I'm 21, at 16 I developed a rare muscle disease that nearly destroyed my entire body, rendering me motionless and in non-stop pain for 2 years. Being unable to walk, move, stand, sit or lay down... Fortunetly (thank God) I received meds and did 2 weeks of rehab, than taught myself how to get better. I beat it. And am fully recovered. I'm not saying this for pitty, I don't need it, I'm just explaining.

However, my family/Dad was never there for me so I never learned a trade or how to work. What it boils down to, on the inside I feel that I hv a secret that I'm hiding from ppl or from woman. I feel like a nobody a loser that has no job, no car and no life. And I just hide it from girls so they won't think less of me. But in reality, I'm extremely gifted, smart, I'm a gifted song writer, fast learner (I taught my self magic, instruments, how to drive, blow fire out of my mouth, almost anything lol). I have SO much potential and I'm beautiful on the inside.

And it's my fear that it all my go to waste. And I hv no idea how to fix my life and life the life I want to. I hope I explained myself properly. I'd really appreciate your advice even if it's something I wouldn't want to hear, I'm determined!

My goal right now is to get a 1) Nice Car 2) an apartment 3) A good way to MAKE MONEY. Overall my goal is to be independent. I spoke with a few PUA's I know about this and it was very inspiring, I'd also like to see what everyone else has to say. What can I do to reach my goals?

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Why not use your story and turn it into a Youtube video?

Nearly dying then pulling through to make a full recovery is a miracle and you should be proud of it. Girls love that shit. Stop aspiring to be normal. Your story is what makes you unique. Stop hiding it.

Thanks for your encouragement! However, I'm not hiding the fact that I was sick. The part I mentioned about feeling that I'm a loser because of the financial issues in my life is what's effecting me so deeply.

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You're only young. Start at the bottom and work your way up. Women are attracted to men with drive and ambition, even if they're not rich yet. You can still get laid without being rich, as long as you have something going for you.

Creatively, what are you good at? DJing? Fashion? Music? Art? Surfing?

Being a "sports fan" or "music fan" or "movie fan" is not good enough. You need to find something you're good at, something which involves getting off your ass and making shit happen. Organise events / parties etc.

If you can't get a job, consider starting a business. But remember that choosing this path will mean you need to SPEND money in order to MAKE money.

Start small and build up slowly. Bar-tenders get laid all the time, even though their job could be perceived as "minimum wage" or low value socially.

You seem like you have so much going for you! I've been in a similar position before, that feeling of low value sucks but in my experience focusing on the negatives won't help you! Persist with the positives in your life and really make them the focal points of any interaction with everybody you meet! Be proud of your achievements because you have the right to be proud! If you can do that then all kinds of possibilities will open up for you!
Like hunter_foxe said: get a bar job in a high profile club! My second job is at a university bar with all my game experience I get laid by a different girl most weekends! It's ultimate social value and you'll love the fun of it!
Keep plugging mate life is what YOU make of it!
Júan