| A few months ago I was camped squarely in AFC land. I would wake up, go to work, struggle to socialise, go home, laze around my empty flat, watch TV, play a video game, watch porn etc, fall asleep. Thats not to say I haven't had girlfriends, but they were few and far between. On the few occassions when I actually had it together I would chat up a chic get her number and then get so anxious about when to text, and how long to wait, that I would totally fuck it up. I used to dread the weekends, cos they meant long periods of nothing-doing, whilst everyone is out having fun with friends. So I would order a pizza, watch sport, watch porn, go to the casino alone, then go home alone. And that was my routine.
I have now worked on my social life. I haven't got any close friends, but there are people I can drink with and have a laugh with. Instead of just getting one girls phone number I now try to get as many as I can. I now have a harem of woman's phone numbers, and I make sure to flirt with all of them. I've been on one hot date, and slept with two women this month. I've flirted with countless others. I'm enjoying this new personality of mine...but its also making me more anxious.
I'm dreading slipping back into my old AFC habits. I also find myself less focused on work since I'm always checking my phone to see which chic has replied. In the past I could go for days without worrying much about social interaction, now I find myself craving it. Its like the more attention I'm getting the more needy I feel. I am also worried that my happiness is too dependent on these chics responding to my cheeky texts. Its like I might have 6 chics all texting me, but I get flustered if one decides not to text back.
How do you do all these things and still maintain a healthy balance?
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