Day 6 mission:

Today I need to ask 30 women where the post office is...BUT this time before I do it i need to get myself in a state of fear, approach anxiety. The kind of fear that comes everytime I want to go and approach a woman, and amplify it: try to immagine that she'd never talk to me, that she'll laugh at me, everybody around us will, that i'll be awkward.

I need to think of the worst possible outcome: i'll get slapped, she'll walk away disgusted, she'll tell her boyfriend to beat me up, she'll call the police, she'll laugh at me for thinking I got a shot considering what a loser I am. I need to find the scenariu that produces me the worst kind of discomfort and then immagine that it will DEFINETLY happen, and it will happen again and again forever everytime I approach a woman.

In this state I need to ask 30 women where the nearest post office is, making myself think that she knows what i'm thinking. She knows I don't care where the post office is that I actually want to hit on her and she's a moment away from calling the cops for harrastment.

DAY 6 COMPLETE:

I tried to immagine that every approach would go horribly wrong and still do it...but after 2-3 approached I didn't really manage to do it anymore (to make myself feel bad about approaching). It was one of the mission that I considered easy (asking for directions), even though today it was towards the post office and most people (I thought) don't know where that is and it was saturday evening. I was surprised by the fact that I got mostly good reactions...at least what I remember.

Highlights:
- I approached a group, one of them offered to show me where it is (the other two told her that they'll be going home but she can lead me there if she wants), few seconds later I asked the other HBs in a jokingly manner if they think she likes me (it was way obvious from my point of view, but I wanted to say it). It was obvious she did like me, she was a 7.5(maybe) blonde, her friends were below my standards. Eventually her friends lagged behind and broke off going other way, I could of easily number closed but I didn't have my phone and for some reason I didn't do it. I didn't feel bad about not doing it then and I don't feel bad now, I was just pleasantly surprised to see indirect game work.
-most interactions were ok and they tried to help me, I had a few walk past (milfs mostly listening to music), just one walked past without headphones
-after approaching two hb9, easily best set of the day (they didn't know but they wanted to help), I approached a milf with headphones few meters away, she looked at me and walked past. I say as she walks away "no?", with a smile on my face; just didn't give a fuck and I found it funny. Then I turn around at the hb9s and ask them "why do you think she did that?); they laugh; "i don't know, but it was so funny she looked at you like you were alien"; I laugh "so that's how it looks like..."


Things I noticed:
-I have an better immage about myself...I saw that women react way more positive to me then I expected. I'm defintly more content with the way I look and the way I think women see me.
-I don't really give a shit about how they might react. It just doesn't affect me
-I avoid way less sets then before (close to none today probably)

That's about all i've got to say about today's mission, tonight i'm going to a club to try some direct game. Stay tunned for mission 7 tomorow...and keep walking.

Day 7 mission:

Today I have to get myself in a state of excitement. The kind of state that one might of had when he was a child and his birthday was next day, or christmas.

After I do that I have to go out and ask 30 women for the post office or the time, or alternate between the two while continuing to feel that excitement throughout the entire interaction.

DAY 7 COMPLETE:


Pretty straight forward. I appealed to a memory that helped me get into that state.

When I tried to get in state a while back I was using music to get pumped up, this is way better. Also happyness feelings don't help that much....try to get that excited feeling you used to get prior to Christmas morning (or whatever else you can think of)...but remember: not happyness...excitement and expectation for good things to happen.

Day 8 mission:

Today I need to ask 30 women the time or directions to a known location while alternating between the state of fear and exaltation (one fear the next exaltation and so on)

Day 8 COMPLETE:


Quite easy. Except the fact that I found it a bit hard to keep track of the states that I needed to be in...after a while I just felt nothing.

Day 9 mission:

Today I don't have to approach any women. I just have to mentain a state of non sexuality, I musn't have any sexual thoughts about any women as I go about my day. Try to view them all as they were my mother or my sister.[/u]

Day 9 COMPLETE:

I'll consider it completed...because I really tried and I managed one day without an erection! Of course it's hard not to think how SPAM would look in a pink dress right now...even if you try. Really, stop it. STOP IMMAGINING SPAM IN A PINK DRESS ALREADY!

Day 10 mission:

Today I need to approach 30 women (about the time, directions, compliment, or anything else I chose), and make the interaction last as long as possible.

