i had a little realization tonight, and that is when i have a good, on!!, night, where I'm social, having fun and have female attention i feel the exact same way when i'm standing in front of a guy, who's about to cave my head in with his fist.

i'll try an explain it but its weird, i wouldnt call it agressive, but it does feel very primal, after reading books on " being in the moment" i guess thats whats happening when I'm doing martial arts, I'm focused, I act according to whats being presented to me "in the moment"- something happens and i reply

tyler durden talks about seeing the depth of things in the blueprint decoded, is this it??.... i can see what everyones up to in the room, things seem distant, i can tell how someones feeling by looking at them, who's insecure who's attracted to who, the leader in the group, is that seeing the depth of things???

I guess it's just seeing things as they happen, for example- the flip of the hair as she walked past, the little look, something just made a loud noise, someone over there is laughing, the couple over there just had a private joke about the plum danceing next to them.... she just moved a little closer, he has the value everyone is looking at him, she's upset, he's angry, that guys gonna be funny.

.i rememeber the other night i was just looking across the dance floor and there was a man and a women danceing, i guess my attention rested on them both ....

this might sound weird but i was overcome with feeling's of joy cause i guess what it was is that i saw into there moment, the bubble they were both in .." and mumbled to myself ..." life is truly precious"


anyways hope you kinda get the the way I've started to see things now since getting into this...let us know if you think i need pro help and got this all messed up lol