I know that nothing anyone says about this is going to "fix" anything - what I need to do is focus on "doing exactly what I want to do" including "only thinking about what I want to (or need to) think about". But I figured I would throw this out there because it would be interesting to hear a response.

One of the things that have kept me from being a happy person is that it is difficult for me to not get drawn into a constant cycle of angry jealous feelings toward other men who I feel are more successful with women or I think have power over me or basically just do anything important better than me. Often they are generalized, other times they are towards specific people.

Like a few years ago I had this thing where I couldn't stop thinking about how much I hated cops because I didn't like the idea anyone had any significant authority over me (which is wierd because being a minion bother me while I was in the Marines)

Jealousy over some girl that rejected me and went with another guy is what got me on this board.

Lately I have been fast developing a racist attitude towards blacks because I feel that black men have a huge advantage when going for desirable girls because they are associated with a stereotype that essentially has them as being aggressive assholes that makes girls wet. Is this objectively true?

Basically, in general I do not like seeing other people do better than me at anything I consider important - and it is fucked up and I wish I didn't focus on those things. I'd like to believe its unjustified bullshit but I cannot convince myself.

Like before I gave a shit about gaming women, I kept a weary eye on chinese students because they are supposedly harder workers (my old hiearchy of values held "being a hard worker" at the very top - and it still sort of is but thats another issue)

Firstly and lastly, actually my only point is confidence. You blame others for your failures.

"He can do this cuz he is black and has huge dick"

You need to work on yourself, because it sounds by reading this, your self image is shit or has been destroyed. You need to rebuild it in your mind and then jealousy will deminish. When you are happy with yourself, you won't need reasons to be unhappy with others.

Trust me on the above, it comes from experience.

Furthermore, these asian students are hardworkers right?? Well how about you get your lazy white ass up and be a hard worker yourself. These fucking beliefs you have are all about you! You are giving yourself shitty ass excuses not to be a hard worker, a seducer, ect... They will limit and cripple you. Success is earned.

PS-Some girls only like black guys, this can't be helped. Doesn't mean they offer anything more then you do.

I find this post extremely funny because I am black with a long dick...lol

But seriously, you have no one else to blame but youself. You have complete control over self. The reason why your jealous is because your making yourself jealous. You are making negative thoughts about you, which should never happen. Do what you wanna do and don't let someone else dictate what you do. No point in beating yourself up man.

Remember you have the most control over yourself and your actions. To sum your story about blacks getting white girls.... I have hook up with plenty of different girls and I don't discriminate because I adore all types of women but I don't date all types. I have hooked up with plenty of white girls and they've told me I was their first and they were never attracted to black guys. Maybe they were just telling me that I don't know but when you have their friends even telling you...

Race is not an issue, it's the confidence and not giving a Fu*k about the outcome, if I get rejected I make a joke about it and learn from my mistakes and only blame myself.

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