So here´s my story.
Usually don´t post stuff much.
I´ll go for it.
I was invited to this dinner party. Just 3 of us, me, a friend and a girl. It was at my friend´s place so I got picked up by the girl.
We stopped to get some beers and chips, exchanged niceties, I carried her grocery bag. Nothing special really.
When we got there we had a nice chili dish or something, and started drinking. Immediately everyone had a melancholy vibe, especially her being slightly anorexic, sexy thin, works out a lot (running) what have you :/ chicks!
Anyways, I drew the attention to me saying shit like: "I was cheated on by my ex, bla bla" and she was like; "I would never do that". Later my friend started getting really drunk and asking me about music. Me being a musician answered him in a "I know better than you"-funny way. He is also somewhat stupid/slow when he is sober so he just laughed with me.
Then I spotted a party next door through the ceiling window, opened it and yelled "Hi" to the girl on the porch. I couldn´t believe there was a party 30 feet away on the other side of parking lot in this boring neighborhood.
I immediately suggested we´d go over there, join them. How cool is that! They were reluctant so I went out for a smoke. Only reason I bought cigarettes; it gives me zen, I relax, get in the mood Bond-style
whatever
I went over to the girl and said "Hi" again, asking what´s up with the party. Girl says her friend is having a birthday party. I´m thinking to myself "perfect excuse".
So I ask her: "can we come over? we´re two guys one girl, you know to congratulate the birthday girl"
She says : "Sure she loves meeting new friends"
Soon we´re standing outside their front door waiting to come in. When a girl opens up, I´m in the back of the group. Quickly passing through the welcome squad to the center of attention-the birthday girl. I hug her, yelling "happy birthday" smiling to the rest of the room. That´s when I realize. There are exactly 2 guys there, and a sea of HBs. Sittin in a circle of chairs and couches. I introduce myself crunching over them and spends quality time(just seconds really) with each girl going in a circle. I say stuff like: "look at that BEAUTIFUL birthday girl" loud so everyone can hear.
This girl I was with, follows me around in the circle. Even though I talk loudly and gesturing, I can overhear them saying things like: "are you with that guy, he´s so handsome, he is perfect for you"
Funny feeling isn´t it, girls gaming FOR YOU
We stick around for a while. When it´s time to go for a night on the town, a girl drags me into her bedroom, says she wants me to pick out shoes for her. I say okey, show me your shoes, she says sit on the bed first. I can tell she is not my type of girl, kinda chubby, so I tell her to take this pair of random shoes and I get the hell outta there.
We finally leave only to meet the HBs again in the waiting line outside a club. Now my friend is so drunk he is having second thoughts about going inside the club. Of course he throws up waiting in line so I get him a bottle of water and convinces him to go home.
Now i´m alone with this hot girl I´ve been secretly gaming all night. I buy to different drinks at once, she copies and pays herself. Now we can get really drunk at the table. We laugh, smile and look into this mirror close to where we´re sitting. " Look at us, we´re the shit"
After the drinks we get up and this guy starts hitting on my girl, real easy to see he has memorized this lame story, and what a surprise, she´s in it. So I start blocking him of course. I´m being really sarcastic agreeing with him. Then I drag her away, saying: "Does this happen to you alot?" with a smile
She says; "yeah, all the time"
Me :"I wanna get some air, you wanna join?" She says: "Okey"
When we´re outside I light up a cigarette, smoke it, put it out, I tell her:
"I want to kiss you"
She looks at me with the most innocent eyes I ever saw. "Me too"
I don´t think I have to explain what it felt like, but it was a wow moment, and i´m pretty sure I said"wow" after.
"You wanna go to my place?"
"Yes" she answered.
Okey, when we´re at my place, trouble kicks in. But in another sense, I met no trouble. I caused the trouble, pretty sure. First; She sat down in my bed, nice.
I sat down at my computer to turn on some music. Put on a Marvin Gaye album, big mistake. She: " What kind of music is that?" Me: "It´s the music of love, the love-music" feeling frisky.
Her: "Don´t you have some party music?" Me: "Sure" *puts on party list.
No problem now right?
Now I am thinking, gotta look busy with my computer, constantly changing tunes, and telling her mildly interesting stuff about the artists/songs. Information overload. She begins laying down in bed.
I go over and kiss her, hangin over her gorgeous hot body. Then sits down at the computer again. All I can think about is not push her to hard so LMR (last minute resistance) kicks in. At the same time I remember I forgot to buy condoms, also have this *fear* of them. Think they are dirty/makes me feel like dirt. Some tabu thing or something i guess. So after a while she gets up and wants to leave, I take her coat, put it over her shoulders and kiss her lips from behind. Kinda sexy I tell you. I then tell her: "I don´t wanna rush into things, we take this slow, I´ll see you later"
Next thing I know, I can´t sleep, eat, anything like that, I am a wreck. Or in love as they say.
Fuck it all up the following week...
I ask if she wants to go on a roadtrip with me next weekend. She is busy with some girlfriend´s party.
Then I pull the now-or-never-card. What a stupid thing to do. A friend of hers come over and asks "is everything okey with you guys?" Then I know for sure I fucked up. So i´m angry with myself, and it probably shows.
If that wasn´t enough, after class I send her text messages saying: " you know you can talk to me" and that kinda shit. Ask me if I got a text back, I didn´t. :/
So any pointers? Slaps in the face? They´re all very welcome. The longer the better, I´m writing a novel for you guys
CHAT
