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PostPosted: Sun Sep 13, 2009 9:41 pm 
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I'm good with women. This is something I know for a fact. If I'm in the right mood, im like a fucking juggernaught, my game is unstoppable. I've had three girls all grinding on me at once, I've had two girls kiss me at the same time, i've hooked up with girls in crazy ass public places. I once fucked a girl in the middle of AP Biology class in the girls bathroom and then threw the used condom in my teachers trashcan. Whatever, you guys get the point, I had my shit together before. I was the man. Lately, however, it's been an entirely different story.

Bassically ever since college has started i've been feeling really wierd. I don't want to say I'm depressed because that is fucking depressing, but there is definitely something seriously wrong going on inside my head. I'm becoming really introverted and I get annoyed when I have to interact with people. I've caught myself purposely running in the other direction when a hott girl I've hooked up with is walking towards me. I feel like I'm getting really boring and am having the hardest time keeping even the simplest of conversations going. I'm also becoming really negative and pessimistic. Its to the point that I even think to myself, holy shit these are some really negative thoughts you need to lighten the fuck up homeboy. I've started twitching when I'm thinking about a particularly intense negative thought, and I don't know why I do this. I think its because I actually physically hurt sometimes when I'm beating myself up in my head.

As a result of all this crap, my game has been weak as fuck. I'm becoming so damn awkward I don't even know what to do with myself. On party nights I'll just rip like 20 cigs so I can seem like I'm busy and wont have to talk to as many people. It's getting ridiculous.

I've been reading these forums and I know that my problem is with inner-game. I've known that there was a problem for a couple years now, but I was always able to keep on keepin on. You see, I've always had pretty nasty mood swings, and I could never identify their source. Everyone around me always knew why they were feeling shitty, but when it came time for me to explain myself, I never had an answer. I would always say I'm just feeling shitty whatever dude leave me alone, and I would then make a joke about teenage hormones and that was that, my friends would leave me alone.

Fuck man I don't even know where I'm going with this. I'm just in a really shitty place right now and my inner game needs a complete reworking thats a couple years overdue.

I'm just wondering. Any of you guys out there that were really high and then fell really low. How did you get back up? What did you do to get your groove back? And if you think your problem was related to inner game, howd you fix it?

Thanks guys. Peace

-Priah


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PostPosted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 8:07 am 
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The transition to college affects people in different ways. For me, i just wanted to sleep all the fuckin' time, lol. My guess is that this is the transition setting in on you.

Are you happy with the college you're at?

Are there women that you are interested in?

What sort of social activities are available?

Do you party?

Any nearby college clubs?

It sounds to me like your game just needs a jump start. You already have the materials to get shit done, they're just in hibernation.

Whens the last time you pursued a woman?

Did she wrong you in any way?

For me, I had to transfer colleges because I was so damn depressed; so I can relate to how you're feeling.

Have you fallen into a boring routine?

I know it sounds like interrogation, but I can help more if you answer some of these questions

Love life, love yourself, and remember the warmth you felt when you were picking up girls left and right. Wether anxious, nervous, or whatever, it was great. If you get to feeling cold and depressed, go take a jog to warm yourself up. It sounds silly but it does wonders. Find women that are hot and game them. Fail or not, its better than letting your skills deteriorate.

If you dont become more outgoing, you're gonna end up being that weird guy that everyone knew in high school that had mock Star Wars dogfights with his fingers.


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PostPosted: Mon Sep 14, 2009 5:20 pm 
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I'm perfectly happy with the college I'm at and I wouldn't want to go anywhere else. There are also plenty of women I'm interested in. I'm in a fraternity so there are always chicks over at the house and I party at least three nights a week. I pursued a women at the start of this year and it didn't end up going very well at all. Bassically, I just hooked up with her a bunch of times when I was drunk, but became too pussy when I was sober to hang out with her. Eventually she had enough and told me that maybe this wasn't such a good idea. I don't really know if I have a routine. Lately my routine has bassically been to avoid people as much as possible because I'm sick of trying to pretend that I'm in a great mood and am lovin life.