While interacting with them I must maintain a non sexual state, I must regard them as they were my mother or my sister. No sexual thoughts whatsoever.

Day 10 COMPLETE:

Somewhat simple...nothing spectacular worth mentioning.

I chose to ask for directions to a known place, some chose to lead me there(one of them admitted it wasn't in her way). I think if I regard women without sexual intention I go alot easier into comfort zone (friendzone?)...

Day 11 mission (complete):

Today's mission is one of introspection, I don't have to approach any women. This being said i'll be back with tomorrow's mission...tomorrow.

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Day 12 mission:


Misiunea de astazi are ca scop controlul starii: astazi trebuie sa fiu cel putin 30 de minute intr-un mediu cu multe tentatii (un club de striptease este recomandat) timp in care trebuie sa mentin o stare non-sexuala.Sunt recomandate cateva metode care sa ma ajute sa mentin starea non sexuala: sa ma gandesc la viata acelor fete, oare ce au facut ele sau ce viata au dus ca sa ajunga in situatia aceea.
In cazul in care sunt abordat de vre-o tovarasa "dansatoare" trebuie sa o refuz politicos.

In seara asta ma duc cu niste prieteni la un strip club, va spun maine cum a fost.

Today's mission is yet again about state control; today I need to be for at least 30 minutes in a high sexual tentation medium (a strip club is recommended) while I mentain my sexual repressed state. A few methods are recommended to help me mentain the state: such as thinking about the life of people working there, how did they end up doing that, how is the club made to make me spend money and get aroused, or anything else I might come up with.
If i'm approached by any girls offering me a lapdance I am to refuse them politely.

Tonight i'm going to a strip club with some friends, i'll tell you later how it went.

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Day 12 COMPLETE:


I went to a strip club but I can't say it was a very sexually tempting experience (my city is probably not the best place when it comes to great strip clubs, most of them being actually covered up brothels). Anyway I controlled myself...after that being friday I went around the city center where I found more temptation than in the strip club.

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Day 13 mission:

Today, while maintaining a non-sexual state I need to compliment 30 women. First 15 compliments can be non-sexual, then I need to increase the "sexual intensity" focusing the compliments on the way they look (I can start with thing such as complimenting her eyes then advance to "you look attractive").

Unlike other days, today, while I maintain my repressed sexual state if a sexual nature thought comes up I am to acknowledge it's presence(but only for a second) then tone it down until it disappears.

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Day 13 COMPLETE:

First 14 were hard...just like the last time I had to give non-sexual compliments, it all sounded...unnatural. After 14 I couldn't take it anymore and I moved to complimenting their look: "Hi, you look (absolutely) stunning, I just couldn't walk past (let you walk past) and say nothing" and variations of that. Some of them stood there in shock and said nothing (some of them in the first 14), I thought i'd suggest them to say "thanks" (it's a compliment, if their mother didn't teach them how to accept one, somebody has to!). If i feel the need to say something now I will (even to the ones that have negative reactions), because I don't owe them anything (such as their comfort) and If it makes me feel good (even if it can be offensive for them...even though I believe all of them earned it well) i'll do it. Because fuck you.

Regarding the non-sexual state I think I managed that quite well. I was focused on other things so it didn't really cross my mind to think about it.

What reactions I got in the second part (last 16):
-one in a group laughed when I got to the part where I told her she looks great, I replied "No? It's so far from the truth just hearing it makes you burst into laughter? (not the exact quote, but you get my point). I actually believe that's what happen, she didn't really expect anybody to tell her she's beautiful so that's the only reaction she had, being in a group pushed her to that too (after freezing up).
-most of them stopped after I said Hi, and I got to move on to the compliment (had only 1 or 2 who walked past)
-one told me she knows she looks great, after smiling (she did look stunning indeed), I admired her confidence and the way she reacted. Kudos to her.
-just didn't care about negative reactions, didn't affect my state even if I replied to some, it made me feel even better not sucking it up
-talked to most of them, they were meeting their boyfriends (it was friday and quite late so i'll take that, I asked the boyfriends name and they replied quite quickly); (either way, the point of the exercise, as I was reminded today by it, is not to improve my game but my state control and confidence), I told them he's a lucky guy
-after the "opener" I improvised depending on the girl and her reactions...in some cases I screwed myself over (I got the conversation into a dead end, I didn't push it when I could of, DLVed)...but i'm learning from it and I can go out anytime and do it again so no biggie

