September 18th: Failure, Kiss Close, and the F-Close I Rejected
Approach: 13
N-Close: 3
K-Close: 1
Its 5:30am. I'm back home. I have mixed feelings inside. I didn't have any exciting feelings inside, or a feeling that I won. I kind of ended up more confused than ever. Well lets go back 18hrs back to the morning of Sunday...
School Festival Sarge
Once again, here it comes. Its the school festival sarge. I'm so bad at sarging at school festivals its ridiculous. But today was the day to prove myself wrong, because I created a routine stack to apply. My main goal today is to practice "DISQUALIFYING".
As I arrived, I opened a 3-set on their way to the school. I did the english directional opener, transitioned into broken Japanese, and then teased the hell out of one girl - called her "charai" meaning - a light girl in Japanese, lol. Most importantly I got them to laugh so it was all cool. But none of them were good looking so I introduced them to Legoman, and then said "bye". How cold hearted, they wanted my number so I could seduce them and fuck them.
Anyway, there were a lot of girls. So me and Legoman got started. My energy was fine but Legoman was losing his because he lost his wallet the other day. We started opening a few cuties - they all gave IOI's to Legoman. 2minutes into the conversation, all the girl had dried up looks on their faces. Even though these girls were obviously sitting around to be picked up by these fucking AFC's around us. It was funny because there was this one area where girls just sat down waiting for guys to approach them. I don't know what it is, we're both very good looking, alpha-attitude, great body posture and voice, and our conversation is meant to entertain, but they just don't dig. Perhaps its because we don't fit the initial criteria they have in their minds for coming to this school festival - we're not from this school!
We kept approaching but every conversation ended up dry and sour - with the expression on the girls' faces. Legoman always told me "lets bounce" when the girls immediately showed the looks. I always tried persisting to keep them interested but failed in every set. We took a break and ate Yakisoba.
Then a mother visiting the school told me with hostility: "someone's sitting here". I nodded and said "okay I'll move". I told Legoman we should find another location. Then he said "why? why the hell do we have to move because she told us to?". Legoman reminds me I need to stand up for myself, and not be pushed around. Because I hate being pushed around and I look like a fucking loser doing so. So I sat down, but allowed enough space for another person to sit next to the mother. Problem solved.
I told Legoman to move the one guy who was next to a 2set. As he moved him, I approached one the set, opened them, and then the little guy went away. We all talked for like 25minutes, then we bounced. We spend too long in one set its ridiculous. The girl I was talking to was adventurous and was looking forward to the skydiving trip to Australia. I guess its because our fail rate is so high. Then we find another 2set. I talk to a semi-slutty weird snowboard loving girl. Both sets, I tease. But gotta work on my disqualifies!
Then it was 5pm already as we knew it, and one of the girls from the other week approached us. It was the girl we met and she was a crazy little monster- number closed her too. So we went ahead and approached different girls, but nothing ever clicked. As we were in a 3set, 4 AMOGS came our way and blocked me and the girls and Legoman. One of them said, the girl is my sexfriend. He said: you were doing magic a while ago weren't you? I said, no, what are you talking about.
I didn't blast the AMOG because I got a little scared - they were big. So I told Legoman, "lets bail". He got pissed off: "why the fuck do we have to bail just because these fucking idiots interrupt us? If we leave now, we'll end up looking like losers!" Fuck, he's truly right, I really need to bring to the surface the alpha side of me! Legoman said: "even if I might lose, I'd still fight against them because I hate losing." - thats the attitude I need. Like Mystery vs the Soviet guy with the gun.
Legoman n-closed a girl he really liked so he didn't wanna sarge anymore at the place because he'd look bad. So we bounced, and then headed to Ikebukuro.
Day 2 with Model Girl
I met Lem, the model girl at Ikebukuro. I introduced her to Legoman and we chatted for a while. It was great Legoman came, because I didn't know what to talk about at times. But anyway, Lem was looking fine, she had pretty large breasts proportional to her body. I gave her a hug - instant kino - something that doesn't happen in Japan. My PUA buddy Jay told me "a handshake is like a hug in Japan, girls in Japan find a handshake really warm!". So I escalate it and take it one level up to a hug - perhaps its like kissing on the lips in Western terms!
We head for the department store and check out the animal corner. Then we head down to the furniture area and sit around on the beds. I give the the pillow and do the intimate talk.
Me: You know, my friends from Thailand all have these huggable pillows - I guess many of them really wanted love. Do you like hugging things while you're asleep?
Her: Yeah, hugging things while asleep feels great
Me: But nothing is better than hugging a real person isn't it? (I hug her while saying it)
Gay Routine:
Somewhere along the lines, I told her a story of meeting gay people in Sydney. And when she asked whether I was gay (jokingly) - I told her yeah I'm gay. She really believed me and ended up being confused but in agreement!