Here's an example of what I'm going through. Just now on my way to the library HB9 who I had a pretty intense romance with at the start of the year was walkin back to her dorm and we bumped into each other. At this moment I'm feeling like shit and the last thing I want to do is talk with her, but I don't want to be that awkward guy so I stop and attempt at a conversation. It went like this,

Me: "Hey, whats up?"
Hb9: "Nothin much, just finished eating lunch."
Me: "Cool... yeah, so I totally skipped all three of my classes today, now I'm on my way to the library to get hells of work done."
Hb9: "Noooo wayyyy, all of them?!"
Me: "Haha yeah, oops." (As I'm walking away)
Me: "Well, cya around."
Hb9 "Byeee"

I mean, I don't know. I guess it doesn't look THAT bad when its written down, but I felt like a total dumbass when I was in the moment. I just can't help but remember the old me. That same random interaction I prolly could of pulled off a meeting later on that night.

Anyways, I appreciate your advice. Especially the idea about running your problems away. I love the feeling I get after a nice hard run. Maybe that is just what I need.


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PostPosted: Wed Sep 16, 2009 2:45 am 
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Man, I was on the same path as you I can say. I know what it feels like. My inner game crashed when I lost my friends for a reason I do not know. I felt like shit and my self esteem was at an all time low. Before that I was the man everyone wanted to be around me and I had very high self esteem. Even though I wasnt very good at picking up women I was great at talking to women and women even told me that im really "smooth". Also, I too am going to a news school and it was a bumpy fucking ride at the beggining but once I decided to do something about it everything got all the better.


I started to make friends and started chilling with people. It felt real good. Just warning you do not go into a stage where you dont talk to people. Ive been there before and when I made the decision to start talking to people and that I didnt like to spend my weekends home alone shit started clicking. For you your in an uncomfortable situation where you have to meet people if you want to have friends. Obviously your fucking good with women you just need to do what will make you happy even though at first you might not like it. The twitching problem is something I had. It came up for me when I was usually really anxious.


Now, with all the work I did on my inner game its simply gone. Your game is weak because you are not pleased with yourself and where you are right now. Get back to where you were in high school. Start interacting with people and just force yourself out of this slump with action. No matter how uncomfortable or fucking pointless its gonna seem youll get out of it. I was there too. I felt helpless and thought this was how I was gonna end up living my life. It all changed and it keeps on getting better and better. As to how I got back up. I forced myself to start talkiing to people. This seems like shit advice but this is what i did. Then, I started working out alot and went through a couple trainers. I conversed with them alot and seeing them liking me gave me more of a liking of myself. In other words it raised my self esteem up and gave me a little more confidence.


Then my journey on this whole self improvement thing began. I started with the Power of now by Eckhart Tolle and went onto the sedona method. Shit got alot better from their but that want it. I was also taking action approaching and conversing with girls and that upped my inner game too. Then after a long break from this self development inner game stuff I got back in. Read wayne dyers pulling your own strings,Napoleon hills think and grow rich,David deangelos deep inner game, Hypnoticas ultimate inner game, psycho cybernetics, psychology of achievement, man transformation, and now im on RSD the blueprint decoded. Not gonna lie but I didnt finish all of the books but read about 3/4 of some of them.


ITs a matter of staying commited to one program or book thats hard to do for to do. My inner game has improved alot. Id suggest you start with David Deangelos Deep inner game to find out where these problems are coming from then move on to all the other shit I listed. If you need more resources I can help you out if moneys a problem I can help you out too 8) I know what you are going through it sucks but once you commit to improving yourself and stay commited your gonna go back to the you who was fucking chicks in class :wink: You got this man :D


PM me I can help you out with all this "inner game" material if moneys a problem.

Peace dude


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