I use to be somewhat of a big shot in High School. I know... "High School", it was 2 years ago. I was captain of the soccer team, dated the hottest girl, popular as shit and it was the best time of my life. I dated this girl who was the best part of it all, she was the first of everything for me with a girl and I loved her dearly. We broke up, I even tried to go to Uni close to her so I could be near her, but I became obsessed, crazy about her...

2 years on I moved far away from Europe to North America on a soccer scholarship.

First year in College:

I get below a 2.0 Gpa and I have to do well next semester otherwise I loose my scholarship for good although I already lost it for next semester
I got oneitis over a girl who had a boyfriend. We hooked up for a month, and then one night we fucked. All this took place whilst she had a boyfriend and I was aware of it all but I thought what me and her had was too special to give up and she will leave him for me. She didnt. Opposite, after the night we fucked she felt so bad and the boyfriend who she was going to break up with, she fixed it all and they are better than ever. I see her almost everyday. I don't know whether to ignore her? Be happy to her to show her she doesn't affect me? To delete her off bbm? to WHAT?
I went on a wreck after her, I fucked 3 girls who all had boyfriends and I felt like the biggest dick head ever. I have and never will cheat on my girlfriend. Ever. But I just didn't care at that point to whether they had boyfriends.
My priorities are all wrong. Girls are first. Football Second. Studies last. It should be. Studies, Football, Friends, Girls.
I am now in Christmas thinking about my ex of two years ago non stop, realizing she was the best girl I ever had and she probably thinks im a pshycho, a pussy who could never move on from her. When I don't think about her I think about the girl who I liked so much back at college, who choose her boyfriend who she cheated on over me.

I feel like I have zero control and my priorities in life are wrong. I don't know what to do to sort my life out and how to see improvements

I want to chill, relaxed. Im very dramatic sometimes... with these two girls for instance, they ended bad and I deleted them off blackberry messenger and so on but then regretted it and re added and made a big deal about it.

- I want people to realize that I am a great guy and I want people to be friends with me

- most of all i want a girlfriend I can trust and there doesn't seem like there are any out there in this world! Since I saw three cool girls, all had boyfriends, and fucked them all.


What is going on, I feel like I am going crazy

Seriously.... Can anyone help me please

Dude chill, you got this.
The only person who can help you is you.
1) You're on your christmas break, and you need to do well next semester. I dont know how you're college system works, but if you can, start studying a bit now during you're break. Its what Im doing, it sucks, but it'll pay off. You'll feel better about yourself, and you're life/priorities will be back on track.
2) The only person who can fix your priorities is you. Focus on college foremost, then soccer, then friends. The bitches will follow
3) Stop fucking girls with boyfriends. You sound like you don't have a problem getting a woman. You're better than this, you can get your own woman, you dont need anyone elses. Also don't be so strung up on finding a girlfriend. You have other priorities SPAM. Yeah, fool around with girls but dont make it so important to go out and find a girlfriend.

Now I'm no life coach so this is just how I would fix the situation. Im only in second year of college so its not like I have piles of experience. What I do is get all my college work done, go to the gym 2/3 times a week, go to extra French class. When all that is under control, I go out once a week with the lads, and prowl for women. Seems like an ok system

The reason you feel so conflicted and so "messed up" is because YOU HAVE NO VALUES OR GOALS IN YOUR LIFE.
To sort your life out, look yourself in the mirror and ask yourself what your values are - always leave girls in a better state than you found them in? integrity? self-confidence?
What are your goals? What do you actually want to GET OUT of life? Be the best PUA the world has ever seen? Invent a new product and get rich? Change the world for the better?
You were never alpha to begin with, alpha is a state of being; you were merely the very popular guy in high school who dated the hot chicks. The problem is, all your life, you have DRAWN your value/emotional validation from your environment - i.e. getting so much attention from people because you were the captain of the football team was what was making you happy. Now you have LOST that validation, you have also lost your sense of self-worth. You need to draw your emotional state from WITHIN yourself, otherwise your own feelings of self-worth and happiness are at the mercy of the chaotic environment.

Stop fucking around with girls who have boyfriends if you feel bad about it - you feel bad because obviously some part of you thinks that it is wrong. To go against your own beliefs is to have no self-respect, without self-respect you are not alpha. I have values and goals - I always try to do the right thing, respect everyone, spread positivity, and lead people into better directions. My goal is, as a doctor, to contribute to the world by developing a new SPAM which will save lives. I am a mountain, if my girl stays with me, whatever, if she doesn't, whatever. I draw my own value and emotional state from WITHIN myself and therefore my sense of self-worth and confidence is not affected by anything that happens to me. No matter what happens, I will always be the highly intelligent, charming guy who people want to be around.

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Haha Ch1mera, I love the way you say you get validation from yourself etc, then at the bottom (your signiture) you have a wee "rep me if I helped". Maybe you dont get ALL you're validation from within?

I never said I did! I still have to go out and approach women, and get validation from their interest in me, like I have to get validation that my time on here is well spent by people repping me. But at least I understand why I feel the way I do and how to change, validation/neediness is like an addiction - you need to wean yourself off SLOWLY from the external sources of validation as you become more and more sure of your own innate value that you possess in virtue of just being YOU.
However, this is a long process for most people since our environments during childhood nearly always encourage validation-seeking behaviour (i.e. teachers reward the pupils who perform the "best", parents scold you when they think you haven't performed up to scratch). I am still in the process of learning to draw state from within.

