Hi guys, this is going to be a long post but please bear with me.

I am somewhat of a strange human being. My whole life I have always been looking to others for validation. I realize now that my ego has been living my whole life for me. I will be depressed if I am not the center of attention, if a girl isn't showing signs that she's interested in me I think theres something wrong with me. I am always looking for compliments and if someone doesn't like me/does not agree with my point of view I will fume about it for the next hour or so.

When I was 16, I applied to a modelling agency as I thought it would boost my horribly low self esteem. I got in. Now three years later, I'm signed with the top agency in Australia and I have the potential to take modelling overseas. I know that this might be contributing to my ego, however I enjoy the work and I meet a lot of interesting people.

I know (and this isn't just me ringing my own bell) that I'm not lacking in height or looks, and I also know in regards to females those two things are only a plus. Personality counts. I also know I am not unpopular. I have lots of close friends whom I see on a regular basis. However when it comes to females, I have slept with maybe 2-3 females in my life and my current track record of relationships includes heroin addicts and alcoholics.

So when I discovered this forum (and specifically the inner game section) and read through Stormy and Mack's posts, everything made complete sense to me. I would however, like a little more information in the way of dissolving my ego. I wish to become a more wholesome person and a lover of women and I know the one thing stopping me is that little voice in my head.

Regards

Aeyris.