It's been quite some time since I've posted on this forum. I needed to get the voices out of my head in an relatively anonymous locale. This seems more anonymous than lairs.

I've been into this chick for some time, gaming her but not showing much interest. Finally got the courage to ask her for dinner (going dutch) but then again below the radar.

I think I've put her on a pedestal, didn't really do day game lately and I think that's detrimental in terms of neediness.

Anyhow, FUCK, could you imagine how a simple comment by a guy on her Facebook wall:

1st) did you really think that i was only a bunch of hollywood stereotypes? babyyyyyy!

2nd) ‎140... or more and no need to apologize, it's understandable. a little kiss on my cheek might make things much better! james will be looking for you tomorrow.

could flip one off. I've put her on her fucking pedestal. She isn't really attractive, a 5.5 or 6 maybe, but she's super sweet and has MASSIVE social proof.

Maybe I want her for her compassion or for her massive social circle


But fuck, I don't understand how I've became so pissed off. It's like "Hey, MOFO, she's my prey don't you fucking touch her!"

Even though I know and am constantly validated by other HBs shooting IOIs at me. (Validation seeking behavior= uncool, but isn't that we all seek IOIs to shield us from getting rejected when we #-close, etc)

Oneitis, or is it simply because I'm too competitive?

I'm not in her social circle and it fucks me inside cause I hear these stories of other guys AND girls hitting on her.

Fuck if all started with a simple ass question from her "Do you have anything to do this weekend? Neither do I". I took it as she was baiting me to ask her out and fuck I've been thinking of her so many times. ARGHHHH FTW.