Tuesday

Nothing much happened yesterday.

Today the guy I talked about before came to the school again for a bit. There really wasn't much to mention, but we did end up talking to a few girls, a couple were just a few comments in a lineup, waiting for food, and talking to a few chicks that were working display booths. It was a good day, just not really a lot to mention as far as numbers or anything goes.

Wednesday

I made a couple of approaches today, and had one good conversation for about 15 minutes, but she had a boyfriend. I also ran into a girl that I've mentioned in this journal awhile ago, she was in one of my classes last year.

The first approach was as I was looking at some posters that were set up for sale. I saw this thin blonde girl flipping through a few, and I walked up casually near her and said something like "so have you found any you like so far?". When she turned to answer, I saw that her face was quite rough. She was friendly and asked me which ones I liked. I only said a few things, and I think I misheard something she said, and I just smiled and continued looking at a few posters before moving on.

A bit later, I came to this area near one of the coffee shops, and there are lots of long tables in front of it. I saw a space on the other side of the table to this cute chick with curly brown hair. I sat down, and got out some printed lecture slides and noticed that she got a call and was speaking in a different language.

A moment or two after she got off the call, I asked her if that was Ukrainian or Russian, and she said yea, it was Russian. She was nice and friendly, and we talked for about 15 minutes. It was nearly 4pm, and she said she had to get going for class. But before she left I asked her if she had a boyfriend, and she did.

A little earlier in the day I ran into that girl that was in my class last year. I'll mention more if something goes on, but I said something like I haven't seen her much lately, and she said yea we should hang out. She had a boyfriend last year, but we'll see what happens. And she's always first to give me a big hug whenever she sees me, and when we say bye as well. She's a really cute, thin, Indian girl with long black hair.

I'm happy with today overall, but there were a couple of chicks that I should have talked to but didn't . And time is flying, just 6 more weeks and this semester is done!

Thursday

I tried one approach on Thursday, but it didn't go anywhere.

I saw this chick sitting on a bench, so I sat down at the space beside her. She seemed to be Middle Eastern would be my guess, and she was sort of dressed up a bit. There were a bunch of campus elections going on in the area near the benches, so I looked over and asked her if she was part of it. In the most disinterested, expressionless, and emotionless way she said "no, I'm just studying". To that, I just said "oh", and left it alone.

I don't really know if that affected me or not, but I just felt a bit off and unmotivated that day. i had a few more opportunities that I passed up, but I just felt like I had lost some of my momentum, and I guess I just didn't feel very social.

I didn't end up going in to the school on Friday.

Update on the chick I got the # from last week.

The day after I got her number she was leaving for a one week vacation. I told her to let me know when she's back. So a week had past plus a couple of days and I hadn't heard from her. I sent her a text asking how her trip was. She replied saying it was good etc. I asked her if she was going to be on campus the next day and that we should get together. She replied saying that she had a Dr's appointment, and that if she finished in time she'd like to, but after that she has to work as well. So I just told her it didn't sound like a good time, and we can get together another time.

I sent her another text Valentine's day wishing her a good day. She replied and wished me the same and said we can get together next week. We have a week off school now. So yea, nothing like getting a number and having a nice 2 week cool-off period to kill any attraction that might have been there! I don't have to wait a full week, and I might consider inviting her out sometime over this next week while we're off.

Time for an update.

So the week off passed and I've been back to school for a week now.

When I got back to school after the week off I texted that chick I was just talking about in my last post. We went back and forth with a little small talk. Then I sent a text to see if she wanted to get together, and she didn't reply. I sent her a text the next day saying too bad we missed each other and nice talking to you anyways, and she replied with a long message saying sorry a couple of times with a few excuses and at the end says let's meet next week (which is now). I haven't texted her back yet.

This will be the third time I've tried to meet up with this chick, but she's come up with excuses but each time she keeps mentioning let's meet, but just later. Anyways, I'll try her once more this week but this will be the last time I'll bother with her if it doesn't pan out.

Yesterday: I talked to one girl while I was sitting at these long tables. I commented on her hand writing, and just talked to her for a bit after that.

