Okay, not pick up related but... Confidence related


Here's the story. I am applying to be an officer in the army. I already pass the first exam exactly 2 months ago. They said that I return after 2 months which is today for my next exam. The day came. Examination, I'm fully prepared then the proctor who is an army master sgt. gave us a time limit of 7 mins per set which consisits of 35 - 50 items each set. He laid out the rules that anyone caught not obeying it will be disqualified. Then came the first set, I'm fully confident and I finished answering, 27 / 35 items, I didn't finish answering all due to time limit. Times up, pencils down, then as egostic as I am I want to cheat my way into it because I really want to be an army officer, I look at the proctor he's not looking then I tried to shade as many as possible write or wrong, then bang, this part made me sad... He caught me red handed shading the test paper. As I want to try to talk out of it, It's not working, remember it's the army. Rules are rules. Then he disqualified me. I didn't panic, I tried talking to his superior about what to do, then lucky me, It worked out, the sgt.'s superior and him, gave me a chance that I can retake the same exam in 3 months. I apologized, and he gladly accepted it, I know he's a good hearted fella but in the army, they need to be strict.

Then after all of what happned I'm so pissed I wanted to fight club all pedestrian people I see. But I didn't, I still have control. I'm pissed about wasting time, almost 5 months of waiting which I estimated that I'll be in officer training in December which could be delayed to q1 next year. I'm so down right now and trying to think all the positives that I can get from that one big negative. It felt like I lost a fight without puting up one. it felt like I got 1 round 1 punch KO and I didn't throw any punch. My emotions are so mixed right now, I think about all the positives I can do in 3 months, I'm happy, I think about getting caught in the exam, I,m so mad, and pissed. That 's all, just sharing... If you can give me tips or words of inspiration, thank you.

We all make mistakes. Just take it as a learning lesson. I can almost guarantee that you won't be doing something like that again. It will definitely make you stronger mentally and more accountable for your actions and help you do things better in the future.

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Positive side is that if you didn't made this mistake now you probably could do some bigger mistake that would postpone you for the 2 or 5 more years. (very bad a?)

You can't control what already happened. Take your time, prep. yourself better, wait for the next exam then go and take it the right way.

Also think that you need to learn that not all the time we get YES, sometimes we need to learn how to hear NO from the others. If we manage to do that it will make out character stronger.

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