Even if I still seem normal and alright to mostly everyone I talk to I tell myself that's not good enough because I want to be like those cool guys who you just want to hang out with and treat them with tons of respect as soon as you meet them. I know you got to like yourself first but I've tried to find things I like about myself and I can only find a couple and on top of that I put myself down every time I'm not that cool guy I pictured in my head, If you've read this far your awesome and I'd appreciate it if you can give me some pointers or advice on just being myself while gaining selfesteem

Now this has been explained in millions of ways but ill explain my own. Imagine when you were born somebody gave you 2 balloons. 1 labelled negative and one labelled positive. Every time you thought a positive/negative thought the corresponding balloon would grow a tiny bit bigger and the other one a tiny bit smaller.........
I'm sure you can fill in the blanks. How big do you think your positive balloon is?

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'Nothing is impossible to a willing mind'

Don't be so modest. Just tell yourself that you're the most fucking amazing guy in the world. When you wake up, before you do anything. Give yourself a pep talk in the mirror. Like a coach would talk to his players before a big game. And be sure to be serious and loud and mad. "You're the most fucking amazing guy ever, it is a privilege to even look at you! This is your reality and everyone else here are guests!"

Stop being such a pessimist. You say that every time you realize that you're not 'that guy' you picture in your head that you want to be, you put yourself down. No stop that. Instead, you need to start looking at the little things. Improve one part of yourself at a time. Don't try to transform yourself all at once, this will usually lead to failure. Notice all the negative attributes about you, write them all down on a list. Then... every week, select on of those and work to improve it. Do this every week until you are finished with the entire list. And then when you're done with that list, make another.

Good luck friend.

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-Artemas Fair

Get a copy of Six Pillars of Self Esteem, by Nathaniel Branden. Read it and do the 31 weeks program.

Yes, it is long, but there are no shortcuts for self esteem. Improving your self esteem is just like getting in top shape. You need to train everyday for a long time. You have to work for it!

In fact, self esteem is the resilience of the human mind, just like strength makes the resilience of the body.

You can find the program free at Branden's site, but you really need the theoretical background to know how to make it work.