| ok, its been like 5 months already and i cant stop thinkin about oneitis! I've been flooding my mind with shit like "i dont care, i dont giva a damn, i dont find her attractive, she is not special and so on" Distracting my self with stuff when i started thinkin about her.. We are in same class at school. In school i ignore her as possible, but still some random talks ( not me starting them) Everything was going great, for 1st time in my life i was feeling happy. I was goin out with other girls, i've felt the difference in me, i was better at everything, untill today. I again started thinkin about her, i've tried to distract my self with music, it didnt work at all! It got even worse... I've been reading some stuff in the forum, about what we want, who we want to be, that we have to be clear with ourselfs etc and i've become clear to my self, i want her... i cant lie to my self anymore, its killin me inside. Before those 5 months she gave me chances but then i was so afraid and fucked them all, then everything start falling apart... I dont have fear now, but its late now. I wish i could go back in time, beat my self up and put some thoughts in my head. I'm really confused now, i know im better, but all i want is to share with her. I dont know what to do now, im back at the start, even before the start... You guys 've been here?How did you pass it? Can you give me some advices or something? im at the middle of nowhere and i donno where should i go...
Thank you for reading.
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