Normally I just keep it to myself, but I thought I might as well share it.

I'm mostly sarging online. Tried some AA exercises, asking people on the street for random crap, it's really hard to me. I'm forcing myself and it almost hurts. Online results have been horrible. The only chick interested enough to want a date with me is really unattractive. I'll go for it for some training, but I don't feel any attraction to her at all.

Every now and then I'm looking back at my lack of results and it makes me feel really bad about myself. It gets me really pissed how easy it comes to some people. No amount of repeating to myself how awesome I am seems to do anything. Fuck, I need some results for ego boost, for ego protection even.

And I think I'll never learn it anyway. I'm going to hold on to the first semi-attractive girl that will want me, just like I always did.

Is there any way to help myself?

That's how it will be in the beginning. It's up to you if you are willing to face the pain. I think the most important thing to understand is that with every painful experience, you learn something, even if you don't know what you've learned.

It's all apart of growing pains. We've all been there.

But for me, when i've been at my lowest, my biggest source of inspiration to keep trying has been my friends that believe in this as much as i do. So, i ask you, do you know anyone personally that is interested in the whole PUA community? Or even someone that might be interested? Try maybe either convincing a friend to explore the community, or see if there's other people in your area that are already in to it. I know it's worked well for me. Plus, if it's someone that knows less about it all than you, i find that teaching it helps me to figure out new things on my own as well, and vice versa.

I don't know anybody interested in PUA, I know a few guys who just seem to be getting natural results, not any Casanovas, just doing it way better than me, and they're more depressing than helpful this way.

Then instead of trying to convince friends, maybe try and find other people in your area that are in the community! Just do a google search with PUA + (yourareahere) and see what pops up.

Well for a starter I would just become a social person. Don't think about the sex of the person just think that they are another person. Girls are just like everyone else. I am sure you wouldn't have a problem talking to a guy you don't know. So approach it the same way and you will slowly build up your social skills. If you go out there with the mind set that this is just a another conversion with a person and not a scary women you will do fine. Girls like to be a part of the fun too so don't leave them out. If a girl acts or says that you are trying to get her tell her hey I am just trying to have fun and that she isn't the reason why you are there ie a NEG. It is like when you are just practicing for something you feel lose but when the big game comes up you are all tight and afraid. Well just have the mind set that it is just practice and you will come off as lose and things will be easier. When a boxer is all tense and afraid in a fight he does bad but when he shakes it out and fights loose he kicks ass. I hope this helps.

Also talk to ugly girls too because it does not hurt to bunt or hit a few singles before you get a home run hehe.

Know the feeling. I doing the online thing too. Frankly shit response. I'm not young any more , 47, but look 37. I've been quite succesful financially, been married to and out with attractive women in my past. But now divorced and cannot even find a girlfriend - it's so pathetic.

I've spent so much time studying this , putting together profiles and openers. I've had about 16 dates so far, wasn't attracted to most of them. And the ones I did like rejected me.

I would ask someone for advice but I guess what can you say.

I got one kinda-date, with a really unattractive woman. Neither of us wanted anything sexual out of it, so it was more like a friendly meeting. Still, it felt pretty good that it's anything as compared to complete nothing of a week ago. Saves ego from damage, makes going forward easier.

I think you need to bite the bullet a bit, and start doing normal gaming. Anyone who has to do online gaming, instead of real gaming, has to have a really great reason for me to even want to discuss the subject. Your ego will play like the stock market, on positives replies, your ego will flourish, on negative replies, it will drop slightly, the main thing is to keep strong throughout it all, and remember what your in the game for.