I feel a weird, nice, tingling feeling that say "Get mad, destroy something, throw something away, kick someone in the face, unload everything that's inside of you, hurt people etc."
I think it's weird because I don't really feel mad at the world about ANYTHING at all... I have an awesome life, I got my gf back, people respect me and love me more and more every day (I don't really know why.). I feel great about myself and everything.

I just feel SO FUCKING TEMPTED to listen to aggressive music and punch people in the face for no reason, I could rage on the internet, I hate trolling and having fun (I don't want to smile, I really want to get mad at something, I want a challenge, I want danger.) This feeling keeps tingling inside of me all day. I feel if I meditated on it it would get worse and worse until I just go out of mind. (I'm insane as it is.)

...and I'm afraid of hurting my loved ones like this. Really devastating my own life or anything like that. I just feel so fucking tempted to throw everything away again. and again. and again.

I feel like a dark angel, plan and destroy, sneak up and knive them, destroy their lives, watch and laugh. Destroy the system. Destroy the world. Kill everything and everyone. Dominate.

I think it has something to do with hating what I need to do. I think sanity creates this madness to push me out of it, to push me up and out of the comfort zone. Whenever I think of "creating" something in my life, I instantly feel this tingling madness inside of me. When I think "something has to be this way and never change, I have to make sure it is this way" I get mad.

Seek Therapy.

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"I cheated on my fear,broke up with doubt and now,I'm marrying my dreams!"

http://www.quitporngetgirls.com

Find a healthier outlet. Get into some adrenaline rush type hobbies that doesn't hurt others...seriously, fuck they do to you?

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I think most mens have those violence in them. its just matter of time to realize it. my advice join boxing or fighting club. train MMA. im also like you. just wanna sucker punch someone. haha but after going kickboxing everything else is like volumed down.

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Excuse my awful English !!!

I found that I actually started crying after reading these:
http://www.marcandangel.com/2011/11/20/ ... you-smile/
I think I might have some kind of an emotional blockage.

Does anyone know a way to open up, strenghten and increase emotion? Except for listening to chillstep and reading love stories of course. (Maybe a a type of meditation or psychological emotional tricks?)

Your post reminds me of the exact same thing I'd expect those spree shooters to write before picking up the assault rifle and heading out to the theatre/school/store.

I'm thinking this is a combination of testosterone mixed with an undiagnosed personality disorder of some kind.

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Get yourself to a psychologist pronto, you differently have something going on. from your post it sounds like you might be going though a manic phase that comes along with bipolar disorder. I have bipolar disorder, no big deal with the right medication but unmedicated you could fuck yourself up or worse somebody else. sounds like you have hard times ahead of you, luckily I've done my time.

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"The key is to diversify...Whatever works. It's like fishing with 7 lines in the water instead of just one. You're more likely to a catch fish that way."-PUAninja

I feel the same way. It feels like the exact words in my mind. Update me on how it works out for you.

I found out yesterday that I couldn't see any BEAUTY in other people, so I was blocking some of my options with others (e.g. I didn't want them to feel fine with me so I just started ignoring them.). Like I can make people feel good, but I didn't want to because I thought there are no beautiful people and only beautiful people deserve good feelings.

Right now my plan is to see more beauty in the world, myself and others.

The view of "everything is useless, ugly, disquisting, meaningless etc." causes major depression.

Some examples of what beauty is:
http://www.marcandangel.com/2011/11/20/ ... you-smile/
Buying a homeless man food and being caring and sincere with it.
Defending and caring for your family without asking anything for it.
Helping others without getting anything in return.
Being tolerant.
Helpful.
etc.

I agree with the people who advice you to seek help.

I had the same problem and today is someway controlled. I had the urge to be agressive with me and with other people. It's possible you want to reivindicate for something you believe is unfair. When you are a reivindicative person (I'm speculating here) you are always picturing yourself making justice in every situation you consider is unfair. You think you are the one who sees how things should really be or you are trying to compensate something. In any case, what work for me is this:

Therapy
Group Therapy
Boxing (to help with the physical manifestations when this hate raises. you gain control)

Ignoring people, in my opinion, will aggravate your problem. Do the opposite and try to listen. It's dificult to get rid of this kind of sensations.
Are you the kind of person who has a very rich inner world? do you create situations of conflict in your mind and resolve them using your own justice system?

I've felt like destroying stuff but not violently. I've hated other guys for having girlfriends and getting laid while I'm picked over time and again. I've used all manner of routines and lines and have only gotten one date to my name in the months since I started reading The Game. I've always wanted to punish those guys by stealing their women for myself. I hate other men for having what I don't. Everyone always keeps telling me "You'll find yours someday". "Someday" cannot come fast enough. I should not have to wait this long! It's too frustrating to accept! Why do I have to be patient? I don't understand it! It's not fair! Fuck patience! I have to get some action right now! I've got Asperger's syndrome (One of the reasons why I turned to PUA sites) and I want revenge against all these men for being neurotypical and getting laid! I need sex and relationships like everyone else! I need a woman to tell me she loves me, to fuck me, to hold me in her arms just like anyone else! Why can't this happen to me? Am I too smart? Am I not good enough?

A coworker's recent wedding hit too close to home and only reminded me of what I still don't have.

Whoever said patience was a virtue and that life isn't a race lied.

I was going to post this as a new thread but couldn't think of where exactly to post it so I just used an existing thread. I'm not on very often.

Posts like these validate my theory that most misanthropic outlashes are the result of young men who aren't able to get laid. Look at the guys who did Virginia Tech, Tuscon, Aurora, Columbine, Sandyhook....all of them were young men with extreme social problems who could not get any meaningful female attention.

Life isn't fair, the sooner you realize that the better off you will be. That being said, all you have is patience. Look at it like a prison sentence. A lot of guys are in prison right this very moment, for years on end. They'll never have sex with women. All they can do is wait patiently to get out. You are also in a mental imprisonment of sorts, and all you can do is hope that one day you will be freed from whatever is constraining you.

What's not going to help is being impatient, demanding, whinny, complaining about life not being fair, self-loathing, and having an undue sense of entitlement. What IS going to help is learning patience, perseverance, and self-improvement. Nobody said that was going to be easy. I wish life had been easy for me, believe me. But I know for a fact that if you stay positive and continue trying your best you will eventually acheive a certain level of success.

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@ puaninja: I'm easily prone to crushes/oneitis and see all other straight men as AMOGs out to steal "my women". I don't want them having any g/fs unless I do. Valentine's Day only made things worse. All the hype, the couples, the advertising--WHY DO THEY GET TO BE PAIRED UP BUT I DON'T? IS IT BECAUSE I HAVE ASPERGER'S? IS IT MY LOOKS? IS IT MY INTELLECT? AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH? I NEED MY SHOT AT HAPPINESS, TOO! WHY DOES EVERYONE ELSE GET TO HAVE IT BUT I DON'T? ALL OTHER GUYS IN RELATIONSHIPS NEED TO LEAVE THEIR WOMEN AND HAND THEM OVER TO ME! I SHOULD HAVE THOSE GIRLS, NOT THEM!

world owes you nothing.
you're getting what you deserve.

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Excuse my awful English !!!

I cannot be happy for couples unless I've got a g/f, too. If I have to go so far as to break up couples like they deserve, so be it. They don't deserve to be happy when I'm not! They all need to pay for their fucking crimes. I HAVE TO BE AHEAD OF THEM, NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND!