Hello everyone, I hope someone can give some insight to my life.
I am 21 years old, and been in a relationship with a woman 5 years older than me for a year and a couple of months. I am happy, I really am, but sometimes I feel I shouldn't be in a serious relationship, specially when I see her everyday at school. Sometimes I get this tiny urges of going out to party and meet girls, others I feel very happy in my relationship.
Now, speaking of going out to party and meeting girls, I've never been that kind of guy, I don't know if I grew up way too fast, Im just 21, and while all my friends are partying, Id rather think of new ways of making money, I am addicted to money, and I see my friends hanging around with no money and they're fine.
I have a few small business and I'm partnered up with my dad's business, I haven't finished college yet. And while I enjoy my life, I have all the money I need, I can buy anything, I virtually have it all... money... girlfriend... health... but still there are this days (Like today) that I sit in my room alone and think
"Am I wasting my life?"
All my friends are out partying, not worrying about money, or anything else, and I'm here just watching money grow into more money.
I don't know where my relationship is going, she's 26, she will soon want to marry and have kids, and I have told her I don't and can't do that anytime soon, which she respected, but her mother instinct will tick again, I know it. Maybe I break up with her tommorow or in a few months or in a year, or maybe we do actually get married in 10 years! ... but I can't shake the feeling off that I might be wasting the fun part of my life. Someone my age shouldn't have to be all day working, unless needed, when my friends can go to school and have fun.
I've been thinking of finding a psychologist that can hear me out and toss insight... I really don't know why I feel like this, and I don't know if anyone here has ever fel that way? ...

Honestly man, I think your a little wise beyond your years. I'm also a business owner and of course my biz comes first. Don't let social expectations mold your life. you are who you are, if you have a head for business use it, but at the same time your still young so go out and have some fun.


I go out and party hard one day a week, I recommend the same for you. yer young man don't miss out on that part of your life and you don't have to let go of your business or your girl to do so.

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"J, I guess yer so amazing in bed you send the girls into a transcendent state where they realize their own mortality and are shaken by the realization that their presence bears little impact on the universe, or they just realized they hate you"
-DJ_Z

Thanks! I too think that I was forced to grow up a little earlier than expected. Sometimes I just wish I had ONE day where my phone wouldn't ring at all. Once a week I get a hotel room and spend the night with my girlfriend, and turn off my cellphones, and we just have sex... eat... etc which relaxes me.

See, I think I need to get the "party bug" into me, because to be honest, it doesn't even gets my attention, even though I'd like to. I really don't know what ties me to another "world". There's so much shit going on in my head at all times, at day, at night when sleeping I think of stuff that shouldn't even be there!

I am happy that you shared your life with me, I don't feel all alone now. Though I wish I could know someone like me in my city.

Hey man there are few of us out there that have the head to keep our businesses running and it takes some time to get over the stress of leaving it alone for a day, but not all companies are open 24/7 at this point I route my business calls to VM on Friday nights, party like crazy Friday night and Saturday and back at it on Sunday. Thank fully I was just able to hire a new tech that's on call on my weekends so I can tend to the really important stuff and he handles the bulk of the work.


best of luck out there man.

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"J, I guess yer so amazing in bed you send the girls into a transcendent state where they realize their own mortality and are shaken by the realization that their presence bears little impact on the universe, or they just realized they hate you"
-DJ_Z