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A list of why i'm down, i could write this on a blank sheet of paper, but there might be some very needed feedback on this.
1: I have six months left to go to a school that i hate, Quitting is not an option as i really need to finish or i'm really fu'ed. But sitting through eight hours every day with people that don't want anything to do with you, ignores you if you try to be social, and practically leaves their chair if i sit next to them. Yes my social value is sinking like a rock, and it is an evil spiral, i can't climb up. (No i don't smell, dress or look bad)
2: I never feel more lonely than when i'm alone among others, and when i get home i'm too demotivated to either work on my websiteproject, or to work out, this makes socializing with my friends as a burden because i never have the energy.
3: I slept for 5 hours and nearly overslept so i didn't eat breakfast.
4: I never had a girlfriend, and even though i have had women ask me out, i'd always be so freaked out that i somehow turned it down.
5: I had an appointment that i cancelled because i forgot, witch i do often, and now i feel bad.
6 I just lied to my best friend to let him feel good about himself, but then i felt smaller and showed him that i did better, now i feel like his dissapointed.
Most of this is not directly connected to women, but my quallity of life has to go up, for in this state of mind i'm not going anywhere but down.
You just have to make the concious decision to change the way your life is going to head. You have to will it to be better. Take this for example: I'll give you some insight into my life before PUA that only a handful of people know. I started a new job that I wanted, but was scared to loose. Needless to say I was nervous. At the same time I moved to a new city and new no one. My wife cheated on me with a co-worker. I was sinking in financial debt, had calls from bill collectors daily. I had just signed a 1 yr apt lease I couldn't get out of. Also, I felt like you did. I felt better being alone by myself than in a group. I was practically welcoming death and contemplated suicide on more than one occassion.
Then something great happened.
I had an epiphany! I realized something about myself. #1 I was still alive. #2 I was still young #3 still attractive #4 had a good career #5 had people that loved me #6 lastly I wanted to change the way my life was. Call it fate, devine intervention, whatever I made the choice to change!!!
If you are around negative people you will be negative. Surround yourself with positive people. When people make negative statements walk away. Work on your attitude everyday. Yes it is work. Do what YOU need to do to make YOU happy before you walk out the door, and don't let others bring your down. They will be trying to. You know how annoying it is to meet a postive person when you're depressed. I remember it very well.
MAKE THE CHOICE! If you want or need help let me know. I'll be here.
CHAT