Well...Its over anyways... I just texted with her as usual and things got pretty ugly and fucked up. For some reason i just asked something about cuddling. Here is what happened and what she wrote (i will try to translate as exact as possible)

Me: Like to cuddle?
Her: ?!
Me: Yeah... Just cuddling. common
Her: Well...
Me: Okay then...dont tell me that im on a "asshole trip" again! (Few days ago she said i´ve changed and that it seems like i am on "asshole" trip now)

Her: Sorry
Her: But honestly, what you want me to say now?...
Me: Can i tell you something? You changed! It that makes me sad!
Her: (The escalation starts NOW!):
Sorry that i dont want to talk about this certain topic over and over again (she didnt tell me what happened in court) and that i want to forget this chapter! And about the cuddling...Sorry but what you want me to say?! You are NOT my boyfriend or my (girl) friend. I dont have to excuse when and why i dont have time for you, or why im not telling you something or why im not cuddling with you...But im still the same.

Her: Its not ment to be evil but we are friends and i think you are expecting a little bit to much from me...
Me: (i was so shocked and pissed!) ...okay
Her: Seriously i dont want any trouble. I hope we can just treat each other normal.
Me: Yeah...Just like friends do...

Went on with some smalltalk but fuck it... I guess that was pretty obvious and clear. I hate it. I really love her and she knows it but...yeah...cant change it now. Just a little reminder: We work together and we see each other every day!
Do you think its over FOR EVER so that i should completely forget her or just put her to the side for some time and try to focus on other things and maybe try it again in the further future?

Dude, cuddle thing was creepy.

She clearly didn't like it but you deeper and deeper into the creepiness when she is was clearly uncomfortable with it.

Move on, she isn't interested in you.

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Move on. Work on yourself constantly. Become a better man then you were yesterday. Never stop evolving. After some time, you'll forget about her and find girls which you will like equally or even more. The posiblities are endless man. We all had oneitises. I know the situation seems hopeless, but it isn't. Plenty of fish in the sea, believe me.

I was a bit confused because just a week back she was very comfortable with this cuddling question... Well anyways. No idea what she is thinking. Cant change it...

So after quite some time a small update and some more questions for you guys. Hope you can help me again...

So with this special girl i was talking about all the time... I tried to walk away from the friendzone a little. I stopped texting her i stopped being friendly to her i stopped saying cute things. What happened is, she started to text me again. Asked me out for 2 "dates" in one week. I agreed. One the first date i was completely different. I did not initiate any kino. When she started to touch ME i walked away from it a little. I did not compliment her or say anything nice and cute. I pushed, pushed, pushed. She was really confused. But i guess i pushed a bit to far. At the end of the date she was sad. I mean LITERALLY SAD. I tried to pull her back with a nice hug and saying "common girl, smile again. a smile suits you better".
Then she started to talk all the ambiguous stuff again...Like "If i was your girlfriend...would you..." or "If we had a child..." or (really interesting) "What do you think what kind of girl i am? Like a slut? Fuck a guy one time and thats it, or am i looking for love? I want to know what you think about me" Stuff like this...
The same evening she texted me again. And she said "You were so strange today (sad smilie)" Me: "Listen, i dont want to see you sad. But im still the same" She: "Hmm...But you should NOT PRETEND!" I didn´t know what to say because she obviously noticed how different i treated her.

The next date (2 days later) i felt like i had to be a bit more relaxed and pull her a bit more. But... again i ended up being to needy. Extremely needy. It was the night before going on my 3 week vacation and i told her that i am going to fucking miss her like crazy and that i actually dont want to leave. I knew it was wrong in the moment i said all that from a PUA point of few. I knew it!! But this was just what i was feeling. I felt like i had to say her this.
She was like "Are you serious?" Me: "Yes sure!" She said some shit like "Ah dont worry, Dubai is going to be awesome! You will have so much fun blablabla..." I gave her a big hug and told her that i want a picture of her. Not one of her facebook pictures. A personal picture. She " I dont have a picture of you either" Me: "You dont want to have one of me i think..." She "You are silly! (smiling)" Anyways...
One day later she send me 2 lovely pictures of herself. We where texting every day. She sends me kiss smilies and heart smilies and what not...She is now moving into her first apartment and she asks me every day if i will visit her...Of course yes. And she always says "Dont do anything stupid over there (Heart kissing smilie)"

Yeah...So thats that. Tomorrow i will be back home and will probably visit her the next few days. How should i act now? I guess not being needy again...What would you recommend?

Just play it cool.

Turn the game mode off.

Be in the moment , be present and let attraction do its thang. She likes you. Don't worry about being needy , she still digged it. Just don't over do it.

ALCOHOL HELPS

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