hey guys,
I got into pickup half a year ago but didn´t really go out sarging. I just got the basic idea of how to behave to attract woman. I had my first girlfriend, first kiss and first time shortly thereafter but it´s over now basically due to my becoming to afc, insecure and approval seeking again.
I just thought that when you´re in a relationship there are times you can be sad and even cry and don´t always have to be that "I don´t care alpha male".

a month ago I started going out twice a week but the problem is without getting drunk I can´t even talk to strangers.
all the people I talk to are within my social circle.
and the big problem I´m having right now, I think I´m loosing my personality which every one in my life loved so much. I always used to be that profound guy who couldn´t keep a healthy distance from others which everybody considered to be so open minded and kind hearted. I just loved to get into deep conversations with people I liked but now am to afraid to do anything other than routines which I´m not even that good at.

I even find it hard to talk to friends about what´s bothering me and I just think I have to deliver this "it´s all right I'm feeling great attitude" to whoever I meet.
I just fear they might get fed up with me and dumb me like my girlfriend did.

any thoughts and comments are appreciated
thx keef

You are pretending to be what you are not and manupulating,people pick up
on this negative vibe/energy.Stop the BS and be oldself.Learn to like who you are.
If you can't accept yourself ,can you expect others to do the same?

Learn positive affirmation or visualisation of yourself.Google it if you don't know what that means.You get what you think,you think you are a loser hence the gaming tactics.Ultimately you become what you think,is that what you want now?

You say you were afc,well that's negative!

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law of attraction=Your reality is the outcome of your thoughts.

At first it sounded like you were turning into a social robot, but I think it's more you getting down on yourself and developing an apathetic mindset. You developed a bad habit of relying on alcohol to be sociable, then that backfired on you. You need to work on your inner game and try to find out who YOU really are. It's not who you want others to think you are, it's who you ACTUALLY are. Once you pin that down I think everything else will start to fall in place.

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