I spent a lifetime of being stepped on by attractive women while I chased them and treated them like their feelings were more important than mine.

She couldn't make it to that special night I planned (FLAKE)? No problem, "we'll get together next time."

She says something rude/challenging (SHIT TEST)? It's ok she must be PMSing so I'll just be nice about it.

And where did that get me? NO WHERE!!!

Flash forward to present day... I've discovered the community and begun learning PUA. Just now I am starting to learn what makes HB7+ tick. It's like I've been driving a car the wrong way for years and finally someone handed me the manual and said, "Here buddy, make the car work for YOU."

I was raised to think that women are delicate and should be placed on a pedestal. Now, I realize that that belief is NOT true or effective to get what I want. So to counteract it I have been internalizing just the opposite. If a girl says anything that sounds remotely like a shit-test, I attack back full force. Surprisingly to me this works!

If she flakes, I politely say "Well whatever you want to do. My friend is calling me about getting together tonight so I've gotta go. if you want to make it up to me, call me. Good night!" I hang up the phone, say to myself "your loss, bitch" and I promptly delete her number from my phone.

Even when a girl is doing exactly what I want, and I know that it's because of PUA technique, I still think to myself "Yeah this bitch better behave or she's fucking gone." I think this way because I know that if I were back to my old AFC ways, she'd treat me just like all the hot girls back in the day treated me: like garbage.

As a beginner, sometimes I feel like maybe my new view on women shouldn't be so harsh. YOUR TURN! What do you think? How would you describe your balanced view of women?

And do you make her do things with your newfound skills just because you can? Does the power make you feel really good?

No, I never make a girl do something just because I can. I'd say that's pointless. I think that PUA does have a slight manipulative aspect to it, but it's for a purpose: to build her attraction to you. And I don't feed off the power either.

What I feel good about is that now I understand the game that girls play and now I play it right back.

I guess it's kind of like when someone is beating you and talking trash in some sport (or video game or whatever) and then at the very end you stick it to 'em, and you're like "YES! TAKE *THAT* BITCH!" I know, weird analogy, but that's how I feel. Finally, that HB is calling and texting ME, and I'm not the old AFC running around trying to please her with nothing to show for it.

I'm going to add something to my original post:

All this is true with most girls. But when you find one that is special, not crazy, and you can form a deep connection with her, you no longer feel this.