Tuesday

It was a good day as far as being social goes, but I didn't come away with any numbers.

I sat at the computer beside this one chick in the library. I asked her something about the color printer, and talked to her for a bit. She was packing up to leave, and I said I'll walk out with her, but when we were at the front of the library I didn't see that she had to check out her books, and I just sort of kept walking and we said bye.

I talked to this other young chick that was working a display booth in one of the hallways, not too much to mention here.

A bit later I saw this girl sitting alone at a table of 4, so I asked if anyone was sitting there. It's common to do that there because it's so busy. Anyways, I think one of the first things I said was something about how busy the school is and how it's hard to find a seat. I ended up talking to her for about 15 minutes, but 10 minutes in I found out she had a boyfriend. So there wasn't too much else to that one.

I made one more directions type of approach that didn't go too much beyond a few sentences.

General Thoughts

Like always, time is flying by. I made a goal for myself that I wanted to meet and bang a chick from the school, and now there's only roughly 4 weeks left. Even though I walked out of there today in good spirits because at least I tried and made an effort, at the same time it was still a little frustrating knowing that I'm still not seeing the results that I want.

Sure, compared to a couple of years ago I'm much more comfortable approaching chicks and I'm more social in general, so in that sense I've come a long way. But the thing that sort of keeps eating at me is that I still have yet to meet a chick from the school and sleep with her as a result of a daygame approach.

It's not over yet, and if I make a solid effort for these last 4 weeks then I definitely have a shot, but I do need to step up my game.

Time for another update, I've been slacking on the journal lately.

Well that girl that I was talking about in the last post that made a few excuses each time we had plans, well she flaked a third time, so I haven't bothered with her since.

I've made a bunch of approaches since the last journal update, but I'll mention the two main ones.

My younger buddy came to the school last week and when we were walking in one of the hallways these two Japanese chicks turned to us and asked us where the gym was. I suggested that they walk with us as I said we're heading in that area. So we walked them to the building and I walked a bit ahead with the girl that I was talking to. They had just arrived in the country last week, so she didn't have a local number. So I put my name in her phone, and she ended up adding me on facebook. She's not bad looking, but I'm not thinking too much will come out of it.

This next girl does show some potential, for sure.

We were getting on the bus in the morning, and she went to the upper level, and so did I. We both sat in the front and I made some comment about the view or something, and we talked for most of the way to the school. She's a really petite, thin, light-skinned Indian chick with almost waist-length black hair and a cute face.

So long story short I found out she's not talking to her bf of 3 years right now and it sounds like it's more or less over. I got her number and arranged a meet up at the school. We hung out for a bit after class and rode the bus on the way home. I found out she's from a pretty strict family, and even though she's over 21 she still has a curfew.

I knew going into the meetup that I wasn't going to do or expect much, but things seem to have went well. We got a booth in the library and I sat on the same side as her. We had great eye contact with lots of smiles, and a couple different times I'd touch her hands as we were talking about things like the size of our hands, and how soft her skin was, her rings etc.

We rode the same bus home, and I touched and gave her stomach a little rub as we were talking about abs and she seemed really receptive to everything that I did. And she would poke and nudge me a few times as well.

I was really debating going for the kiss as I got off the bus, because she stayed on until the next stop. But I know that technically she still has a bf, and she seems to be on the conservative side, so I decided to play it conservative myself and just give her a hug this time. After all, it was just a meet up after class, not a date. And not to mention, as the bus pulled into the station that I got off at, all the really bright white lights came on, the kind that make you squint a bit, so it really killed the mood of the nice quiet and dark bus ride! So yea, it was a bit of a buzzkill, so I just went in for the hug!

My one 'fear' with this chick is that she seems like the type that's into serious relationships only, but you never know, we'll see what happens. I'm just happy now that I'm closer to getting some success from daygame and may just be able to accomplish my goal before school is finished.

We had another snow storm on Wednesday, so I've only been at the school two days this week so far.

