Well, I am 18 years old going to college next year. I'm an aware person socially and in general a good student and a bright guy. When i was in 5th grade, i saw my first porno. Been doin that ever since, so thats about 7 years of daily masturbation. Also, when I was 14 years old, I smoked marijuana for the first time and I have been a daily user hardcore for like a year or two. Recently in the last year, i have noticed a lot of changes and I am not connecting the dot. I took psychadelic drugs, which is not like me at all, I developed what i am diagnosing myself with slight schitzophrenia, like hearing things in my head and a slight loss of focus, like my brain is a bird just flying wherever it wants to go without direction. Also, social anxiety, depression, feeling detached from everything. Low confidence, even though I am very socially aware and I know whats going on and what people are thinking and wanting, there is a wall that seperates my abilities from what I am actually capable of. And one of the worst things, I was in the pool skinnydipping with my best friend and 3 hot girls, and a girl that i have wanted to fuck since like 8th grade sat on my lap naked and i didnt even get a boner. Not to say that isnt from being incredibly intoxicated, but seriously, things have gone too far. I never connected the dots as to what might be causing all this until now. I have been overloading my reward circuit with pot and masturbating like a mad man, the highlight to my day would be smoking a fat bowl out of a bong and wankin it. I did take a break from smoking pot for a week and was totally suprised by the power, clarity, and direction of my brain.

SO. Now its time to experiment and see what is going to happen when I let my brain go back to its normal circuiting. Excuse me while I smoke more weed then Bob Marley and jack off harder then a horny school boy for the last time before i begin my experiment. First, no masturbation for 7 days. Then no masturbation for 7 days and no weed for 7 days. Anybody with me? I have a feeling this will be an eye opening experience and is gonna make me a playa playa

I wrote up a really long post but It was pretty mean man, I didn't mean for it to be. It was just coming across brutal.... So it's PM'd in your box bro. Sorry if it sounds brutal.

Peace and Love

Vic

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