So I'm in a pretty confused state at the moment.
First time poster, long time reader. High school senior, got into the game a couple years ago after reading the book. I've used maybe a few canned lines in the past but I've definitely been all natural cocky & funny ever since.
So after hooking up with many girls, I ended up dating this one girl and kinda ended up falling for her. After about 4 months, I grew frustrated with her as we were in a relationship and she still put on this front acting hard to get and what not in subtle ways and it definitely pissed me off.
I place a lot of value on myself, I know what I'm worth, and I know that I definitely don't deserve that and that many girls would kill to have been in her place

however, I definitely liked this girl a lot and did not want to walk away from it. After about 6 months, she ended up ending the relationship; I was highly upset and devastated, tried to put up a little fight and explain the situation, but in the end I was just fed up. She said she just didn't think things were working out, taht she felt like I was always upset at her, and it somehow came up that she just wanted to talk to other guys and didn't want to go to college tied down. We're going to the same college... If she wasn't going to try then neither was I... I always felt like she never tried or put in an effort. Things had been so different when we were just starting out, she did little cute things, sent flirty text messages all the time, and life was good. Things ended up changing.
It ended kinda nasty, I told her I needed some space, and even though we saw eac other at school every day I definitely avoided her and pretty much only said a hand full of words to her for about the first month. In the second month now, and I'm still not over her despite my best efforts; I just can't forget her, I definitely still like her despite trying to suppress my feelings. I've hooked up with several girls since, felt like complete shit after each hook up and just ended up missing her even more.
Things have changed over the past couple weeks, now the second month after breaking up. We've started talking again, and it definitely seems like she's been flirting with me. IDK, my game's rusty, but I think I can still tell an IOI lol

The one guy she used to have a thing with before me is flirting with her again, and was definitely still present throughout the relationship as we all go to the same school. Me being the secure and confident guy I am dismissed him as a threat completely; I wasn't worried about it at all, it just bugged me a bit because I felt like I was being tested.
Seeing him talking to her today, touching her, and what not.... KILLED me. I can't stop thinking about it. I have these animalistic thoughts and feelings and I definitely feel like they're NATURAL. This is the one girl I've ever cared about out of ALL the girls I've ever done anything with or had a thing with and I HATE seeing that. I feel like since it's a natural urge then maybe it isn't some AFC bullshit and maybe I should be embracing it to an extent. I HATE feeling this way, I feel like I should be able to control this situation, and I just want her back...
Maybe not want her back completely, but as selfish as it may sound I do want whatever attraction there may still be to be amplified and I want to constantly be on her mind; I don't want her talking to any other guys. I might put up a front acting like I don't care, but I definitely do... and it kills me. I'm over the rejection part, it hurt, but fuck it. I feel like I deserve better than her, at least SPAM wise, but at the same time I still want her... IDK what to do, but for now I feel like it's best to focus on this sentiment I have of wanting her to be stuck on me, to still like me...
I guess one question would be how to go about this naturally? But at the same time I just need some advice, and maybe a shoulder to cry on lol... fucking AFC as hell! I hate feeling like this.