Hello you old seadogs

Title of this post seem intriguing? It should be.

I had a mild nervous breakdown about a week ago when I realized that I had become a walking penis. This is a result of a lifestyle trajectory that has propelled me into an increasingly one dimensional man. I am worried that this condition could plague the community, however, it serves as a crucial gateway along the journey of becoming a better person.

Let me tell you about the moment when the realization finally struck me...

I'm at a club, with buddies. We're all a bit tired and have an early flight in the morning, but it's our last night out, so we're having a few and seeing what happens. Enter the Estonians. Gorgeous women who we were working with. The ringleader, Elsa, has a thing for me, maybe. Her friend approaches me and asks why I'm playing so hard to get with Elsa...

I know damn well why: because she is a classic Alpha female who wants nothing more than my attention before she crushes me under her heel, but I'm not giving it to her, and shes embarrassed in front of her friends.

I decide that I like her friend better while shes bringing me onto the dance floor to look for Elsa...

I start to dance with her friend, shes soft and sexy, I like her much better, a real nice girl. She looks nervous, we make out, she pulls away, starts speaking anxious Estonian, looking around frantically, and runs away. My friends and I stand there laughing. Elsa is on the dance floor, we ignore each other.

Later, I see the friend again. Her name is Heidi. She says that Elsa is better than her as she looks around the club. I tell her that's not true, but it's too late. Elsa has her on lock down, and I'm a walking penis.

I bump into Elsa in the hallway, she smiles. We get close, I figure I'll give her what she wants. I go for a kiss, she pulls away. Fuck. I tell her we need to talk.

I ask her whats going on with us. She looks frustrated. She compares me to a friend of mine and says "I like Kyle because he's a genuinely nice guy. You, you're just an asshole with good looks"

BOOM.

Epiphany.

Normally, most guys might like to hear this comment. In fact, I've heard this comment from several women who've I've achieved successful results with. Normally, it would just add to my game. But not this time. After many similar signs accumulating over the course of the summer, this represents my diminishing personality and lack of inner game. It hurt because it was true. I was depressed for a few days and am still feeling the affects, but this was merely the straw that broke the camels back after a long saga of events.

The question is, how do you rediscover your personality? How do you become less of an asshole without being fake? I feel like a shell of a man.

Perhaps realization is the first step, but then what?

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some will rob you with a six-gun, some with a fountain pen...

Hey man,

first of all: "I hear you man..." I like the other epiphanies a hell of a lot better. You know, the ones where all of a sudden the parts of this puzzle we call game come together and it just *clicks. But back to the problem at hand.

If you are walking around feeling like the only reason girls are talking to you is because you are relatively better looking then the next guy, you need to reframe your mindset. First of all think about what you have accomplished so far. Do you remember the very first thing you did after hearing about the community? Do you remember the feeling you had after your first successes and thinking: "Damn... this shit works!!" Do you remember the things you did to improve yourself? How much you have grown since that first encounter with the world of pua-try? Was it really all about the looks?

Well now, after remembering all of this.. Do you really think you need to completely reinvent your personality? What you can (what everybody should be doing) is constantly making sure your are the very best you can be. Keep improving yourself. Learn new skills. Meet funny people. Invent the next Playboy Mansion(the best idea in human history in my humble opinion). And, perhaps the most important piece of advice I have for you: Don't revolve your life around Pick-up, make it a part of it.

Next time anyone is trying to lower your self esteem by saying your attraction is only based on your looks tell yourself this: "If what this girl is saying really true, then why is she still talking to me? If she thinks I'm an asshole why even give me that pointer, why try to improve me?" Because she can feel (girls are really receptive to these vibes) there is more to you.

Hope this helps. And please excuse any spelling mistakes and stuff.

Peace, Unity and Applejuice

HeRoiC

That first reply was fantastic, I only offer a few more ideas. First of all, when the girls are calling you an asshole, thats because thats the frame u have set up. I assume u use alot of cocky funny material to ur advantage because like me your pretty good looking. I get the same thing, i had 5 girls call me an ass in one day, but they all keep talking to me. I dont let it get to me, i use it to fuel me, for everytime i get them to call me an ass, its sort of an emotional war inside them. They may say im an ass, but all the laughing and all the smiling shows me that this is just thier own ASD trying to "protect them". Id say dont change ur personality if your looking just to game the average girl, however if you want a girlfriend, small changed might need to be made. Just focus ur attention on finding girls tho arent so "alpha female" and hunt fo ra girl who actually appriciates a personality. You need to get back to the things that interested you as a kid, and the things u grew up idolizing. Become an expert in one of ur hobbies and centre ur personality around the thing you like doing best when ur alone, unless its wackin off, then u might need to take the next thing on the list lol

Heroic say its perfect!!!