-longest interaction: 2 hb waiting for someone, I just said goodbye to my friend that was leaving then I saw them; I walk up to them and say:
-Hi, you look stunning!
one of them gives me her hand (by her own volition, before I say anything), we shake hand and I tell her my name. She tells me her name and her friend's name while still holding my hand. Her friend was instantly cold to me, didn't shake hands and said "You're not !" ...I tell her "I most certainly am". (aparently they were waiting for a guy that had the same name as me...and probably never met him before...at least the one that didn't cockblock me didn't meet him)
They told me they are waiting for , I asked them which one, cockblock was quick to reply and said both of them. I said Anderson must be pretty lucky.
Somewhere at the start of the conversation the one I engaged first (I'll call her HB Nice, to distinguish from the HB cockblock) asked me if this is some kind of bet or something (aprently she heard me telling my friend I got 7 left before we said goodbye). I told her absolutely not, I just saw her and wanted to say hi, I knew i'd regret it later if I just walked away saying nothing. (she believed it and admired the honesty, I think...)
-cockblock suggested they're together (lesbians), I turned it around asking if I can watch, talked a bit about that
-eventually HB cockblock lets me know Anderson is coming, I go to the guy shake hands and introduce myself, tell him he's a lucky guy and wish them a great evening

I don't know if I could have kept going and not leave...I did need someone to entertain the cockblock and the "real" Anderson coming could of handled that (cockblock had her toy and the extra had me...she did seem quite happy I came along). HB nice didn't even seem to know how the "real" Anderson looks like (she confused me for him initially). Oh well...keep walking...keep learning. [I'd appreciate your input on this]


That's it for today...until tomorrow...this is Anderson and I keep walking.

PS: i've done something extra today...I was talking to my friend about what could get you slapped on the street...and I figured best way to find out is to ask..and try. So i've asked a few sets:
-set 1 (2 hb): -Hi, what would I have to tell you (to get you so offended) to make you slap me right here on the street?
HB-I don't know...I really don't know (they were smiling etc.)
ME-I want you to really think about it! (she laughs and starts walking away)
HB-I don't know...I don't think anything could make me slap you...
ME-Let's try a few things and find out? (she walked away, if they do that I don't really like to follow them around)

I remember a part from a stand up comedy show with Jimmy Carr in which he talks about the most offensive joke he knows: "I've been asked a lot of times what's the most offensive joke...but I can't really know that because everybody gets offended by different stuff. But we can try to find out!" then he goes on and says a bunch of offensive jokes.

-set 2(2 hb) -Same intro as before
-I don't know (smiles and starts blushing)
ME-Try to regard this with seriousness, it's for science! Think reaaaaalll hard!
HB:....
ME:-What if I told you i'd like to put my dick between your tits and fuck them, would that get me slapped?
HB:(giggles) erm..no..
Me:-Alright, let's try something else (here I had a pause since I had nothing queued up and I hesitated saying some really nasty stuff)
Eventually the conversation died out (can't remember much else) just her saying that if it's something really offensive she'd just walk away and ignore it, she won't really slap anybody. Regarding this I mentioned only compliments(even if they are extremely sexual) count, not all out insults.

Regarding getting slapped in the street (for very direct approaches, such as apocalypse opener)...I don't really think it's likely to happen (or at least very rarely) for a couple of reasons: you need balls to slap a guy that opens you like that (you never know how he might react...you might get punched back); it's alot easier to just ignore it and walk away (and people are educated to act like this, especially girls that get hit on by afcs in groups yelling stuff to them); people are trained to avoid conflict and confruntation (you'd need a really hardcore chick to slap you, on the other hand a hardcore chick wouldn't mind you being straight forward); the slap is more for others then for you (group needs to see she reacted somehow, I remember the silly slaps made just to be made to guys that went "too far" touching them while their friends watched); there are a lot more chances to get insulted (or slapped?) for a shitty afc compliment such as the non sexual ones I had to make(that sounded very unnatural too) then for something that is balls to the wall direct.

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