I broke up with a girl I really liked because I'm dumb.
shortly after we broke up she started fucking a guy at work to get over me because she was really in love with me before i dumped her.

i saw her texts with a guy she was fucking

its like 2 and a half months later and its all i can think about, i just picture her getting railed by another guy. everything is like a trigger, seeing sex scenes in movies, seeing this tv show that she got fucked while was on (read her texts ya that was a good idea) it was parks and rec and those people are like everywhere now.

basically i think about it all day every day and Ive even hooked up with like 10 girls since then. they distract me in the present moment but its a fleeting escape. i do the same with weed and alcohol.

i can have her back if i want, like she is faithful to me now and shes not even my girlfriend anymore. she really wants to get back together. i really still like her but part of me just thinks shes a dirty little slut like all the other girls i hook up with and that other guy made her his bitch.

this is honestly not healthy and i go through day to day life acting like nothing is wrong. but really im watching my girl get fucked live in my head all day long.

maybe there is nothing i can do but let it pass and with time it will go away but maybe somebody has some words to help me out here.

Just forget her, I had the same issue. My ex cheated on me, and all I could think about was her getting f*cked by some random guy. I couldn't even masturbate anymore. I kept picturing the girl in the video with the dude as my ex and this random guy. Then I figured, why the fuck should I even bother to think about it. There are a zillion girls who are alot better, nicer, and more faithful. Why would you lower your standards for someone like that. Keep in mind, that you are better. You don't believe me ? [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVUyyHYkBHk[/youtube]

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