| Alot of my previous confidence - before pick up was that despite having a large Roman nose (like all the males in my family) I was otherwise attractive. Also, I could dispell "limiting beliefs" by remember times were I had got with HB 8,9,10.
Id been told I was goodlooking and some had called me ugly but I knew that it was a matter of taste and that most girls did see me as attractive to an extent. I knew my league so to speak, and I could easily get a 6 but a times get a 9 and so on. I was enjoying using game also.
I got into a fight (first since I was 14 or something), over some stupid stuff outside McDonalds after a night out - he swung first or I would have walked away. The the guy caught be square on the nose and again from the side of it. Blood everywhere and felt tender for weeks. I was swollen but nothing seemed out of place. 5 months later I have a camel nose and and bumps coming out of each side. It doesnt look cool whatsoever - makes my nose look very hooked or 'Jewish' (dont mean that in a racist way) and twisted from both sides, the bumps also shine in the the light. Its drastically changed my appearance and now where I could take confidence in "coups" of the past to dispell any limiting beliefs, I can no longer, as this was an old me, a more attractive me. My nose was borderline ugly and hooked, and now its way worse and bigger, bumpy and bent. Scary thing is - the bumps are still growing.
Any advice guys to shoot my confidence back up?
I just feel like, I cant be seen as attractive at all and it annoys me as I used to be a fairly good looking guy - I dont think anyone would ever take a liking to me without some serious game and then after that the attraction would no doubt not last. Kinda afraid I wont get the same responses - and to an extent ive noticed chicks I previously would have been able to game, dont seem interested at all. Girls that would maybe have chose me over a friend, now go for the them if they are approaching us on the dancefloor or something.
Reading that I realise how AFC I sound but its scary having your whole appearance taken from you - I probably would be more confident if I started out like this, but its like learning my place with woman again, as an unattractive person.
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