i am by no means good at pick up otherwise but recently due to a horrific family situation ( no money, no food, no heat, no hot water, useless dad, overworked mother, abuse, etc.) i have completely reverted all the progress ive made over the past two years...

anywho, recently ive been so absurdly introverted that it annoys me. last year, my teachers were discussing with other classes and students how confident i was, this year...i dont talk, i dont have that spark in my personality, and ive lost the cockiness that i had about myself. additionally this year ive taken upon myself an entirely new social group...i used to be the alpha in my own social circle but all the otherguys never wanted to go out, and were pretty much afriad of women, so ive started hanging otu with guys im on the debate team with (sounds nerdy, but in my school that stuff has nothign to do with social stature) and everyweekend we always are hanging out with at least 5 or 6 girls and go out to parties (something i never used to do). in summation, this change in social standing as well having an INCREDIBLY unstable family life, going to sleep hungry every night, losing weight, and ive recently lost my ability to sleep has taken a huge tole on me. Im not concerned with picking up girls anymore, im concerned with my own mental well being. everyone around me is telling me that theyve noticed this change in me and are concerned. ive tried to build my self confidence back up so that i can be in state all the time again,but when im doing the self confidence excersises nowadays i cant help but think to myself when im doing them how they are so incredibly not true and that im worthless and fake.

more so, ive become hesitant of being alone with people, i feel like i have nothing to offer in a one on one situation...in a three person+ i can feed off of other peoples state but in a one on one i feel like what i have to say is unfunny and generally retarded....

i really hate the way i am right now, any help to get me back to my old ways is greatly appreciated....

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Hey man, hang in there. If your parents are neglecting you than you have problems bigger than the community. However I can offer you some advice. One, get a part time job. Shit is hard to get right now but if you look you can find something. Let it be something fun, and due to your lack of food i suggest a restaurant job: they will feed you for cheep, if not for free. If you start earning you own money you might be able to gain a little confidence back as well as hit on some hot hostess booty. This will help you get out of one social circle and meet tons of new people, you will be tired from the extra work and I think It could help you in many ways. Also I am sure you have friends, mooch off there food, your in high school all my friends always cleared out my fridge when they stayed out. Don't be afraid to ask for help from them.

Hey bud Keep your head up.-Misfit

Hey man, hang in there. If your parents are neglecting you than you have problems bigger than the community. However I can offer you some advice. One, get a part time job. Shit is hard to get right now but if you look you can find something. Let it be something fun, and due to your lack of food i suggest a restaurant job: they will feed you for cheep, if not for free. If you start earning you own money you might be able to gain a little confidence back as well as hit on some hot hostess booty. This will help you get out of one social circle and meet tons of new people, you will be tired from the extra work and I think It could help you in many ways. Also I am sure you have friends, mooch off there food, your in high school all my friends always cleared out my fridge when they stayed out. Don't be afraid to ask for help from them.

Hey bud Keep your head up.-Misfit

Truely, what these forums and books have helped me realized is that you can't change anyone else, but you need to change yourself. This means the people you associate with, your environment, etc.

I'm not any better off than you as far as game goes. Just having more shit doesn't equal true happyness.

What you need to realize is that it's a matter of survival. When you wake up and realize that you can't let that other guy get the best of you, even if he is your best friend, this is your motivation. You dig deep inside and realize that those bastards are no better than you, only thing is they got a silver spoon handed them their whole life. Then you start the day, nothing stands in your way, you are the ruler of your life and it's time to kick the depression shit to the curb.

This means ruling out all negative influence. Even those people who say, "I don't want you to blah blah blah."

If you have a dream, work for it, put your focus on it and then become what you want to be. Only when you stop listening to others and start doing what you've wanted with no fear or regrets can you truely not be depressed. Anyways, this is my opinion, hope it helps.

Plus, you could do what I did in your situation, joined the military. Thank god i'm getting out in 5 months

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I'm not run of the mill, because it's from the mill I'm running...

Ive been there man and ive done that. I remember 2 years a go I was one confident, cocky, and funny son of a bitch EVERYONE love to be around. In other words ive been the life of the party. What your going through is a traumatic experience. I remember the first stages when I went through it back in the day and they were HORRIBLE. I couldnt even look people in the fucking eye man let alone make good small talk. I was always anxious and was wondering what the fuck happened to me.

Honestly, your parents are kind of messing you up since your not getting the love and support you need from them. You need to chane that and things will start to get better. I know it might be hard because you said they have abused you but it would be the manly thing to do and youll soon start acting like you used too. Just ask your parents if they have the time to sit down and talk for a little. Be nice to them and tell them your situation. Tell them how you feel neglected and how youd really appreciate it if they took you more seriously and respected you more.

If your father is a complete dick then go to your mother. Your mother is gonna be very sensitive and will get a feel for your situation. Your father might say something like "Man the fuck up you pussy" If he does that shit and or hits you id tell my mother and if he hits your mother for trying to protect you then id call the cops or move out of the house. I can really feel for you man. The worst thing to do as ive learned from experience is to just sit there and not take action or get help. Your inner game needs work so get to work on that shit. Read some books and watch some seminars. David Deangelo has some really good seminars. SImply the best to tell you the truth.

Some great inner game books for you to start off with that id reccomend would be eckhart tolles power of now and dan millmans way of the peaceful warrior. I think you can download them both on 4shared or scribd. Not sure though. Anyways, just take action and do the manly thing in those situations. In other words do whats gonna make your situation better for you. Right now, ask yourself "What do I need to do RIGHT NOW to make my situation better?" It can be anywhere from talking to your parents, getting advice from somebody, seeing a therapist, or just reading some books.

If you keep this shit up and dont take action I warn you your gonna live in hell for a while until you decide to take action. Youll become scared of people, will become vulnerable, and will develop some VERY negative beliefs about yourself. Trust me man im in my recovering stages right now and im a whole lot better. I got help, saw therapists, read books, wathed seminars, and my inner and outer game has sky rocketed. Im getting back to where I left off in a way before my problems started coming up along and it feels damn good to see your improvements.

Go out there and DO WORK.

Peace