| Okay, so I was doing everything right. I collaborate information from you all, and the professionals and try things that are mentioned the most or sound the most successful to further me as I am a newbie to this scene. It appears to be working incredibly well tonight. Looks like your average HB8.
We go back to my place, and I let her smoke my weed since it sounded fun for me too. She goes first, inhales, then I do it and It feels horribly different than usual, I couldn't exhale it out because It felt way more pleasurable than my weed usually is. My lungs literally couldn't work from how incredible they felt. I run to the bathroom thinking I'm about to vomit, when I'm actually just inhaling air for the first time in a bit. This is where things start to go wrong.
Now In my fucked up state, she offers me a Inhaler. I tell her to go first and ask her what it is, she refuses by saying she doesn't know and tells me she does it all the time. She tells me to go for it, hands me it. I thought "WHY NOT? I'D LIKE TO BE HIGHER!"
I inhale, suddenly I feel a insane amount of aggression, agitation, and arousal. Every single muscle strained, and my skull is fucking burning. One minute later, and I was seeing myself in 3rd person and couldn't comprehend ANYTHING, I get up hold her onto the chair with one arm, and rub her with the other saying "Lets Fuck" like I was a rapist. She struggled hard, trying to choke me but her hands couldn't press down hard enough on my muscled neck, and she couldn't push me off at all. Eventually she gave up and stopped resisting.
The neighbors were outside talking about it too. I remember hearing them, or at least voices in the distance. I think they were just voices, since the neighbors would call the police on me.
I knew it was happening, then when I came to some of my senses I got off and calmed her, and laid on my bed and suddenly now I have the worst depression I've ever faced my entire life. I literally want to slit my throat, and tell her to do it. And I tell her to call a ambulance or something, because I just want to go to a insanity ward now. She refuses AGAIN.
She doesn't call the police or do anything, she just sits there and talks to me actually showing way too much interest while I'm out of my mind. Especially after that whole crazy psycho thing.
Tells me, I'm one of the strongest men shes ever known, and even the two guys she was with last night weren't that strong. What the christ?
I end up laying on my bed tripping for a good 5 or so hours with my brain feeling like its on fire, talking to her, trying to get her back into her comfort zone. I manage it entirely ironically after almost raping her, while I'm trying to ignore the trip I'm experiencing, and the burning pain.
I take her home, and now shes showing way too much interest in me after that whole thing. Telling me I'm VERY interesting, super intelligent and extremely cute, really strong, the works while I'm just talking and paying attention to the road, still burned out, on autopilot.
She offers me a blowjob before I drop her off to her car, and I tell her I just want to disappear and tell her to slam the door. I didn't know what she was doing, and I felt still ashamed of myself. She kept telling me she wanted to keep in touch with me, but that depression was kicking back in.
Now what I learned from that night is.
Don't do strange women's inhalers if they refuse to do it themselves.
And still after that, I don't know what her intentions were by giving it to me.
Kind of afraid to contact her again
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