booth/display sort of thing that was in the open area where we were sitting. A few words were exchanged, and I could tell that she had about as much interest in me as I had in her - which wasn't a lot. So I let that one die out, sat there for a few more minutes, then took off.

I don't even know why I even bothered, but it was just a friendly comment and a brief conversation, and I wanted to do something because I feel that I've really been slacking on new approaches for the last week or so.

Bus Girl

Well this one is just about a wrap. It was weird today, as she seemed colder and a bit different right from the start when I first saw her. I've had something similar happen to me before when I was starting to 'game' a girl that was already taken. It's like the first few times I meet her we flirt quite heavily back and forth and there's definite energy between us. And then it's like she goes away, reconsiders, and almost feels guilty about the whole thing, so she makes a point of really closing herself off to me the next time I see her. Either that, or I had initially caught her when she was in some sort of fight with her bf, and then they had made up and all was good with them by the next time I saw her. Either way, she was different today.

I could list all the things that she did/said, or little subtle things here and there that I picked up on, but it doesn't really matter I guess. As soon as I picked up on the change, I acted sort of distant towards her as well, and I didn't talk on the ride home much either. Now I know some people would say that I should have pushed the interaction anyways just to find out for sure, but I had seen/heard enough, and I got enough of a vibe to know things were pretty much done, so that's just how I chose to handle it. I'll just keep a bit of my dignity and walk away from her. She's got a bf anyways, there's plenty more single girls at that school, I just need to get up off my ass and go get them.

I'm a little pissed about that, because she is/was a really nice girl, but just the way she seemed shut off kind of irked me, and hopefully this is going to light a bit of a fire under my ass to be a bit more aggressive and get out there and quit fucking around. Even this so-called sweet, nice friendly girl in a way gave me a bit of the cold shoulder, so fuck that, no more mister nice guy, I'm going to get out there and be a bit more aggressive and not give a fuck as much. Even though I had fuck all on on the go, I must admit I sort of have been sitting back and not approaching as much because in the back of my mind I've thought that I've had a few prospects on the go and was sure at least one would pan out. So even though I shouldn't have, I think I've slacked a bit just knowing that I had a few things that had some potential.

The other girl that used to sit a few seats down from me in my early class has been a no-show now for the last week and a half, and I haven't even seen her anywhere, so strike another prospect off the list. So now I'm pretty much back to the drawing board. I still have "conservative girl", and we text each other quite a lot, but nothing is going to come of that one, so I essentially have a cleared out roster. So yea, it's time to grab some balls, quit fucking around, stop giving a fuck as much, and just get out there and approach some new chicks and get something on the go.

Not a great day today, but oh well, I'm more motivated now so tomorrow should be a better day!

Thursday

Nothing too significant to report for today. I talked to the girl at the bus stop this morning.

I've mentioned this girl before, she's the one that I've talked to in the morning a few times now that rides my bus. She's the one that had that school shirt on and is in my same program/major.

I was sitting waiting for the bus, and she came up and sat beside me and we talked for about 10 minutes until we got on the bus. The conversation was ok, and she seems really nice, but I don't know if it was because it was first thing in the morning and I was tired, but I felt just a bit off my game, and my usual confidence wasn't really there. It wasn't bad, but there were a few moments where I sort of felt a bit on the nervous side. She seems like she can be a bit shy too, so I think that can throw me off a bit. It's hard to tell if she's into me or not, as that was the second time I've talked to her for a brief conversation waiting for the bus. I'll be seeing her again.

missed opportunity

I briefly mentioned this girl in my report for last Thursday. She's the one that's in my class, and I said that I was going to talk to her today as we were leaving. Well, I pussed out for some reason. It was a combination of that, and I told myself that there's no rush to talk to her, as this is a small class, and I have it for the full year until April. But still, I had the perfect, but brief window to say something today and I didn't. She showed up late, and ended up coming in and taking the empty seat beside me. And as we were getting up to leave when class was over, I had that brief moment just to make a little comment to her, but I didn't, and she got up and walked towards the front to ask a question, so I just got up and left.

General thoughts I've been thinking about today

Today was another one of those days where I felt a little bit off, and just not on my game. I was having a bit of a hard time keeping negative thoughts and self doubt from creeping into my mind. I started to think "Am I here too much being seen hanging around the campus?" I've said before that I don't want to be 'that guy' that's seen running around hitting on all of the chicks. But I also don't want to be 'that guy' that's seen hanging around the benches and cruising around the hallways all the time either. Truth is that I do spend a fair bit of time between going up to the library and sitting on various benches around, but I really don't think I'm there that much. As I've mentioned before, it is a very large school, but even still, it's something I should think about.

I was thinking that maybe instead of hanging around so much, I should be seen hanging out a bit less, but make the time that I'm there count more. Perhaps I should spend more time up in the library actually doing some work and reading instead of looking around all the time for opportunities. I don't know.

Being more aggressive

I'll briefly mention 2 missed opportunities that I didn't even write about, because they would have required me to do things that I wouldn't normally even consider.

