A few months ago I commented on one of my friends pics...the girl tagged in it added me and hit me up on chat right away. We got on very well...i didn't think too much into it and we after a while we decided to meet. We were hooking up for a while...she told me the last thing she wanted was a relationship...I said no prob.

The more time we spent together which seemed very often she started to call me baby, take pics in my bed and text it to me the next day saying "something for you to think about", she came over my house and baked me cookies...just sweet shit.

Right before I met this girl I was in this completely not giving a fuck phase and girls were just flocking. But I just started falling for this chick. Anyways one night she txts me saying she's getting nervous and thinks we are moving too fast blah blah. I was upset, we both kept pushing each other away after that. I really acted childishly.

The whole thing only lasted a month and a half but I thought about her all day everyday for like 2 months...never happened to me before. Prob cause she wouldn't talk to me in the end and that made me feel so hopeless. Anyways I think about her once in a blue now (months later) and I been doing a lot of self improvement work.

The problem is I feel like there is this flood gate of emotions deep inside me that has opened up(sadness, loss, loneliness). When I meet a girl I like and it doesn't work out I think of a million things...like what would have happened if this...(kind of scenarios). I imagine the girls past and what it would have been like if I met her sooner. Just basically all this depressing shit.

I been doing all this meditation (power of now) type of stuff and reading books on cognitive behavioral therapy but I dunno...have any of you experienced anything like this?