I recently came to the conclusion that I've been purposely sabotaging myself. Not just in pick-up, but my entire life in general. I've been so used to being a fuck up for the past 22 years that I deliberately screw myself over just to stay in the same position because it's what I'm so used to.

I'm 22 years old and have embarassingly never even kissed a girl. I have above average looks, I'm starting a badass career shortly, and have a car that's practically designed for pick-up. I get long drawn out stares by HBs on a daily basis but don't even have the balls to match their eye contact and always have to look away first.

I've very recently learned that I have Ashpergers Syndrome, which is basically pick-up's worst enemy. It's characterised by a social 'awkwardness', lack of confidence and ability to keep eye contact or read basic body language that people inherently read, and coming off as a rude asshole while trying to just to interact in a friendly mannor. The asshole gig might work for some, but without confidence it's about the single worst persona possible when trying to get laid.

I've lived in a college town for the past year and a half and have had endless opportunities with girls but have never had the balls to do anything about it.

For example, I somehow actually was able to ask a girl a question about bread in the store a few days ago. She immedently took scene control and starting gaming ME. What did I do? I freaked out half way through and said "alright, thanks for your help" and just walked away. I've had countless encounters that mirror this particular one.

Becuase I fucked myself over I'll be moving back with my parents in about a month and don't want to leave this amazing opportunity I've had to plow countless beautiful college chicks as the same scared virgin that I was when I got here.

I'm using this thread as a crutch to post my daily experiences and hopefully motivate me to break out of my comfort zone.

Thanks for reading! I'll be updating shortly.