| Sorry if it is in the wrong section, but I thought it would fit here.
Basically, there was this girl I saw constantly in my neighborhood. She has a boyfriend and the age gap is by a couple of years.
I first met her 3 years ago, and truly started to notice how cool/attractive she was recently.
I'd see her every day before I went to work, she'd walk and almost every day when I opened my door I would see her right in front of my house, literally. I wish I could express how precise the timing was of how we'd run into each other almost 4/5 days of the week.
Anyway, I want to let you guys know that I know nothing would come of this. The age gap wouldn't suddenly disappear, and her boyfriend wouldn't die off, I get it, not reality.
So I've really grown used to seeing her. I have memories attached to her. Back before I even found her attractive or had an interest I could still remember seeing her from time to time. When you work at a shitty job (Trying to start my own business so I need money from somewhere) you try to find the little things in your day to increase the positivity. To me, starting it off by talking to a cute, flirtatious girl wasn't too bad.
Anyway, you're probably saying "DUDE! Get to the point, whats the problem?"
Problem is, shes moving. I'm a really up beat kind of guy, I find myself almost never going on help forums anymore. Not because I'm too good for them or some bullshit like that, but because I am happy with my life. This is the only time within the past couple of years I can remember even skimming the surface of being depressed.
I just do not know how I will adjust to walking out to an empty street before I carry on my day.
It won't be just her that I miss though, but the sort of "pain" you feel knowing how fast time went by, and if you only could have found out about her sooner.
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