I'm just going to ramble a bit about some of my experiences and we'll see what kind of conversation I can spark. I have decent success with women but my problem is going for easy and comfortable, which leaves me unhappy and dooms any relationship that happens to develop. Let's start with some of the higher quality women I've been with:

M: My first "love". I was 17, she was 15 and a cross country runner, and she was smart enough to ask her mom for birth control! I was her 1st. In the summer, she would run 5 miles or so to my house at 7am, several days a week. I'm totally passed out and didn't get to bed until 5am. She would crawl into my bed, hot and sweaty, get on top and go to work. Many times I was so tired I couldn't even stay conscious. Total ego trip for me, turns out she was a complete bitch though.

S and C: My LTR college girlfriends. Both probably around a 6.5. C was another cross country girl, I was a sprinter (not in bed!). Man I love those toned legs and asses! S was a petite half Vietnamese girl who learned really well to ride on top! She would let me just lay back hitting a 420 bowl while she did all the work. Wow that was fun!

The ex: Modelesque figure, 5'10" 135lbs and size 4. Very feminine and classy, good fashion. Attractive but somewhat average face. About 6 face, 9 body. She was a Russian exchange student and I won her over in a college Statistics class. Together 6 years (married 5)...bad bad sex life! We separated a year ago.

In college I once overheard 2 girls talking about how I was a player. First thought was to be defensive since I didn't want a negative reputation. But 2nd thought was, "What a nice compliment!" I guess I was a "cute" guy but I was never an alpha football player type. I never felt confident enough to consider myself a player.

So what does all of this mean? I clearly have some natural attraction. I've had sex with more women than most people out there. But I still feel like a chump. I don't chase the women that really catch my eye. I've never pushed myself to find out my real value and attraction.

Feel free to comment. Check out part 2 to learn about my less than proud conquests. I'll link here when its up.