I was starving and wanted food, so we went and ate. I ended up paying which was stupid because she offered. I was thinking of how to make her pay her half during dinner, but I thought fuck-it!
It was 9:30pm and we started heading towards the station but I wanted to find a quiet place to chat. Lucky for us, we found a set of stairs, nicely lit up, great place to chat. We chatted and then kino'd a bit. I disqualified her enough today - when she told me something which is different to my opinion, I told her: "we can't be friends anymore, we'd never get along! (with a smile and laugh)" - she always responded by - "nooo, we can so get along!"
I also came up with a fun routine every PUA can use for a kiss close displayed at the end of today's update. So we played along Stealth's kiss close routine (without an actual kiss) and kept staring at each other trying to make each other laugh.
Before the kiss, she still thought I might be gay or bisexual. So I kept teasing her and told her I won't tell her!
The kiss close
Me: I'm really surprised you don't threatened when I get my face close to yours
Her: I'm fine with it, its not threatening.
Me: What if I get this close!
Her: Its fine~
Me: What if its this close?
(as I keep giving her a soft kiss)
Me: now you know one option is out of the question (with regards to being gay, bi, or straight).

She has a really small mouth, soft lips, and her tongue is like so fucking soft and nice.
I initiate the bounce and we head back to the train station. We get on the same train, and when we were gonna say goodbye, hugged her and kissed her. Now comes the guilt with me and my current LTR…fuck!
The F-Close I rejected
D2 with Kana - the hostess girl. We meet at Kawasaki - I go there with my bicycle and we head towards the river. We buy non-alcoholic drinks and talk for hours and hours. We get along so fucking well so far. I learned she's a really sensitive girl, so all that negging I did towards the start was ineffective for her.
She advised me that I should break up with my LTR if I want to play around with many girls (I admitted I want to fuck around because I never had the chance when younger). But then before that, I was advising her with her ADD/sleep deprivation problem, and her relationship issues. She's actually a really good girl with a simple dream of finding a good man, marrying him, and being a loving wife with children. She has self-esteem problems because she feels she's like an object when people have sex with her.
I met her around 12:45am. Around 3:30am, I was already losing it, half asleep and a little stomach cramp. Around 4:30am, we started having sex talk. She told me she liked sex talk.
Me: So whats your favorite position? I had the impression…well, I won't actually tell you.
Her: tell me tell me!!!
Me: Fine, you told me you wanted to dominate your man. So you must love being on top.
Her: actually I don't like being on top too much, I get tired. I prefer missionary.
Me: Does sex feel differently with every person?
Her: Yeah, there's always a match or an un-match with regards to sex…
Me: It would be interesting to find out whether we match [laughing]
Her: Totally!
Me: But I'm sorry I can't have sex with you, I wanna keep this cool relationship going!
Her: …awww, okay.
Me: You know the love hotels around Kawasaki? There's a bali-style place where you can rent games, a portable planetarium, and nintendo wii. We should go there and play wii, take a bath together…
Her: …and put it in?
Me: {laughing} definitely!
When I told her "lets go to the love hotel and find out" she kept on saying yes. So I could have gone. But I had a stomach ache, plus my libido was extremely low, and Sleep>Sex was the status quo. I did a fun thing where I made her feel a sarge of energy!
Me: The condoms I wear are big size
Her: You have a big one?
Me: I don't know, but this is how it is when its not erect
{I pull her hand and put it on my penis - she rubs it a bit and then takes it back}
Her: Okay, normal size is normal. But omg! I feel so dokidoki (like butterflies in my chest) when you put my hand on your penis! I usually have fun and touch people's dick's but its the first time someone took my hand and put it on their penis!!!
Around 5:30am, it was enough. I was sleepy, and so it was time for me to go. I initiated the bounce, we hugged, and said goodbye. She told me if we had sex, she might fall in love with me. Even without the sex she said: "you're really attractive. I bet your really good with the girls. I could end up falling in love with you". Great approval I got, perhaps the validation I've been seeking all along from changing myself to become a PUA.
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Stealth's Kiss Close Routine
Lets play a fun game. Okay, I'm gonna get my face really close to yours. When I get close enough, I want you to get your face close to mine. And see what happens. [as you get your face close to her, she'll get a little closer and you automatically pull back].
Whats funny is, when I'm getting close to you but then you suddenly get closer, I repel backwards! (could be the truth in life too, lol)
Okay, now you try getting your face close to me.
[as she gets her face close to yours, don't get your face close to hers. Just stay there. As she gets closer and closer, turn your head and peck her on the lips!
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