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Rep me if I helped!

you fucking bitches

thats all that matters.

you alpha as fuck

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i dont always go out and use PUA, but when i do i always close.

No.

Your life is what matters. This is gonna come across pretty douche baggy, BUT, it is what it is.

Throughout my life my dad gave me the same universal advice for everything. It didn't really kick in until last year when I realized he was right.

BUCK UP.

You're a man, so be one. You're in school for two things:
1. To get a damn degree.
2. To play soccer.

So buck up and do it.

Socializing and girls will come. There will always be time. You need to think about you and where your life is going.

I work 40 hours a week, go to college full time, train MMA full time (because I want to be a mixed martial artist) and I maintain not only a social life but a 2 year engagement. Yup, I'm engaged. How do I do all this? Hard fucking work.

Plus, I'll sleep when I'm dead

So buck up.

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-Bedrock

"The society that separates scholars from its warriors will have its thinking done by cowards and its fighting done by fools." - Thucydides

Seize the day with love

Sometimes you succeed, and sometimes you learn.

that was fucking inspirational and all mr.miyagi but imma stop you there and tell you you're a stupid faggot who thinks that meaningless shit like scrubbing your dick with a two pronged plug is an effective way to spend his time. no one gives a shit about your little fag soccer. go kill a ball into your dads mouth and tell him to shut the fuck up.
you prob one of those virgins who go to mma and havent even got the kit yet. u just sit and watch them and wish you could aspire to be like them. typical fan boy syndrome. cause you obviously not an alpha. you just another lollipop sucking fanwaving handshouting fanboy.
all that matters is stuffing your cock in multiple woman. we are not made for monogamy. therefore your engagement screams BETA as fuck. get alpha, cheat on her, massacre some prime hunnies, cum in some women, impregnate atleast 20% of the fuck u lay down. and keep on mowing down that fresh clit.
OR just stay a beta going to soccer practice and giving your dad handjobs

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i dont always go out and use PUA, but when i do i always close.

Either your a troll or an idiot. If your the latter, then that means your beta bro. First of all, Alpha males know how to handle their emotions. You clearly don't have that figured out yet.

Secondly, we're supposed to be cool with people here on the forums, helping each other out. Not tearing each other down. I want to be an awesome PUA with a sense of Integrity, and I would hope the same for you. Look up the rules for the forum and read numbers 2 and 9. We are a community, not a city divided.

Lastly, there's more to life than slipping the v-card. But that's just me. If you wanna go and live as if that's numero uno, then go ahead. But girls find that unattractive. What looks less creepy? A guy at a beach who's surfing? Or a guy on a beach who's walking around approaching girls?

Guys with a hobby are more attractive because it tells the girl that he's got a life.

Which brings me back to the original post. The guy's just gotta do a serious priorities check. School, Sports, Friends. Women will naturally follow.

Plus he's gotta stop fucking girls who are already with boy friends. lol, serious lack of integrity.

I suggest that he go off for a few hours to himself, to just think about what's really important in the long term.

p1ckuppr0 I ve been forum-stalking you for the past five minutes..you are awesome! [fist bump]

nice cry story cinderella.
go read some articles on the testing of rats and their desire to fuck.
the same partner they lose drive for. multiple partners they fuck into deprivation of nutrituiton and eventually die. I>E ... monogamy is gameover... its a fail feat.
pussy is numero uno... i dont know what sorta faggot u are... but since when wasnt it.. thats why ur on this forum..

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i dont always go out and use PUA, but when i do i always close.

Hahahaha you're seriously one of the most small and close minded douches I've ever encountered. You have some serious mental problems dude. I know without a doubt that you don't "mow that fresh clit." Mostly because girls don't get with guys like you. Because you're an idiot.

PS, don't call me out on my sex life kid. I'm fucking engaged, I have sex between 2 and 8 or 9 times a week. Get on my level.

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-Bedrock

"The society that separates scholars from its warriors will have its thinking done by cowards and its fighting done by fools." - Thucydides

Seize the day with love

Sometimes you succeed, and sometimes you learn.

Dude this all sounds good, but I m getting very cynical about getting state from within.

Moderation is key. A moderate level of validation is necessary.

Without validation happiness is impossible.

To constantly achieve things in life is important.

I maybe wrong dude, but I have been trying to feel happiness from within. The mind constantly needs challenges.

To the OP u need to be good enough to have abundance, otherwise u will be addicted to one aspect of your development.

Being well balanced is something I am very shit at.

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The Jackal an Introduction.
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The Field Reports.
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The Lay Reports.
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Reading a small amount of scientific articles from a secondary source, which is what I'm assuming you're doing since getting hands on the actual peer-evaluated journals the research is initially published in takes work and an understanding of the content as well as the scientific lingo, and understanding the implications of the research are two very different things. Yes, this has been seen in rodents, however, this is in no way related to whether the male rodent is the Alpha, Beta, or Omega. Additionally, as with all studies conducted in a laboratory, realize that this is what occurs in a 'sterile' setting where almost all other variables, save for the number of sexual partners have been eliminated or highly limited. These are not the kinds of results typically seen in a natural environment. It may sound crazy, but socially, humans live in a 'natural' environment.

Also, this goes against natural selection. Fucking til a partner dies of malnutrition goes against ethics, evolution, and the idea of leaving an individual better than when we met them.

Not trying to bash your post, just trying to correct some misconceptions regarding science and the interpretation thereof.