Hey guys, so it's been a while since I've been on here, and since I've actually even done pickup. In fact it's been 3 months or almost so, and guess what? It's taken a toll on me.

I've been studying a lot and working on other projects and needed a rest from pickup, or so I thought. Anyway, it turns out that I need to do pickup in my life, it's a part of it and a part of me. It has changed my life around so much that I can never ever let it go and I actually want to get really good at it.

OK, that's all good and well, but this little break has taken a real toll on me and my game has suffered some.

This reminds me of when I was seeing a girl last year for 3 weeks where I didn't game and that, too, was difficult, as I really had to push myself to get back to the level where I was at. And now it's the same.

I went out before yesterday I think and did my first few approaches again after 3 months. Not too bad! Got a number on my first approach and the rest were all not so good anymore, but doesn't matter. However I went out today by MYSELF, something that I could do easily towards the end of my last "cycle", and I froze up completely. Going out for me has always been incredibly difficult, as I feel incredible social pressure around me - I feel people are looking at me and especially here in Vienna the city feels much more like a small community than anything else and so all these fears come into my head where I start thinking, will people recognize me? I KNOW this is all irrational, however it was incredibly overwhelming today as I did only 1 approach in about an hour-hour and a half or so. The approach was OK. It was good in my outer confidence and my vocal tonality, however I ejected quickly when she looked disinterested. No big deal, however my goal today was to build my momentum, to approach approach approach, and I just couldn't do it. I know I CAN do it, because I did it so many time, by myself and with wings. However it was incredibly overwhelming today.

I really need to get back into it. I want to get back to the level where I was at, and then surpass it by some even. I am incredibly inspired by people like Julien form RSD, watching some of his infield footage is truly inspirational and also a little intimidating if I may say so, as some crazy shit is truly possible. I'm also inspired by Tyler Durden's videos and infield footage, and I know that anything is possible and can be achieved. However I need to cross my old barriers again, and that's fine, but I have to do it again. I want to get back to where I was at a few months ago, both in my mindset and in my communication skills, therefore I am rereading a lot of things, including Vin DiCarlo's The Attraction Code, 60 Years of Challenge, the escalation ladder, and some old retro PUA stuff with some good old lines and techniques. They gave me and will give me a good grounding again, as will the other books of course.

However I still go fully direct in my approach (daygame), and I'm now willing to also try other approaches, maybe not verbalize my intent completely, but rather just show it in my vibe and my body language and my eyes.

So this is where I'm at. Getting back into it fully and hopefully will be able to line up some dates soon. Wish me luck and I'll keep you updated!

Tr@veler