please guys, I'm in need of advice. help me understand what is going on. and why.. i know the game, but i have a problem.

recently, i have been reading various sex stories online... i love to read, and when i came to find out about sex stories, i found it interesting, and erotic

as of late, i came across cuckold sex stories, having heard this term before in several porno's , i knew what it meant, but still had only limited knowledge on the topic ... i started to read some of cuckold sex stories.

here is the problem.. i find it very erotic.. i actually get hard reading it, and find it sexually erotic... i can Imagine my self in both places, the alpha and the bitch... what scares me is i think i find the "bitch" position more of a turn On.


i know the game, i know what is at stake....

i know that happens when a guy lets a girl take control of the relationship, these cuckold stories just show me that even more.

i know PUA, i agree with it, even as a child, i never agreed with my female elders that i should pay for a women, pull out her chair, give her special SPAM.

even as a child, being around women so much, i found there feelings of entitlement to be un-American.. and very distasteful

even as a little kid, i never agreed with the "girls can hit boy, but boys cant hit girls" rule........

when i was 11, my teacher was forcing us to pull out chairs for the girls in class, after lunch......i was the only boy to tell teacher that it was sexist to do that,, the other boys agreed, so she made the girls pull out the chairs for us.. (after that day, she never attempted to have any one pull out chairs for any one ever again.)

Why, am so so turned on my these cuckold sex stories??.... when i think about being in the place of the bitch, it turns me on so much, that i could bust very fast..... (i also get turned on, Imagining my self as the alpha in the story, but not nearly as much)

i am fairly good at resisting a women's manipulations, but girls have gotten the better of me before, even since learning pua... (it's almost like a trick,, wow, women really do play mind games, don't they)

i Think i would never allow my self to be a cuckold, i don't think i would...but at the same time, what if i would?.... what if find the sexual, what ever it is I'm feeling, addicting?.

i don't know what to think, i feel confused....

on one hand, i could never seem my self letting that bull-shyt fly.

on the other hand.. i guess i could...

on the other hand i see my self being the "bull".. the alpha, in the fantasy

and yet, i feel i may be more addicted to the bitch side of the fantasy.

on the other hand i see my self walking out, and dumping her and saying "your not good looking enough to put up with that" (no girl is)

i already feel fairly addicted to these cuckold sex stories... i find my self wanting to read them...

Why am i so turned on by this?

what is wrong with me?... i know the rules, i know the game.

WTF is wrong with me?... please help, this is bothering me, allot

why do i feel this way?.. what the hell is wrong with me?... i get so turned on by it, its disturbing.

please help, i need advice, something to help my work this out in my own mind.
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Info about me:

age 22.

knowledge level of pua - intermediate

number of girls i have had sex with - 4

total times having sex - 5

number of Blow-jobs - 2

hand jobs - 1

top HB i had sex with was a 7.9

current sexual status: none, stagnent

main issues with not getting laid: logistical, no car, bad house, limited friends group.


- first time i learned about cuckold was in an interracial porn site.... the girls were much hotter then i seen on most sites.....

in these interracial porno's, sometimes there as a white guy there, being cuckolded..... i find it Weird, and a huge turn off.....

seeing these guys being cuckold, made it hard to jerk off to these hot girls... it was a turn off.

i now find those old videos to be slightly more erotic, maby even noticeably more erotic, but i still focus more on the girl and imagining me being the one to fark her... sometimes... hmmmm........

i no longer look at those video's with cuckold in them, as i got bored with the girls on the site, and moved on.

i also read one hot sex story, about a hot girl getting plowed in front of her father, because she had dirt on him , and would tell the mom... the dad got cuckolded, but at time, i did not focus on the fathers pain,, i focused on how hot it must of been to be the lucky guy , banging the girl....... now i focus on both.. disturbing.

Please help me.. i know the rules of pua, i have agreed with them since child-hood, even though before i found pua, i was forced to supress those idea's (my aunt hit me with an ad-hominum attack, when i said i didnt want to pull out chairs and pay, and stuff)

of course, now i stick to my guns, and as ussual, most girls accept my rejection of there entitlemnt syndrom, even if i verbalize it

but what about these cuckuld thought i seem to be having?

what the hell is wrong with me?

There's your problem right there. Not enough sex! Who cares about the damn cuckold story, I'm not going to even bother to look that up. You're using "pornography" as your outlet rather than real sex. Someone posted somewhere on the forum to cut it out with the pornography. It's dragging you down. Go try to fuck real women. This isn't enough sex; for comparison, I lost my virginity at 17, had 1 girlfriend for about 5 months, and got laid lots more than that while I was with her. 5 times, that's like what, 2 weeks worth of sex at most? and maybe not even as much as 1 week, depending on the woman.

I understand the whole cuckhold thing and your situation.

It is the result of deep insecurities, lack of a regular sex life, and too much reliance on fantasy and porn.

my advice is completely quit all porn in all forms and cut back on masturbation. use that time and energy to go out in public and talk to women.

Nothing is wrong with you and who gives a sht about the thoughts man thats insecurity,theyre just thoughts ,youll have to learn to accept them say 'whatever' and move foward.Crank up your alpha personality so that your more on the doninating side not being dominated.Im sure we all have a few weird thoughts and the more we focus on them and think theyre taboo the more they become erotic to think about.
As said stop watching porn it usually only gets worse and worse untill your watching some freaky deaky lesbians crap on each other haha.
Most porn sites have so many catagories that it just shows what people are buying and into and its so diverse.
Im not a psycologist but i do have a advanced cert in a similar field id probably ask when does your mind tell you this first began? so as you initially wrote its part of an event in your life that has predisposed you to it.Unless you have religious reasons to get rid of it id just put it in the catagory of 'what ive thought' and not 'who i am'.

thank for your responses,, you all have good points,, i think this may stem from pornogrphy, and insecuritys.. i will switch my focus, to women in the real world, as to incress my rate of sex with more girls...

and if i do observb more pornogrphics writtings,, it will be of the purly male domination, female sex slave kind,,, since thse typs of things seems to have a lingering effect on my mind, perhaps i may gain some bennifit from attempting to change my focus of fantasys, as i get more involed with women in the real, every day world