Tuesday

The only real approach worth mentioning that I did today was at the end of the day in the library. I saw this cute girl with a red shirt and really long black wavy hair sitting by herself on these carpeted steps. I sat down near her and a few moments later I got up and made a joke with her to watch my stuff because someone might steal my books. I got back and she had a big smile on her face, so I joked again and asked if anyone came by scoping them out or anything. She seemed pretty nice and friendly. Right after that I told her I really like her hair and that I like long hair like that. She seemed quite flattered about the compliment, and we mentioned a couple more things then it looked like a guy from her class came and sat beside her and they started doing some sort of work on their laptops.

It looked like this guy was going to stay, and my bus was coming so I stayed a few minutes more then took off and went to the gym.

General thoughts

I've made several long and drawn out posts in this journal talking about game and what's holding me back. Well, it looks like I'm starting to figure it out. To use some PUA terminology, I have had this incredibly huge limiting belief that I can't score a girl from school because I'm too old. It's really ridiculous, because I get enough looks on a regular basis that tells me that's nonsense. Yet that feeling has always persisted.

And that gets at the root of the problem as to why I have failed to escalate and show intent with girls at school. On POF dates I have no problems, but at school I play it so safe and it's like I'm a different person compared to how I am once I'm on a 'date'. And it all boils down to that limiting belief as to why I act differently and am so tentative to show any sort of intent or to escalate.

And what's got me excited lately is the feeling that I'm finally not only figuring that out, but pushing past it too. And it was the most recent meet up with that petite Indian chick where things started to become different. Because for the first time I actually tried to show a bit of intent, and behaved in a similar way as I might if I was on a date. And by this I just mean much better and more seductive eye contact and smirk/smiling at appropriate moments, depending on what we're talking about. I was much more 'touchy feely' than I ever have been with girls at school. I touched and held her hands for a few reasons a few different times, and I also caressed her stomach a little too on the bus. So although that in itself isn't much, what it did do was show me that I can attract a girl at school and it's just the same as any other girl, whatever her age.

Considering I've been on this site for a couple of years now, my progress, overall, is slow. But I can say with 100% certainty that I have improved a lot since I started, and even now very recently I've been making some definite progress as well. And if I can keep going like this and continue to crush that limiting belief, and at the same time see a bit of success and continue to gain confidence, then I think the real progress and results will be within reach fairly soon.

Thursday

I wasn't at the school yesterday, but I was there today for a little while. I came away from the day with mixed feelings. There are two things worth mentioning today.

First, I opened this chick in the lineup for one of the coffee shops. I looked at her with a smile and said "that's a nice scarf!". She reacted really positively and thanked me, then I said with a smile or smirk that I don't usually comment on women's fashion, but hey it looks nice. She laughed at that and was all smiles. We ended up walking away from the place together, still talking, but all of a sudden I realized we were going to head in a different direction and we just said bye. Yea I fucked up there. It wasn't nerves, it just happened so quick that we parted ways and after I already had kept walking, I didn't feel like turning around and running back after her. Anyways, not the end of the world.

The positive I took from that is that I just walked up and opened with no hesitation and I felt really confident in doing so.

Not much to say on this next one except I sat near this chick at these long tables. This other guy was sitting right across from her, but it looked like he was packing up to leave, as he was just looking around and didn't have any books or anything out. I wanted to wait until he left, then it would have been me and her only at the table. So I gave it a few minutes. Then I gave it a few more minutes. Well, he didn't leave, and by that time I left it too long just sitting there, and I just sort of said fuck it. I packed up my stuff, caught the bus, and went to the gym.

The lesson or takeaway on that one is that I should start to give less of a fuck if anyone can hear my approach and don't wait for the 'perfect' situation, because there's no guarantee that it'll happen. That guy made a quick call so he was occupied for a minute, and I should have used that as my opportunity to open her, but I didn't.

Oh, lol, the quick update on that petite Indian chick is that through a comment I made I probably made it sound like I didn't want a long term relationship. So pretty much after that it took her two days to reply to my text with no explanation, and a really dull, few word reply! lol

She sent me that text two days ago. We'll see what happens, but I'm going to really try to finish the semester strong for these next 3 weeks. I need some more prospects and leads.