1) Yesterday I was sitting in this large open area on one of the benches. A group of two girls and a guy were beside me, and one of the girls was really nice looking and we made eye contact. I could tell by a few of the things she said (like she's single) and the fact that she was standing up and came directly into my view a few times, and commenting on her body that she's skinny etc. And all of this is taking place right in front of me. Now it could be coincidental, but I'd like to think that she was sort of parading herself in front of me, commenting that she's single to her two friends, and also talking to them about the fact that she's thin. In order to talk to her, I'd have to open a 'mixed set' with three people. Well anyways, they all stayed there for a few more minutes then left.

2) I was up in the library today and I got a look from this really nice looking girl with brown hair. She was across the library doing something on a computer, and walking back to a table with 4 or 5 people at it. We made brief eye contact a few times, and she eventually packed up her stuff and walked out. Well, she walked out alone, and as she passed my area we made eye contact again. Well, in order to talk to her, I'd have to pack up my stuff, and basically chase her out of the library and stop a moving target.

I haven't mentioned these two because they would have required me to do stuff that's above and beyond my 'level', or above and beyond what I've done before or even feel comfortable doing.

The point is, these are the types of opportunities that I sometimes see, and they are with really hot girls that I like, but to me, they're kind of impossible situations. But I'm thinking that maybe I have to really step up and try. But like I said, realistically, do I really see myself running out of the library and chasing a chick down? I don't really know.

But it's like I've written about before, I seldom see these types of girls sitting alone, so I'm always left with other girls that I see alone, and still look good to me. But the problem is that they are all pretty much 95% cold approaches, meaning that I've got no indications that they're into me before I open them. But these two that I just wrote about would definitely be considered 'warm' approaches because I had gotten eye contact a few times and a few signs of interest.

And that's the problem, the girls that I really want most of the time are in situations that I find difficult, if not impossible to approach in. So I'm not sure what to do. This has been a lot of rambling on my part, but I'm just in one of those moods today where I feel a bit discouraged.

Maybe I should spend less time sitting around on benches and hanging around, and maybe consider trying one of these more 'high risk' approaches next time I get opportunities like the ones that I described above? I don't know. I see so many attractive girls that I'd love to approach, but they're always on the move, or with several people, and that's what's kind of frustrating about 'gaming' at the school. There are many girls that I swear that I've never seen before, and they're always walking quickly with a purpose, or walking in a group of friends. It's rare that I see the kinds of girls that I like sitting alone on the benches or alone in the library in situations where I feel comfortable approaching. I'm not sure what the solution is.

But it's such a shame to have girls like I described above show interest, even if it's just a bit of eye contact, and not being able to do anything about it. I hate the fact that I'm left sitting there on the bench only to just watch them walk away never to be seen again. It's a huge school, and there are some people that I see around often, but then there are many others that I'll see once, by chance, and then never see again. Now that can work to my favor for making a bold approach, because if I crash and burn, well maybe (hopefully) those will be the girls that I'll never see again. I need to develop a strategy of some kind to use in situations like the couple I described above. I really don't like the fact that I'm 'forced' to just sit there and watch these opportunities just come and go and do nothing about it.

Dealing with rejection

This is another area that I have a hard time dealing with, and it's something that really does hold me back. Why is it that I find rejections so hard? Even after all the progress that I've made, do I still have a weak 'inner game'? Inside, I should know that I'm the man, and I should have unshakeable confidence, so if some chick blows me off, well fuck her, it's no big deal. But the problem is that for some reason I take shit like that so personally, and it's tough for me to wrap my head around that.

And it's that 'fear' that I have of rejection that prevents me from being a bit bolder at school and making some more 'risky' and direct approaches. I suppose that I still care too much about what other people think of me, and I let that get in my way too much. Is there a solution? Is it just a matter of practice and having it happen a few times and I'll get used to it? I don't know. There is no magic bullet I guess, and I suppose it's one of those things that just comes with the game, and if I want to get better, then I'll have to swallow a bit of pride, put my ego on the shelf, and just put myself out there a bit more. I just need to say 'fuck it', a bit more and do it, and quit 'worrying' about what people might think. I need to tell myself 'who really gives a fuck', and just go do it.

And yea, that all sounds great when I'm sitting here typing this shit up, but it's always a different story when I'm at school and trying to convince myself to go chase a chick out of the library and track her down!

I dunno, I guess it's like I said before, I just need to step shit up a bit. Maybe it's not realistic to think tomorrow I'll go do a 'Sasha daygame' and run and jump in front of a chick and stop her, but I should maybe start with baby steps, and start to do a few things each week that I wouldn't have done before. That's probably the most realistic and practical way to go about moving in that direction. Just one step at a time, baby steps, and make some more slow but gradual improvement.

Well, that's all the rambling I'll post for now. I need to snap out of this and get back to doing some approaches, get a number or two, and get things going.

Friday

Not much happened on Friday as I wasn't at the school for very long. I had some stuff to do in the afternoon, so I basically went to class and pretty much took off not too long after.