I feel like, no matter how hard I try sometimes. Things just wont work for me. Maybe there is something about me girls don't find sexually attractive or something? I mean I have been told I am cute, I am skinny but muscular, lean, tall & brown. But girls do not want to fuck me. I show confidence, I have hobbies in many things, I can tell when a girl is throwing a shit test, I can use push pull, I can physically escalate even though they don't want to fuck me. I am aware of hygiene and other things, I take care of myself, dress nice. (Highschool)
Shit I have had girlfriends who were the ones that wanted to date me but STILL didn't want to fuck me what the hell. I mean I can be direct to the point I could tell a girl to her face I want to fuck her if I want, and subliminal to where I can keep her guessing if I want to or not. I'd come across creepy probably with the direct thing though. I am weird (sense of humor wise) but considered funny and told so. My fucking idol right now is Craig Ferguson because that guy gets girls all over his dick on TELEVISION. I wish he was my dad. I haven't had a dad really in my life. Is that the reason? I do feel misguided when it comes to girls sometimes. Like there is a piece of what there should be is missing. Like I can't look back and think "What would dad do." or "Dad does this to mom and she loves it! so maybe she would to!" I haven't really had a male role model and afraid I might take after my mom and learned from her too well. (The only other male in my family alive is my little brother) So my life generally summed up family wise is my Grandma and Mom. They're the only ones I have pretty much.
Because what's weird is, I do not look like a girl. I am a guy, But my friends can say they are attracted to me. AND THEY AREN'T GAY! one of my male friends told me he'd probably go gay for me. And one of my friends tell me they don't know why a girl wouldn't want to f*** me cause I got the body or something. (I am not trying to be cocky only stating)
I guess I have problems with playing hard to get with girls? I don't know. I don't even look feminine or act it. Girls I guess do not want to have sex with me. I do not know why. Maybe I don't know how to show high value either. I'm not sure. I show I can be a protector, I am not clingy, don't respond emotionally to them unless It's appropriate for me to (showing they don't have a hold on my emotions.) so at this point I'm like fuck it. I don't know what I am doing wrong.
Someone just make me like Craig Ferguson.
