So I've been dating this girl now for around two months.
She was like all over me the first 3 weeks but then slowly faded into a cold bitch.

Actually she was f-friend with my brother around 4 months ago or so, but she liked me and stuff. I couldn't resist the urge to fuck her when she offered me it. So I did it, yes I know bro's before hoes.

She started to text with other guys etc. She is that kind of girl who hangs out with boys because she dont like girls because they are bitchy and shit.

Now i'm sitting here, still beeing with the girl but beeing 100% sure about that she is using me and stuff. But I just can't let her go. I love her so much. When I was around her when she still was all into me, my self-confidience was in the f-ing roof..!


The problem is that she tells me shit and stuff to lower my confidience.
When we sleep together she is egoistic as hell.. Just letting me finger her and then she ignores me. So yesterday I was about to leave her house in depression since she did it but she stopped me and let me fuck her. So I did and then right before I was about to cum she started to cry and told that she got raped last week because she was so drunk... I tryed to make her feel better and stuff and she got 100% more relaxed with stuff.

And now she tell's me she wont fuck because of what happened and she doesn't even like me anymore I think.


I'm beta and aware of it. I used socially anxiety meds 6 months ago, but I quited after two months because gym was doing it just as good as the meds. The doc tell's me my brain got a chemical imbalance. And my libido dropped to zero while on meds.




So guys... What the fuck should I do? I'm deeply in love with someone who doesn't love me. I just moved back after two months of beeing away from this town because I couldn't find a job. And that even adds up to my depression.

Thank you guys for reading through all this and I hope you got some time to make my life and eventually other's with the same problem better

I should leave her, but I just can't because my life just feels fucking worthless without any affection in it.

Feeling like I wanna go back to world of warcraft and drown all my problems.
But i'll keep on hanging strong for a while.

Dump her, duh. Were you hoping to hear something else? Nope, nothing else to hear. Unsalvageable situation that you need to escape from as soon as possible.

You could stand to work on your sense of self-worth completely independent of women. You resist dumping her because you think being alone is scary or "less" or something like that. No job can definitely wear on the self-esteem, believe me I know. In fact, I'd say my own core problem right now is not women per se, but getting my career back on track so that I don't think less of myself anymore. It's hard to feel fully functional about women when you know there's some other area of your life where you've just not got it together and it keeps eating at you.

So my advice is: dump her, try to deal with jobs and/or your career, and take up some kind of constructive hobby while you still don't have a job. Exercise is good because it strengthens the adrenal glands and makes you able to deal with more stress than you otherwise would. One problem with exercise hobbies that require training is usually that costs money, which you probably don't want to spend right now. If you're not picky, try a team sport in your local area that doesn't cost anything. If you are picky, well, then you can answer the exercise question better than I!

Whenever I start fucking up, in any situation. Is to bail.
In a negative frame of mind, you will only continue to fuck up.

Trust me, it's a habit of mine. Just leave, with a cool face.
And let the heat blow over.

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Yea I should deffo drop her. And you are right about the problem is that I am afraid of beeing alone.

I do go to the gym everyday and also receive enough money per month to be able to do stuff etc. Started taking up math courses and applying for schools...

Yeah but i'll just end up as Forever Alone guy. That's what i'm afraid for.

Either that, or remain in a self-destructive relationship which will not end well for both parties.

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Omg, that's like the best situation ever.
You can fuck a girl and don't have to feel guilty about approaching other girls.

That pretty much makes you F-buddies dude

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