Hi, guys, it's Fluffs. (With a new account, obviously, don't ask me why.)

So I lost all the motivation to live, couldn't find any goals I wanted from my life, the only idea I want right now is to "play" people all the time, I hate everything else.
The thing is when I lost all my motivation I went OVERLY BETA. My gf is Alpha in the relationship now, it's either that or she dumps me and I'm afraid to lose her. fml.
I know I need to get with 10 other girls now and all that, but what do I do with her? She bothers my game.
Yesterday she almost cheated on me with my brother, I got mad and she didn't give a fuck about it.

My mind is like this:
I can't leave her, because I care (what the fuck?) about her, I think there's something "saint" about the relationship and I don't want to dump it just like that. I don't have friends and I don't know how to make any, so I need her even more.

It's hard being like this. I feel terrible all the time with or without her. Without her it's even worse. I know it's because of her though, she acts like she doesn't care about me or need me.


Is cheating on her the best choice for me now? Any tips in regaining my inner-game? Books about power, influencing people, alphaness, inner-control would be awesome.

The last thing I learned is that I should "act" like I'm "acting" out the part that I care of her in front of her, so I would become more uncaring about her. And with that lessen my stress levels.

I need to remodel my whole mindset to a lighter and more aloof one.

man without goal is pointless... its not man.

my advice find your goal/purpose in life.

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Excuse my awful English !!!

I know. It's hard finding anything I want.
Any tips what I could go for? What do you goal for? What do you want in life? What're your deepest beliefs of what you want from life?

theres just too many thing for me...

financial abundance
nice apartment, car
major psychology then work
become MPUA and teach poor AFC's
learn MMA
meditation

and cause REVOLUTION. like fight club... wake up peoples... i wish. haha but its still a dream.

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Excuse my awful English !!!

Here's what I would say. If you have the money and time then go out of the country to some crazy ass foreign place. Do they craziest things you would never allow yourself to do. Do the things that scare you the most whether its bunji jumping off the tallest bridge in the world, swimming with sharks, or going to London and going to the nicest clubs and approaching the most elite women there are. I know it sounds like a movie but I used to do this. I went to Mexico and ran off alone for a couple days and saw the world and did some of the dumbest shit ever. I just didn't give a fuck. But I started feeling alive, it's the best sensation in the word. Honestly man just go to a bar and talk to the craziest people you see and learn about their life story. You gotta go out there and live. Eventually you'll stop feeling like shit and you'll feel like/become the biggest badass to walk the Northern Hemisphere and you'll find women flocking to you who will probably be coolest women you ever meet. Life's about taking chances and overcoming your fears brotha. If I could do it, I know you can.

Just Do It.

It turns out she wanted me to be her lap dog.
I told her I got sick of her attitude vs me, left her and moments after another girl chatted me up and I'm gaming my way up to her and a few other girls now, but mainly her, just to fuck my ex's brains out.

I'M NO-ONES FUCKING LAP DOG. NO MATTER HOW FUCKING NICE I GET I WON'T BE FUCKED WITH LIKE THAT. EVER.
I know I can get other girls now. I know the power in being able to get anyone, any girl, any friend, anything.
I feel ridiculous now. I feel like a man.

My goals now are: Building up the world for me and for everyone (helping people and taking what I really deserve). Socializing with people to get them to love me (just talking, no sex really a.k.a practice of social manipulation).
Mindset changes: I have nothing but I love everything AROUND me and only the things I love may stay around me longer (everything will perish at some point). I am the point that attracts everything in my life.
The philosophy of death has also taken a toll on me: I don't care about ANYTHING in the future if I don't want to care. I totally control whatever comes in my life. I'm always in control of everythings flow now.

my philsophy ... my advice.

not tryin to down you.. but only thing we can control is OURSELVES... nothing else. no one else.
so

JUST LET THINGS GO... LET THE CHIPS FALL WHERE THEY MAY

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Excuse my awful English !!!

I know, that's why I was saying I control the flow, I guide my life and watch myself live through it.