I got this inner game issue that realy lets my emotions out on the inside. Say when im reading PU material and someone comes up and sees me reading it then starts asking questions as to what im reading I start to feel like shit. Im very private when I do my research on pick up and other related material to due with pick up. I dont know why but I start feeling depressed and like shit. Has anyone else had this problem?

Yes I have, I think most of us have.
There was this book I read once called "The Nice Guy Syndrome". It talked about a lot of psychology that really widened my perspective of how I see myself and others. But one of the things I got from it is that some guys walk around with a fear that if any knew who they really were and what they were really like, they would be shocked and angered. A lot of guys have real shame about who they are because their self-image is so warped, they can't understand how someone could accept the real them.

You problem makes sense to me, because I remember when I was starting out I was ashamed that I needed to study pu. I felt like their was something wrong with me because I wasn't naturally good with women. There was a lot of shame associated with feeling like I couldn't get women, while other guys could. And the last thing I wanted was other people to know this fact. This was covered in the book as well. I had the need to be perfect and live up to everyone else's expectations. And when I couldn't do that in one area of my life, I was deeply ashamed.