I think I haven`t read much of what I`m about to share in this forum, specially couse this is really foolish, but I have to admit it.

My biggest problem in life is that I want the things I can`t have.

Bond, would you care to elaborate?
Of course.

Vicious circle

I have come to a point were I make everything an object, even women. This has cost me a big price, the price of not feeling almost anything for the last year or so.

My life in a few words: can you picture a busy schedule? Make it even busyier and you`ll have me. I almost don`t have me time since I`m full of activities I should do. And when I don`t go to those activities, I feel bad. This is a vicious circle, one that I can`t control.

Why would you do that?

My theory so far: out of fear.
I`m affraid of getting hurt, or something like that. I don`t know where this comes from, maybe my last long term relationship, maybe some childhood issues.
Main point here is that now, every time I meet a girl, I`m already thinking the time she might consume out of my life at the moment. This is not healthy.

So you should stop, simple as that.

Nothing is that easy.

You see, I don`t really need all those fencing gear I bought spending a lot of my salary, I don`t really need the new led TV I bought, still I have it. There are a lot of stuff I don`t really need, and even further, I`do go as far as saying those stuff are damaging me. Wich leave us with...


You can`t always get what you want

That`s not good enough.

Don`t come to me singing a great song, telling me what I can have and what I can`t.
I`ve seen softer men get a lot more for a lot less, and in my world, that`s not fair.

What the fuck is wrong with the world? What the fuck is wrong with me?

I find myself interested in those girls I somehow KNOW I won`t have. That kind of thought is killing me.
This exapands to all my life.
I want to be perfect, while I know I`ll never be; I wan`t to become a fencing champion in no time, but I know it takes time and effort, I won`t get it any time soon.
I want the girl of my dreams, of course, she`s actually with another guy and I won`t get a date with her.

This is the frustrated Bond. If anyone knows any better, any method, any new approach on life I will much appreciate it.

Thanks.

Don't be too hard on yourself.
Don't be negative.
Don't put the pussy on a pedestal.

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