About two months ago I started college. It was a fresh start in my mind, and for some reason, all of my anxiety and lack of confidence and awkwardness I left behind. Well, that's not completely true, for the first day or two I was nervous and anxious, but after that my self confidence had never been higher and anxiety had never been lower. I was able to make friends with everyone and talk to any girl without any AA. At parties, girls hit on me, I didn't have to do anything. It felt good, I was happy.

Then something happened. After a few weeks, this effect seemed to wear off. I fell into my old habits of nervousness and unconfidence. People didn't like this new (old?) me, and my relationships with many people died.

I don't really know what happened. Perhaps those first few weeks were just a front that I could never really make permanent? It didn't feel that way, I felt natural.

I want to know what happened, why I returned to my old self, and what I can do to go back to my college self.

Sounds like you based your inner game on outer game success. SO that stops and your confidence drops.

Try to rewire your brain to base it on inner stuff.

It wasnt inner game, it was outer confidence based on habit...

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