sometimes I feel this emptyness inside of me sometimes it takes the form of pain sometimes
that only gaming can feel this hole inside of me what is this?

Way, way, way, way, way too vague and lacking detail.

Nobody can help you with this. You haven't told us anything.

but what supposed to be "in" you?
What is "inside" you is just desires and memories.

At the essence you are nothing. When you set your goal and walk toward goal, then you become something/someone. You are what you do. You do what you desire.

What you lack is passion.

Find yourself a goal and walk toward it - dont get discouraged if you dont reach final destination - what matters at the end is roads you have walked. There isnt supposed to be something inside you - you must create it.

Sounds like there's relationship problems with women in your past. Maybe with mother or other female care giver.

The fact, that gaming provides relief for the pain. Probably settles down you mind that you are working on find the female love and acceptance you desire.

Technique for getting through this....when you feel that down, depressed feeling. Ask yourself where else have I felt this feeling in my past. A memory should come up. With that memory access the feeling you felt at the time. Loniliness, Hate, Fear, etc. Once have the feeling identified. Feel that feeling in the memory to the maximum. DO NOT avoid the feeling. But really feel the feeling like never before. Once done properly, the emotion can 'pop'/dissapate. Then when you pull up that memory there's no more emotion attached to it.
You have now changed a underlying negative belief to something positive.